tired of crying

[mommy of three angels]

Jared has decided to break up with me last tuesday, its been a whole week and some days... He knows WE are currently pregnant again with our 3 baby...... he told me he loves me but not in love with me. What does that really mean? How can you love someone but not be in love with them??? I checked his v.mail and there was another women on it saying hi baby blah blah blah and she loves him. i confruinted him about it and he claims he dont know who it is, but inside my heart i belive he does... We go to childrens hopsital to see if our angel has all his/her organs january 7th.. He told me he would take me and be there for me but not the way i REALLY need him to be... What shall i do? I dont want to be alone for xmas this year or when i got to c.h.o.p!!!! I should speak to a lawyer and get papers drawn up if the baby doesnt surive he pays for the cremation..... why cant i find someone who loves me for me and can treat me right? Am i such a horrible person that doesnt deserve to be loved or cuddled with?? the sad part is id take him back in a heart beat. can you guys give me any advice?:mad:

[cartersmomanddad]

Advice...no.

But I can tell you that you are worth more than you will ever know. And there is someone out there who will show you that love in ways you could never imagine.

You will be in my prayers as you go through this. Hang in there!

[Abigailsmommy]

Jessica, I am sorry you are having to go through this on top of already losing 2 precious babies..... I agree with Sara.. ONe day you will find that perfect person for you. If Jared does not want to be with you then he is not worth it. I know that is hard to live with when you love that person. But you are worth more than that and you WILL meet someone one day that realizes that and that cherishes you !!!

[mommy of three angels]

thank you so much ladies.... i belive my heart is starting to heal

[Hailey's Mommy]

Hello,

I have went through the same thing...my ex and I split and while going through our losses and pregnancy i later learned their were a couple other women involved in OUR situation....there are no words anyone can say to explain that feeling or comfort you...but just know after all the heartbreak i went through..i am now again in love with someone else and i feel like a whole new person. There is someone out there for you, less than a yr ago i felt the same as you and I am now happier than I have ever been! There are days when i still think about what would have been had we not lost 2 children but it is what it is and it was someones way of saying it wasnt right! You will find happiness again just dont give up :)

[mommy of three angels]

I hope my hearts able to let jared go... Im so afraid to go deliver this baby alone if he/she dont surive.... Thank you all so very much for your kind words