Rough Days have hit! We need prayer!

[B Storm]

Tommorow is Halloween! Then Thanksgiving! Then Christmas! This is going to be our first Holiday season.(without Baby Samuel) I have had two very bad days. Tears, Tears, and more Tears. I am crying now. Samuel would of been two months old. Too young for Halloween, but I still was going to dress him up. He was going to be the Cat in the Hat. I was going to take a picture lilly(our 3 year old and Sam). Its a Storm tradition. Lilly is going to be Strawberry Shortcake. My husband and I always carve pumpkins with the kids and rake leaves. And Guess what he is not going to be here. I am so very sad and angry! But I know that every thing happens for a reason. I know that someday I will see him again. I went to the cemetary yesterday. It was very difficult:( . We took Sam a Halloween balloon with a spider weight at the end and a pumpkin. It was so cute! I cried and cried at the cemetary. Please prayer, I have to remember the FootPrints prayer.

[Brooke]

Hi,

I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your son. We just lost our baby girl three weeks ago today at 24 weeks gestation. I know that our situation is a little different than yours, but the greiving is the same. I am having my first restless/sleepless night. I should be in bed getting some shut eye, but just can't for some reason. I know that the holidays will be difficult this year for you. I keep thinking that I should still be pregnant for Halloween, Thanksgiving, & Christmas but won't be. I loved being pregnant and miss it very much. Have you been to a parent infant loss support group at all? I will be joining one in two weeks and we will be discussing how to get through the holidays. That is a idea for you. I hope that you start to heal and find the strength to get through these difficult times. In reading your post I believe you will as it sounds like you faith is in God is very strong. Good luck to you and your family.

Brooke

[Tammy]

Just wanted to let you know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I will be honest and say the holidays are the toughest times because there a little person missing... a piece of your life, a piece of your heart...missing. I remember being in this some place you are now a year ago. I remember not wanting the holidays to come... I remember feeling like crawling in a hole, away from everyone. I remember not feeling like carrying on our family holiday traditions. Last year, I walked through the motions, I was there, but I wasn't. At the time I didn't think I could make it through that time... but somehow I did...
The holidays are upon us again, and a part of my heart is with my baby in Heaven. Take one day at a time~ allow yourself the time you need to grieve for Sam. You grieve because you love him... he will always be your baby.

[CMatros]

I know what you are going through....our daughter would have been almost 9 months...she was our first child...she would have been a bumblebee for Halloween...she would have gone trick-or-treating at the grandparents houses...now she will be the story that I share with my new niece that will be arriving in January. Though the heartache will always be there, sharing her story will be something to pass on to future generations. The holidays will be difficult and whether or not we decide to put up the tree this year is still a mystery but I have two ornaments with Anna's name on them...she may not be here with us but I am certainly not going to leave her out...every baby deserves to have a 'first christmas' ornament. Somehow, I will try to incorporate her into all our holidays...she is our angel....

Some of you are lucky, though, that you have other children...my husband and I have two dogs (for now they are the children:) ). You can watch your children grow and see the similarities with all the children that you could see in your babies...like I told our friends when I had to send the email explaining our loss, I told them all to do a few things for me....treasure every moment, you don't know what corner you will turn in life and your life will be thown upside down forever...tell your family and friends that you love them and show it...don't take what God has given you for granted...

[Deb Stoner]

Holidays ARE really hard. We've replaced some of our old traditions with new ones. Our daughter would have been 3 this December 28th. Christmas is especially tough for me. The last few years my husband and I have taken our son to the cemetary on Christmas Day after gifts have been opened, etc. We try to do something Marah would have liked--we build a snowman on her grave. You can't help but smile a little when you see a snowman! We also pick out a toy that a girl her age would like and donate it in her memory. I still buy or make an ornament for all three children. One day, Eli and Gretchen will have those ornaments of Marah to share with their families. It certainly doesn't take away the pain, but it is one of the things we do to keep her memory alive.