Scott Hays
11-20-2005, 11:14 AM
Hey everyone,
My name is Scott Hays, and I'm a photographer in Boise Idaho. I'm brand spankin' new to NILMDTS.
Back on November 23, 1986, on the due date of my wifes and mine first pregnancy, like most parents, we hoped that this would be the day my wife went into labor. The night before, we felt our baby moving around normally, and all was well. Around noon on the 23rd, my wife noticed the baby hadn't moved for quite awhile, so we called our doctor, and all though he didn't think there was much to worry about, he had us meet him at the hospital to reassure us.
When we got there, he did an ultrasound, and our worst fears came true. There was no heart beat. The grief was unimaginable. After inducing labor, several hours later, we delivered what had to be the most beautiful baby girl that had ever been born. We named her Lindsey Breanna. It was so hard to believe that little angel wasn't going to physically be in our lives.
About 15 minutes after we had been holding her, a nurse came in with a Polaroid camera, and talked to us about taking pictures of Lindsey and us. It was a little overwhelming at first, but we agreed. Never have I been so happy to have made a decision in my life. Those pictures are so precious to me now.
As the years have passed, things have gotten easier. We still celebrate Lindseys birthday. We have family that will still send little gifts, and we always buy flowers. The hardest things over the years were the little milestones. When she would have started school, when she would have turned 13 (dont' know if I would have liked the teenage years. I have two of them now. I wonder if she would have been a good teenager). 16, when she would have gotten her drivers license. What would her first boyfriend have been like. She would have graduated this last year. Things like that.
With her birthday coming up, I finally decided this is something that I could do. Cheryl sent me a note when she received my application talking about our children having met and our now playing together. It touched me, and I now know that I'm in the right place. I feel like I'm honoring Lindsey by doing this. After 19 years, I feel like I'm finally able to talk about Lindsey to friends. It freaks them out, but I love that little girl, and she is my daughter and always will be.
Scott
My name is Scott Hays, and I'm a photographer in Boise Idaho. I'm brand spankin' new to NILMDTS.
Back on November 23, 1986, on the due date of my wifes and mine first pregnancy, like most parents, we hoped that this would be the day my wife went into labor. The night before, we felt our baby moving around normally, and all was well. Around noon on the 23rd, my wife noticed the baby hadn't moved for quite awhile, so we called our doctor, and all though he didn't think there was much to worry about, he had us meet him at the hospital to reassure us.
When we got there, he did an ultrasound, and our worst fears came true. There was no heart beat. The grief was unimaginable. After inducing labor, several hours later, we delivered what had to be the most beautiful baby girl that had ever been born. We named her Lindsey Breanna. It was so hard to believe that little angel wasn't going to physically be in our lives.
About 15 minutes after we had been holding her, a nurse came in with a Polaroid camera, and talked to us about taking pictures of Lindsey and us. It was a little overwhelming at first, but we agreed. Never have I been so happy to have made a decision in my life. Those pictures are so precious to me now.
As the years have passed, things have gotten easier. We still celebrate Lindseys birthday. We have family that will still send little gifts, and we always buy flowers. The hardest things over the years were the little milestones. When she would have started school, when she would have turned 13 (dont' know if I would have liked the teenage years. I have two of them now. I wonder if she would have been a good teenager). 16, when she would have gotten her drivers license. What would her first boyfriend have been like. She would have graduated this last year. Things like that.
With her birthday coming up, I finally decided this is something that I could do. Cheryl sent me a note when she received my application talking about our children having met and our now playing together. It touched me, and I now know that I'm in the right place. I feel like I'm honoring Lindsey by doing this. After 19 years, I feel like I'm finally able to talk about Lindsey to friends. It freaks them out, but I love that little girl, and she is my daughter and always will be.
Scott