My Second Baby Angel

[Rayna']

Last January I had a miscarriage at 10 1/2 weeks. It took me until July to try again because I was depressed. We were able to get pregnant in July & were so excited. Anyways, for the past two weeks I've been spotting alittle everyday. I knew there was something wrong but I was in denial. I wanted to be futher along in my pregnancy than last time. On Wednesday I was 12 weeks, but that morning my spotting was bright red. I went to the doctor & found out there wasn't a heartbeat & I was in the process of having another miscarriage. Thank god my husband was there because I screamed & cried for a long time. I was so angry and sad.
I had my procedure yesterday. Please pray for me and my family. Right now I am in the numbing stage & it really hasn't hit me yet.
My doctor is going to run some test to see if I have a bloodclot disorder. We are going to try to figure out why I had 2 within 8 months.

[Angie Bocquin]

Rayna,

I am so sorry to hear about this. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

I hope that you will be able to get some answers froms the Dr.'s although, I am sure that will not help how you feel right now.

Angie


Last January I had a miscarriage at 10 1/2 weeks. It took me until July to try again because I was depressed. We were able to get pregnant in July & were so excited. Anyways, for the past two weeks I've been spotting alittle everyday. I knew there was something wrong but I was in denial. I wanted to be futher along in my pregnancy than last time. On Wednesday I was 12 weeks, but that morning my spotting was bright red. I went to the doctor & found out there wasn't a heartbeat & I was in the process of having another miscarriage. Thank god my husband was there because I screamed & cried for a long time. I was so angry and sad.
I had my procedure yesterday. Please pray for me and my family. Right now I am in the numbing stage & it really hasn't hit me yet.
My doctor is going to run some test to see if I have a bloodclot disorder. We are going to try to figure out why I had 2 within 8 months.

[Sandra Rodgers]

Rayna -

So sorry to hear of your loss. Your family is in my prayers tonight.

Sandra

[Jennifer Turner]

Oh Rayna, I am SO sorry. I can't imagine what you are going thru. I know theres nothing we can say to help, but know that you are in my thoughts and prayers

[DeeDee Ortiz]

I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you BIG HUGS, and prayers.

[Andrea Hillis]

Oh Rayna, I am SO sorry to hear this! You are in my prayers.

A.

[Jamie Weiss]

I will be praying too!

[Rayna']

thanks guys! I am doing better. Went back to work today & didn't cry once.

[Kathi Buss]

Rayna,
Bless your heart, you have endured so much. I will pray that the Dr. will find specifically what is happening and they will be able to help you.
Kathi

[Kelly Story]

Hang in there, Rayna. There's lots of prayers going up for you and your family.

Take Care,

[Lori Aschbrenner]

Rayna,

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I lost three little angels before I was able to carry a child to full term. I know that doesn't replace the child you lost, but sometimes it's comforting to know that having more than one doesn't necessarily mean that there is something wrong. You are in my prayers.

~ Lori

Mom to Caitlin, Brianna, Gabrielle, Caleb and five little angels.

[Michelle Pesce]

Rayna, I am so so so sorry. I too have had a miscarriage, and my heart goes out to you.

- Michelle

[kneka]

I'm so sorry for your pain and loss. Prayers said for you.

[Rayna']

thanks everyone. I am doing better. I appreciate all the support.

[Rayna']

Today have a my two week checkup & I'm having anxiety. With 2 miscarriages this year, every time I go to the OB I get anxiety. I can't help it. I am hoping he has some suggestions to why I've done it twice in 8 months. I doubt he will say this...but I am so scared he going to say that he recommends that I not try to have any kids. I know that is silly, but I can't help it.

[Kirk Kief]

Rayna'
I have so much respect for you. To have gone through what you have, and yet you offer so much support and energy here for this mission. You are in my prayers that all goes well at the Dr.s visit. Your fears are not silly. We are all here for you!

[Rayna']

thanks Kirk. If I didn't have NILMDTS in my life, I don't know where I would be mentally/emotionally. Giving something to others that I haven't been able to get myself (not far along enough in pregnancy for pics) means alot to me.

[Lori Aschbrenner]

Rayna,

I've been thinking about you and keeping you in my prayers since I read your post earlier today. Hope that the doctor gave you encouraging news.

~ Lori

[Rayna']

I went to the doctor. My blood work came back with the problem he thought I had. I have to go to a maternial fetal specialist on Tuesday to get a second opinion. If this doctor agrees, then I will have to start taking baby asprin everyday & then when it's time to create a baby then I will have to take a shot everyday. I think I will have to do shots during the pregnancy.
It looks like that my body creates blood clots in the babies & they aren't able to grow, I believe.
I am glad that it looks like we have found out the problem, but then I am sad that I have to wait awhile to start trying again. I was hoping to start trying in November. I am such a control freak & this is so out of my control. It is a learning experience.

[Jessi Hill]

Rayna,
I just read this and want you to know I an sooooo sorry, but also happy that they may have an answer to why... not to mention a solution. Like someone else said it won't replace the angels you have lost, but it does let you know it was nothin you did/ or didn't do. I wish you the best of luck in the future for pregnancy and delivery of a healthy baby. You are an amazing part of NILMDTS!!! Take care of yourself!

[Michelle Pesce]

What Jessi said! Having some answers finally is huge, and even though it sounds like it will be a laborious process for you, at least you have a way to go forward again.

You are in my thoughts and prayers, honey.

- Michelle

[Rayna']

Knowing that it is my body that is causing my babies not to live caused me to be very upset last night. I know it is not my fault, but I couldn’t help it. I just felt very down & depressed last night. I am glad there is a possible solution, but now I don’t know if I want to try again. I just have questions about the whole thing. Is there a possibility that this condition with the daily shots cause the baby to have some sort of disability? Is there still a possibility that I could still lose the baby during my pregnancy? I guess I am just scared.
The biggest motivation for me to have another child is Coleman. I feel really bad that he is an only child. I love having a sister & I can’t imagine not having her in my life. I don’t know many people that are only children so I don’t know what that is like. I guess I have a lot of thinking to do.

[Rayna']

I went to the maternal & fetal specialist yesterday. It looks like blood clots are not the cause of my miscarriages. I can’t remember the names & such that he used, but it looks like there is a protein problem. He wants to run other tests to make sure, but he thinks before I start trying again I would just need to take folic acid everyday. I wish I had known to take folic acid before having my miscarriages. Oh well. Hopefully this is the only problem with a simple solution.

We closed on a house yesterday. I’m having a hard time getting excited. We’ve been wanting to move for years. When we were first looking at this house I was pregnant. But now I am not & every time we leave the new house I cry. It was suppose to be new house plus baby and now it is just a new house. I can’t help but to be sad. With having the miscarriage on the 15th & now moving it just seems a lot to handle right now. I should be packing because we are planning on moving this weekend, but I haven’t done one thing. I just can’t get motivated.

[Tammy]

Rayna~
As someone once told me when I was having one (or MANY) of those non-motivational days~ if all you do is wake up in the morning... so be it. You have been through so much this past year and yet... you still have a giving heart. That is such an inspiration, I admire you so much for that. You are an amazing, amazing woman...
I will continue to hold you in my thoughts and prayers, in hopes Colman will one day be a big brother~ again. :o He will be a great one, probably VERY protective. ;) Be prepared~ ((( hugs to you )))

[Cheryl Haggard]

Rayna-
One foot in front of the other...That will carry you for now.
I wish I could take away some of your pain, but I can't.
Just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers...
(((((MANY BIG HUGS)))))
Cheryl

[Rayna']

thanks y'all. We started moving a few things in yesterday & it was actually exciting. Hopefully when the move is complete I won't get too upset about the big change.
It is so nice to have somewhere to go to express my concerns & feelings. My family tries, but they don't fully understand. I appreciate everyone.