I lost my baby

[Serenity's mommy]

I just lost my daughter on Saturday, Oct 7 due to Trisomy 18. I am not doing so well. I feel so lost and devestated. How do others get through this. I was 5 months pregnant when I found out and was induced. I thank God for the pictures from Heather in St. Paul. How can I post a picture?

[Cheryl Haggard]

I am so sorry for the loss of you baby. My heart, tears and prayers are with you.
I am glad that you have found us here. Within these pages, you will find many friends, and supportive voices. Feel free to share anything and everything you are feeling. You might also just be able to reach out to help another...It's ok to feel everything you are feeling. You need to grieve for yourself, and within your time. No one elses.
If you would like to email the image of your daughter to me, I can post it for you.
Sometimes the images need to be resized, or you could also ask Heather to post for you too. Other than that, the only thing I can tell you to do is go to manage attachments when you are posting...
Maybe Kirk can jump in too, if you can't figure it out...
I'm sure I speak for all when I say, we can't wait to meet your precious baby girl...
Blessings,
Cheryl

[Kirk Kief]

By all means, I'm here to help you however I can. Feel free to email any of your photo's to me and I'll gladly resize them and post them for you. You have your hands, and heart full right now. I can explain how to post them for you, but, I'd rather do it for you, and later I'll walk you through the process. Right now, you need your time, you don't need instructions. That's what we do, here, we do what we can to help. My email is kirk@kiefphoto.com

[Heather Lombardo]

Genelle,

I have all the images of sweet little Serenity, you tell me which one you want posted and I will do it.

I'm glad you came to this forum for support!!

[Scott Hays]

Thank you for coming to the forum. I hope that in time, you will be able to share your story with us. Just know that we all listen very well here.

Bless you and your family.

Scott

[Charlene Lopez]

My heart goes out to you and your family. Serenity is such a beautiful name, I can't wait to see her picture. We are all here for you and please take care of yourself and your need to grieve first and foremost.

Your in my prayers,

[Heather Lombardo]

Here are a couple of sweet Serenity.

[Charlene Lopez]

What precious photos. I love the way you are cradeling her and the saying on your card is beautiful. Someone once told me that most people never even get to see an angel, but I got to hold one. Serenity is truly and angel.

[Sherry Petri]

My heart hurts for you right now. It may feel like you are in an ocean and the waves of anguish, devastation, despair keep pulling you under, giving you only brief moments to surface for air. The roughest part of the storm is right now. Please know that you are not in those waves alone. In a few weeks or months, the cards and flowers will stop and you might wonder if those around you have forgotten. Those who know you and love you will never forget, they just may be afraid that talking about Serenity will make you sad. Little do they know that thoughts of your sweet girl are never far away. Please know that you have friends here who are always ready to listen. I would love to hear the story of how you decided to name her Serenity. It is a beautiful name for a beautiful, precious little girl.

[B Storm]

My love and prayers are with you and your family. My husband David and I lost our baby Samuel on August 24. I was 39 weeks pregnant. Samuel was still born. Go hour by hour, day by day. We are all here for you. Surround your self in your family and friends love. Feel free to email me.

[Serenity's mommy]

Thank you for your kind words. I had a triple screen blood test that said I was a high risk for the Trisomy 18. I had never heard of it and I researched it when I got home from work and was devestated by what I saw and read. I had to wait for two weeks for the level 2 ultrasound and I thought she looked perfect and was moving a lot. That was a good sign, right? I wanted to know if it was a boy or a girl and she said it was a girl! I was so happy until the doctor came in and said that he thought she had the Trisomy 18 and asked if I wanted to do an amnio and I said yes. I only remember thinking that she just had gotten a death sentence because she wouldn't even make it full term with the extent of her condition. I went home for two days and sobbed and shook,ate and drank very little and felt like walking out into the lake and drowning with my child still inside me. At that point my logic started to kick in and I called my doctor and explained that I couldn't calm down to even eat or drink or sleep. She ordered an antianxiety mecication for me and it has some what helped. I still cry a lot and am sad down into the deepest part of my soul. I really wanted my baby. When I found out about having to be induced I lay in bed thinking of a better more fitting name for her. My favorite prayer is the "Serenity Prayer" and what could be more important than that?

[Tammy]

Genelle,
My heart and prayers go out to you and your family, and a special prayer for your precious baby girl Serenity. What a beautiful little girl she is~
I know things are very difficult for you right now, you are experiencing what no parent should ever have to endure. Serenity will be a part of your life forever~ she will never be forgotten. She is a very special baby.
Take things moment by moment, that is all you can do. Like others have said, know you have friends here who will help you through those rough days, we are all here for you... we are here for each other, no matter what.
For me, it has been almost 14 months since our little boy returned to heaven, yet he is with me every single day~ although it may be hard for you to believe this right now at this moment, things do get easier with time. Give yourself the time you need, you deserve that.
Serenity knows she is dearly loved. You are and always will be her mommy who loves her.
Thank you for giving us the priviledge to know you and little Serenity~

[Serenity's mommy]

I am a mother, I am Serenitys mother I just wish I could meet her and hug her and tell her. My mind, heart and soul ache for her.

[Cheryl Haggard]

Genelle,
You did ALL of that...
You met her, you held her, and you told her that you loved her. That will never change. You may not be able to physically hold her in your arms, but you will hold her in your heart forever. And I really think that the love you share will grow stronger.
That is all that any of us can do.
Until the day...we meet them again.
Cheryl

[Cheryl Haggard]

And a message to Samuels mommy,

I am sorry to hear of your loss with Samuel. Know that we are all here for you too. I am glad that you have found us here...
Many blessings,
Cheryl

[Serenity's mommy]

My favorites of Serenity.

[Serenity's mommy]

In honor of Serenity:

[Cheryl Haggard]

I love the image where it shows Serenity in only your hands...How precious.
Thank you so much for sharing her with us.

You know there is a very large playground in Heaven, and all of our babies are happy and safe...playing with eachother...(of course I still see Lindsey having a difficult time keeping things 'orderly'...Hard to do that with your feet and hands tied...) Ha ha Scott..

Gotta say, I love the tat!
Very cool...
I have also been thinking of getting one with the Angel i logo...

[Sandy "Sam" Puc']

There is so much love in this post. You are all such wonderful and strong people. It is so nice to think that so many people from all over the world can meet online and share their pain, sorrow and strengths with each other. You all share a unique bond that no one who has not walked in your shoes could ever understand. There are so many stages of grief and growth. It is wonderful knowing that on the worst days someone one has already been their and can light the way.
You are all such heroes and I am honored to be able to share a little part of your world. Thank you for sharing your little angels with all of us.

Warm regards,
Sam
PS-Cheryl, lets get the Tat together!

[HAINAngel2000]

Precious lady, I am so very sorry for your loss! We lost our little Mariah Belle at 5 months along as well and your pain speaks to me as well. Please know that this Organization is amazing and the people here are some of the most caring people ready to be here for you anytime you need to talk, cry, vent and just be held with love. I love these people here! Your pain hurts all of us and your pain is real and however you heal your doing just fine. Just let yourself hurt and let yourself not hold back. We love you and we are thankful you are here in a sad way but .....

Love Mary

[Serenity's mommy]

I lost my daughter to Trisomy 18 and was looking for some answer, some reason why. I looked at the support family section and see children that are alive. My doctor told me that the baby wouldn't survive until full term. What if he was wrong? What if...it makes me sick to think about it.

[Tammy]

The "what if's" and "what should have been's" are the hardest to deal with...
My heart aches for you Genelle, I wish with everything I have there was an answer for you. Something to bring you comfort... something to ease your pain.
I wish with all my heart, please know I'm thinking of you...
((BIG Hugs))

[Charlene Lopez]

I love your story about naming Serenity, it is truly a beautiful name and thank you for sharing with us.

Cheryl and Sandi...count me in for the tat as well;-)

[Serenity's mommy]

I guess I started something with the tattoo....I think it is awesome!

[Serenity's mommy]

Hello everyone, it has been two weeks and two days since I gave birth to Serenity. I went back to work at an elementary school as a sign language interpreter and all the staff knew I was having a baby but only a couple of students knew. I told the 8 year old boy that I work with directly that "my baby was sick and died and went to heaven to be with God". I held myself together pretty well until after school and then talking with a co worker that had premies born and lived at 26 weeks. She was very supportive as well as the rest of the staff. Although today was school pictures and I kind of behaved like an 8 year old myself when I started to cry and said that I didn't want to. After much persuasion from the secretary I finally got my way and can do it at re-takes. My face is devoid of makeup, my eyes are red rimmed and puffy, I don't feel like smiling and I can't even fake it at the moment. I guess that I just don't want to look back in the year books and see the sadness and despair in my eyes. I feel like I want to throw tantrums all the time about minor things. Is this my way of trying to get some control back in my life. I felt rather silly and childish afterward. Anyone else relate?

[HAINAngel2000]

We all relate with this very much!! I remember times I felt like getting on the floor and throwing a fit, or times I felt like I could cry until I couldn't breath anymore. I felt sometimes so mad at God I could have died just to deck him lol, seriously girl you will go through so many emotions ups and downs and know we are here for you. We love you.- Mary



Hello everyone, it has been two weeks and two days since I gave birth to Serenity. I went back to work at an elementary school as a sign language interpreter and all the staff knew I was having a baby but only a couple of students knew. I told the 8 year old boy that I work with directly that "my baby was sick and died and went to heaven to be with God". I held myself together pretty well until after school and then talking with a co worker that had premies born and lived at 26 weeks. She was very supportive as well as the rest of the staff. Although today was school pictures and I kind of behaved like an 8 year old myself when I started to cry and said that I didn't want to. After much persuasion from the secretary I finally got my way and can do it at re-takes. My face is devoid of makeup, my eyes are red rimmed and puffy, I don't feel like smiling and I can't even fake it at the moment. I guess that I just don't want to look back in the year books and see the sadness and despair in my eyes. I feel like I want to throw tantrums all the time about minor things. Is this my way of trying to get some control back in my life. I felt rather silly and childish afterward. Anyone else relate?

[Charlene Lopez]

Oh yes, you are going through perfectly normal experiences. It's hard to go back to your daily routine with a smile on your face. You will fall into a "new normal" life eventually. Your life has changed dramatically, you have changed dramatically. A certain innocence about life is gone. At times I felt like I was leading a double life, I would cry all the way to work, then at work everything was fine except for a few episodes that eventually faded, and then I would get in my car and cry all the way home.

One night after hours of crying and not being able to sleep I was sitting in the rocking chair in Daniels room and I felt like destroying something. Everything in his room was so beautiful and I didn't want to destroy anything in there so I went into my office and started looking through stuff. I came accross the "Pregnancy for Dummies" book I often referred to and sat on the floor in the dark ripping it to shredds, crying and sobbing uncontrolably. My husband came in and sat down next to me and helped me finish the job. He asked why I was destroying the book and I told him..because it didn't help me at all..I failed!

This may sound jaded, but by the time the book was toast we were both sitting on the floor laughing, we needed the release and I felt so much better afterward. Our cat's were thrilled, they thought we just wanted to play and they helped destroy the paper shredds even further.

That wasn't the first and I'm sure it won't be the last, but the most important thing I have found is just to go with it. I allow myself to feel the way I need to feel and then I can go about my "new normal".

Hang in there:o

[Serenity's mommy]

okay, here is a difficult question....I am 33 years old and single. Getting pregnant with Serenity was what broke my boyfriend and I up. I am now trying to think of the future. I have told people all my life that if I am not married by the time that I am 35, I will "go to the bank". At this point it has only been 3 weeks today since I lost my daughter. As you all know, your life changes along with some of your priorities. I decided to check it out with my clinic if they even do artificial insemination and they said yes. Next, I called my insurance company and asked if it was covered. They said that they will cover 6 times in a row (but I think that it is mostly for infertile couples). Well, I work in a school district and the student count will be down one next year, which means that I will need to get a job at another district. The insurance at a new district may not be as good.
If I decided to do this I would have to start in February. I told my family and they said that they would support whatever I decided to do (I told them that if I decide to do it that it is my decision only and I won't be talked out of it by anyone) but they also said "you can always adopt"! I HATE that! I WANT TO BE PREGNANT AND FAT AND WADDLE AROUND! I WANT TO FEEL THE KICKS AND ALL THAT GOES WITH BEING PREGNANT!
Anyhow, my point is....Am I crazy? Will that be considered "too soon"? If I could, I would do it today. I want to be a mother, I want to have a child, now more than ever. I know that I can't and don't want to replace my daughter. I just want a baby....that's all. Is it too much to ask for in life?

[Bill Tilton]

From a guy's perspective, this seems a bit soon to me — not because of what "society" will think but from your own situation. You've obviously been through a lot recently and I think it's difficult to make a good decision under the circumstances. You've lost a boyfriend, a child and a job recently if I understand your post correctly. That's a lot of emotional stress for anyone!

You are talking about starting a new life. And I'm sure you would be a wonderful mother and would get all the enjoyment out of the experience that you talk about. But I would feel better about your decision if you told me what your plan was for the next 20 years or so. Will you keep working? Who will care for the baby? A baby/child is expensive. Will you be able to handle that? There are certainly emotional stresses on a single parent. Are you confident you can handle those? Do you have a support network that can give you the assistance you will need?

Finally, I would consider discussing all this with a trained counselor — pastor, psychologist, etc. None of this means you're "crazy." I think the emotions you are experiencing are pretty normal, under your circumstances. If you are experiencing a physical pain that doesn't go away, you go to a doctor. I think dealing with emotional pain and turmoil deserves the same attention.

[Jackie Haggerty]

Giselle,

Since your first post, I have followed your thread, viewed your beautiful daughter's images, and felt your heartache as much as I am able to. You haven't been alone, as you can see from the amazing people you have found here.

Following Bill's post, I would like to share a couple of thoughts with you. I can certainly see where your thoughts are with considering another child. You have spent a number of months creating a vision of yourself as a mother, as a nurturer of your child. You are a mother, though God had different plans for you in the fulfullment of your vision than you did. Now you find yourself within a different world that you had planned.

My first recommendation to you is to pray. If you haven't already, find a church that will be your rock, you will find your answers in prayer, if you open your eyes, ears, and heart to know the answers that are given to you, rather than the answers you seek to have.

I understand your thoughts on having another child. What I can recommend the most to you again, is prayer. When you seek the answers in prayer, they will be given to you, and you will go forth with wisdom you won't realize you had before. I have been a single parent, Giselle. To be able to move forward in your decision with wisdom, is when you will find the right time to move forward. Now, looking back, I wish someone had told me the same, and helped me to seek the wisdom I would need to be in that role.

You will know when the right time is, if you seek to find it in God's time. In the meantime, seek the wisdom you will need as your strength when that time comes. As a child, my mother hung an embroidery piece of the Serenity Prayer on our living room wall. This was the first prayer I had ever memorized, as soon as I could read. I know it well, as do you. I am sure you can understand what I am saying through it's words.

Something else I would like to share with you. My son, my first child and the one I raised as a single parent, holds a special place in my heart for an amazing gift he have me. He was the one that made me a mom, just as Serenity has given the same gift to you.

[Serenity's mommy]

Hello everyone, I went for a check up today and the doctor said that she thinks I am doing well. We talked about the Artificial Insemination and she said that she saw no reason that I wouldn't be a good candidate. I would have to work with another doctor who is more of a specialist and has done the procedure before. She said that she does not know if the other doctor has worked with donor sperm before or not and will give me a call and let me know if I can have the procedure done at my regular clinic. Obviously I am not ready to do this now but I am a planner. One way or another I will have a child. I need to have hope for the future.

[Charlene Lopez]

That is so awesome! I'm glad you are planning for the future, no better time than the present. I know that you will have a child someday. We wished and prayed and tried all our options and now we have our little Jasmine who just turned 6-months. I will send well wishes your way;)

[Jessi Hill]

To Serenity's mommy. I think it is a great route to persue, but make sure you give your body adequate time to heal or you could become pregnant and miscarry... I had it happen. (I rushed A LOT- and now regret pushing my body so much, but I was desperate to have a baby) I am glad you are doing well medically and have started to plan your future... just take time to be sure your body can handle it. GOOD LUCK!!!

[Serenity's mommy]

Well, I took the step and talked to my doctor about doing the AI. I have picked a donor and will try to get pregnant again in February. I am starting to take Folic Acid and start again on Prenatal vitamins. I am scared and excited at the same time but I know that I am making the right decision. My family is supportive and they know that I am ready to be a mother. My doctor said that this time around should be fine and that I shouldn't be concerned about a repeat of the Trisomy 18 but until I see that child in my arms, alive and healthy, I will be concerned no matter how many tests we do. I am at the point now where I am accepting the fact that there was nothing that I could have done to change Serenity's fate and that it happened for some reason that I won't understand until I am in front of God himself. Please pray for me that the AI works and that everything will be okay. I'll be updating in February! Genelle

[B Storm]

Genelle,

I can completely relate to your thoughts. We lost our angel baby Samuel in August.(38.5 weeks pregnant) We recently just found out that we are pregnant again. I have been anxious of recent. I can relate when you talk about so many tests. I am now on Heparin therapy(shots everyday). I to do feel the same as you. I will be protected and scared until I have that beautiful baby in my arms and I get to take them home. A friend of mine did AI and she had tremendous success.He is now 2 years old. She lost her first baby at full term. Good Luck and much love!

B. Storm

[angelbabies]

Hi Genelle, my name is Trish, and I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy (Landon Avery) on October 3, 2006. He died on October 21, 2006 after having open-heart surgery. The surgery was successful, but his heart did not want to come off the heart and lung machine, and when they tried to take him off, he had 2 episodes of cardiac arrest. He was bleeding out quite a bit from the chest, and they had to put him on life support to give his heart a break. They found out after doing a CT scan that he had severe damage to his brain due to a lack of oxygen during the cardiac arrests, and there was nothing more they could do. Since my son died, I have experienced every emotion possible, and I completely understand where you are coming from. I also had a miscarriage last year, so in the past 16 months, I have been pregnant 13 of them. My husband and I had spent all this time planning and preparing to have a baby in our home, in our arms, and now we long for it. It's not like you're trying to replace sweet Serenity in any way, she will always hold a place in your heart, so I say if YOU feel that what you need right now is a baby in your life, than I wish you the best of luck!!! My husband and I have been discussing it quite a bit lately, and we too have decided to try again to have another baby. Having another baby, for some people, IS part of their grieving process, sometimes it's what you need to bring a little joy and happiness into your life, and you should NOT feel guilty for that! I feel that you are doing the right thing, and I wish you the best of luck. I will pray that you are successful, and that you are blessed again with a beautiful, and healthy baby!

[Art]

I feel so conflicted.. As a NILMDTS photographer, I have had the honor of being at the birth of so many angels. I have just read this entire thread, and wiped away many tears from Serenity's story. My wife and I are trying to have our first child; there are some issues with both of us that are "slowing" us down. I fear that even if we could become pregnant, what if our child doesn't make it... Sorry for hijacking the thread...

[Cheryl Haggard]

Art,
I will say many prayers for 'all' of you...
C

[Tasha Nicholls]

*HUGS* and wishing you all the best of luck.... I'm praying for you too. :)

[Art]

Thank you Cheryl and Tasha. I have worried about this for some time, and I hope Terri will be there if the need arrises...

[Art]

Sorry, my wife has been in Dallas for three days, and I guess I have the Christmas blues...

[Tasha Nicholls]

Art,

I think that is the only drawback about working with NILMDTS... you are exposed to the reality that people lose babies every day and it can make being pregnant or planning to become pregnant a lot scarier and more stressful.

The ratios don't really mean a lot when you know that it can happen to anyone and have been there firsthand.

[Kirk Kief]

Art,
I pray everything works for you and your wife.

[Serenity's mommy]

I wish you luck! For some reason I'm feeling pretty down today and I looked back at some of my posts and Serenity's pictures. I love this one the most because it shows how much I loved her and I can see all the pain, hurt and anguish that I had been going through. I loved her so much and would do anything so that I hadn't lost her. Some days are harder than others, today is just one of those days.

[Art]

Thank you. Kirk. Are you going to make it to Imaging USA?

[Serenity's mommy]

http://www.nowisleep.com/attachment.php?attachmentid=1359&stc=1&d=1161285280

[Kirk Kief]

Yes, Art. I'll be there(it'll give a chance to antagonize you in person:D ) . We need to, though, return this thread back to Serenity's Mommy.

[Art]

By all means, Kirk!

[angelbabies]

I know what you mean, Genelle, and I think the holidays have a lot to do with that, as well. I had a really rough night last night. When my husband is at work, and I am at home by myself, I find it very difficult. Especially late at night, when you know it's not right to be phoning people that late, and you feel that you have no-one to talk to. This is our first holiday without our little angel, as it is yours!! Christmas is going to be very difficult for all of us, but I wish you the best of luck, and may 2007 bring joy and happiness to your life, and the lives of your loved ones!! Take care!



I wish you luck! For some reason I'm feeling pretty down today and I looked back at some of my posts and Serenity's pictures. I love this one the most because it shows how much I loved her and I can see all the pain, hurt and anguish that I had been going through. I loved her so much and would do anything so that I hadn't lost her. Some days are harder than others, today is just one of those days.

[careyayn22]

just wanted to let you know that your daughter, Serenity, was a beautiful little girl with a beautiful name. The photos Heather took capture your love of her so well. I wish you well with your future choices.

[Serenity's mommy]

Hello, I haven't updated in a while and I thought I should. Things are going okay and that is the most I can say. I tried the IUI twice and was not successful. I had to stop because it was too much stress waiting for the results and I just couldn't handle it when it was negative. It has felt good to put it in the back of my mind and not grieve at that time of the month. I am still hoping to do the IUI again in the fall but a lot of it depends on my work situation. My parents are moving to Mexico next year to retire and I keep thinking..."Do I love Minnesota? No. Do I want to live here the rest of my life? No. Do I want to make a drastic life change and have a more simple life? Yes. Am I happy now with my life? No. Do I want to move to Mexico too? Yes." I want my life to be more stable before I do bring a child into this world. I don't want to worry about having a job next year or if I don't then how would I survive; especially with a child. I think I will sell everything I own (except my dogs) buy a hammock and not have a care in the world. I'm tired of the stress of the "Rat Race"! Anyone relate????

[Jessi Hill]

Yeah, I can relate.... I'd love to up and leave everything but the people/ things I love and not have to give a **** about anything. I hope the IUI works for you when you are settled and ready for it, it is such a rollercoaster. I just had mine turn into an etopic.... and am wondering where I go from here.

[Lyssa Sauer]

Seretnitys mom I think we all feel like this especially with our circumstances. I lost Payton forum under our stories Our lil MVP, so I dont have the lengthy experience but I feel like I just want to get away from here. Mine is more my family isnt where I am and I want my mommy, lame right? My husband is a farmerand so he works like always the first two months after we lost our angel he stayed home but is now back to work and I am struggling with raising our two other children. My patience is slim and I feel alone and sucluded, I live in a town of 270 people and I am going nuts...Hang in there and follow your heart.....Hugs and things will hopefully get to where you are alittle happier. Good luck Lyssa

[Serenity's mommy]

Hello, tomorrow is a year since I found out and many of you can relate that I am not doing too good. I am pretty stressed out and and going through all the emotions again. All the same questions...Why me? What did I ever do to deserve this? Will I ever be myself again? Is my baby looking down on me and trying to soothe my soul? Does she know how much I loved her? Will I ever know why it happened? The list goes on and on...Some days are fine and once in a while I get slapped across the face with the whole experience. Why do all the isles in Walmart end at the beginning of the baby section? Everything will be fine and then BOOM, it hits me. I should have a baby and be happy right now. I hope that God has a special place for us who have lost our children. This life isn't so great, I hope eternity is better.

[marylouise]

Sending you hugs.

[carissa13]

Eternity is what I look forward to, it's going to be great after "this" time on earth. You are in my thoughts and prayers. ~ Carissa

[Heather Lombardo]

Genelle,

I've been thinking about you and Serenity lately knowing you are approaching Serenity's first birthday. I'm so sorry you are feeling this pain.

Know that you, your mom, dad and beautiful little Serenity are in my thoughts!! I wish I could give you a big hug Genelle!! Glad to see you are still in the states by the way!!

Heather

[Sarah O'Neal]

I was just thinking of you last night. I hope that Sunday will bring you peace and hope. I will light a candle for you with that wish.

[Cathy Withell]

Here are a couple of sweet Serenity.

I cannot find the photo's you posted. I must be looking in the wrong spot.


Cathy
Grandma to Angel Baby Jayce

[Lindzy Foster]

Thinking of you and Serenity....praying for a little peace and calm in your life....and lots of internet (((hugs))) sent your way.....

[MOS]

Hi Kirk,

I tried posting a picture of my son, Benjamin, who passed away 8 weeks ago, but I wasn't able to. Please help.

Marlene

[Kirk Kief]

What computer program do you use to edit, or view your pictures in? If you want to send the image to me, I'll be happy to resize it and send it back so you can post it. However, I'd prefer to teach you how to do this so you can post others as time goes on.

[Serenity's mommy]

Check out my new website. I am very excited about it! Please tell me what you think.
[url]www.findingmyserenity.org
Thanks:D

[HAINAngel2000]

just precious!!!

[Heather Lombardo]

Genelle,

I visited your site. It's a beautiful tribute to Serenity! Thinking about you!!

Heather

[Serenity's mommy]

My other website crashed...check out the new one...www.findingmyserenity.org
Let me know what you think!!! Genelle

[Matthew's mom]

Serenity is such a wonderful name-total peace. That is what she is feeling right now. Unfortunately, you're left wth empty arms-we all are. How do others get through this? Well, you don't ever get through it. It becomes a part of you. I lost my son on October 18th. I am not the same person and never will be. I am learning to control my emotions and brokenheartedness because most people don't understand. I will be praying for you.

[Claire Guthrie]

My prayers are with you. I know this is heartwrenching. I do not see the photos....

[Serenity's mommy]

I haven't been here for a long time and a lot has happened since I last visited! I got engaged and found out that we are having a baby! Of course we are excited but nervous too. I am going in on Feb 12th for a new screening test called Nuchal Translucency. I will be 12 weeks pregnant then. Anyone have this test before?

[Serenity's mommy]

What are the chances of something being wrong again? Any words of advice to stay calm?

[efswsjuly17]

Serenity-

I have just read your entire blog. What a journey you have been through. AND, you have made it this far. I am so proud of you. Glad that you are finding your way. Congratulations on the engagement and what a joy you must feel about being pregnant again. Guess what? I am pregnant to not very far behind you it looks like. I am soooooo happy for you girl. I am so scared to not sure how to act or feel. I just pray whenever I feel stressed or freaked or panicked. My prayers go out to you that you may have everything you wish for this year and more.

Brandy

Mommy to 3 Earthly angels Tanner, Cara, and Bryce, my Heavenly angel Emma, and my new Star!

[Valerie'sMomma]

Congrats on the new bundle. I am not preggers yet but we are trying. The best advice is to stay calm, breathe. We know something can go wrong with any pregnancy, that is why we are here. Enjoy this bundle, create as many memories as you can- record the heartbeat at dr. appointments, journal through out the pregnancy, take the belly pictures everyweek. Just enjoy, rest as much as possible and breathe!!!

You have your angel Serenity, watching over this one. She'll take good care of him/her.

[Elle]

To be honest, it doesn't get better.

Every week that passes, every u/s that goes by will be a relief and bring on new stress/worry over the next one.

All I can say is, just bond with the baby every day and celebrate every day as it passes. I wish I had some great magic wand, however, I would use it on myself first! I'm 29 weeks pregnant.... and I still worry every day! :)