Scott Hays
10-13-2006, 12:22 PM
I swear, some times it doesn't start until November, sometimes it starts earlier. This year it's obviously earlier. Lindsey's birthday isn't until November 23, but I've started thinking about her more and more recently.
Here's the catch though. It isn't a bad thing this year. At least not at this point. It's kind of, well, happy thoughts. Getting to know all of you over this last year had made this a different mind set for me. I know that Lindsey has so many friends to play with, so many little friends to watch over. I can place these friends with names now. There's Maddux, Chase, Cydney Paige, Kendall, and so many others that I can't begin to list. There are those that I've photographed that have given me solice. I know Lindsey has been there through my sessions giving me strength and the ability to do my best.
Lindsey is such an important part of my life. I find myself talking to her on a daily basis. It isn't sad talk, it's more of a just letting her know what's been going on, letting her know how Kaley, her sister, is doing in her swim meets, seeing if Lindsey can't maybe help propell her through the water just a little faster. Making sure that her brother Zach doesn't get into to much trouble. He's going into the Navy in February, so we want to make sure he stays safe. I guess you could say they are little prayers to her. Other times they are just little conversations to her.
I wonder what a 20 year old girl would want for her birthday. It would be a hard one that's for sure. There's still that question of what would she be doing. I don't think that question will ever go away. It just changes a little as time goes by. You think of different scenarios with each passing year.
I just wanted to share that because of this forum, and because of all of you sharing your stories, that it's looking like this years birthday might be easier than it's been in I don't know how long. So thank you for sharing, as hard as it's been for you. I hope others can benefit as I have.
Bless you all
Scott
Here's the catch though. It isn't a bad thing this year. At least not at this point. It's kind of, well, happy thoughts. Getting to know all of you over this last year had made this a different mind set for me. I know that Lindsey has so many friends to play with, so many little friends to watch over. I can place these friends with names now. There's Maddux, Chase, Cydney Paige, Kendall, and so many others that I can't begin to list. There are those that I've photographed that have given me solice. I know Lindsey has been there through my sessions giving me strength and the ability to do my best.
Lindsey is such an important part of my life. I find myself talking to her on a daily basis. It isn't sad talk, it's more of a just letting her know what's been going on, letting her know how Kaley, her sister, is doing in her swim meets, seeing if Lindsey can't maybe help propell her through the water just a little faster. Making sure that her brother Zach doesn't get into to much trouble. He's going into the Navy in February, so we want to make sure he stays safe. I guess you could say they are little prayers to her. Other times they are just little conversations to her.
I wonder what a 20 year old girl would want for her birthday. It would be a hard one that's for sure. There's still that question of what would she be doing. I don't think that question will ever go away. It just changes a little as time goes by. You think of different scenarios with each passing year.
I just wanted to share that because of this forum, and because of all of you sharing your stories, that it's looking like this years birthday might be easier than it's been in I don't know how long. So thank you for sharing, as hard as it's been for you. I hope others can benefit as I have.
Bless you all
Scott