Karla
10-25-2006, 11:50 PM
Hi everyone,
I have not been on the forum for a while. Needless to say I am totally wishing that I could find somewhere to hide and not face November. Like you Scott, November is jumpy for me. Yes a wonderful thing happened, Cydney Paige was born, and I will always be thankful for that blessing. But how do I face the reality of this November? I am so scared, I wish so much that it would not come. I have been searching my mind for ways to avoid coming face to face with the day Cydney Paige was born. What would I do? Here I have more or less no one who cares enough to understand how much she means to me, to even humor me by remembering her birthday. She is gone to them, it would hurt so much if no one remembers. I know everyone has their life to live, and they are pretty much busy, with little time to spare a thought for my girl, but it would mean so much. I am preparing for her memorial service on the 12th, and I pray that it will be ok, I want to celebrate her short life and hope that there can be a message of inspiration for everyone. I am so very confused these last few days, I barely trust myself to do anything right. So wish me luck and keep me in your thoughts.
Karla
I have not been on the forum for a while. Needless to say I am totally wishing that I could find somewhere to hide and not face November. Like you Scott, November is jumpy for me. Yes a wonderful thing happened, Cydney Paige was born, and I will always be thankful for that blessing. But how do I face the reality of this November? I am so scared, I wish so much that it would not come. I have been searching my mind for ways to avoid coming face to face with the day Cydney Paige was born. What would I do? Here I have more or less no one who cares enough to understand how much she means to me, to even humor me by remembering her birthday. She is gone to them, it would hurt so much if no one remembers. I know everyone has their life to live, and they are pretty much busy, with little time to spare a thought for my girl, but it would mean so much. I am preparing for her memorial service on the 12th, and I pray that it will be ok, I want to celebrate her short life and hope that there can be a message of inspiration for everyone. I am so very confused these last few days, I barely trust myself to do anything right. So wish me luck and keep me in your thoughts.
Karla