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Lisa
10-26-2006, 04:57 PM
My story starts at the beginning of the year, my husband and I were attempting to get pregnant via IVF. I took numerous shots to prepare my body, and I hate needles. During the procedure they implanted two embryo's and when it was time for the pregnancy test, happily I tested positive. The staff congratulated us and scheduled our follow ups. Two days later they reversed their decision and told me I was not pregnant it was only a chemical pregnancy. I was heart broken and I went to see my mom to recover. The whole time I was there I did not feel like myself. When I got home a week later I went for a second opinion and found out that I was indeed pregnant. All was ok for 10 weeks until Mother's Day '06, I began to bleed, a lot. I thought it was over, but a trip to the ER showed all was fine but they could not explain the bleeding. A week later, more bleeding, another trip to the ER and still baby was fine.

I bleed for most of the month finally being diagnosed with partial placenta previa. This was the cause of my bleeding. By the middle of June it had stopped for a month. I had a normal exciting pregnancy but at the end of July I awoke to bleeding this time even worse. My husband called 911 and we went to the hospital and baby was fine. I had to stay in the hospital for 3 days. I was released to bed rest at home.

On week later I was admitted again. At 21 weeks my water broke. I was sure glad I was at the hospital when that happened, again we figured it was over but our baby stayed in. I stayed bed ridden scared to death praying I could get to 24 weeks where they could give me a steroid shot to help the baby. I made it, However at 26 weeks I woke up the morning of Aug 30, 2006 not feeling right. I had a very very bad side ache. No one could understand what this could be. The pain got even worse and I was going into preterm labor. I went from being moved to my 9th room for observation to being rushed into an ER c-sec to save my baby's life. This all happened so fast that my poor husband had no idea where his family was.

Our Matthew was born Aug 30th weighing 1 lb 12 oz and 11 1/2 inches he was so beautiful. His first night in the NICU was very scary we were told that he would probably not make it. Well, he did and was starting to progress. However, on Sept 6, 2006 he passed away. He had developed an infection called NEC it effects the bowels. It hit everyone so unexpectedly no one saw it coming. He was just to small to fight off the infection. We were all so devastated. With all he and I had gone through I thought for sure he would have gotten to stay here with us on earth. :(

This is how we found out about the NILMDTS organization. Our photographer Tina Marie Vance-Crnic took the most wonderful pictures of our son. We cherish them everyday. I am so happy that there is an organization out there that helps in preserving the memories of our children/angels.

Thank you so much for letting me share my story.

Lisa & Patrick Leonard
Sister Shelley

Erica Stone
10-30-2006, 11:32 AM
Lisa-

I am so sorry for your loss, but so thankful you found us. I'm sure your photographs are beautiful and if you're willing I know we would all love to see some of them.

This is a wonderful place to connect with others who have experienced the loss of a baby and I hope you are able to find some solace with us.

Lisa
10-31-2006, 05:00 PM
Erica

Yes, I would love to share my pictures of Matthew. I am working on that.
I see we are both mothers to a Matthew. Our Matthew's middle name is Charles.

I found this site to be very helpful in the grieving process.

Thank you,
Lisa

erinm
11-01-2006, 03:48 AM
Lisa,
Thank you for sharing your story. Its very interesting how all our stories are different yet we all end up here.
I am so very sorry for your loss but I am happy you were able to get some much cherished photographs.
I know mine help me everyday.

Erin

Lisa
11-01-2006, 04:53 PM
Here is a link to Matthew's Web Site, there are pictures from NILMDTS and stories from my husband and I.

http://angelmatthew.tripod.com

Please visit,

Lisa & Patrick Leonard

Tammy
11-01-2006, 07:43 PM
What a beautiful tribute to your precious little Matthew~ I know he knows how much his Mommy, Daddy and Big sister love and cherish him. Matthew will always be your Angel on your shoulder and in your heart. What a beautiful baby and family.
God Bless~

Mari
11-01-2006, 10:07 PM
I'm so sorry for you loss. I saw your pictures on the website and your little angel son was beautiful. Thank you for sharing them with us.

~ Mari

Sherry Petri
11-01-2006, 11:36 PM
Lisa,
I visited Matthew's memorial site. I loved the way you told his story from his eyes. Your little boy felt a lot of love in his lifetime.