Support for Karla

[Kirk Kief]

I know that we've not heard much from Karla, lately, and i fully understand why. Her Angel, Cydney Paige's 1st birthday is approaching, and I'd like to ask everyone to please say a special little prayer to help give Karla a little extra strength, and a little extra support during this tough time.
Karla, Cydney Paige, Willie, and your husband are all in my prayers. You know that you are surrounded by friends, here, and we wish you nothing but Hope and faith over the next few weeks.
Kirk

[Karla]

Kirk,
You have no idea how much this means to me. I am on because I am looking for support. I have silently gone through last year's days before her birthdate. I am scared, this is real, I avoided the reality, but I can't no more. In a few hours I would have gone into labour, I would have had a beautiful baby girl, perfect in every way, not a hint of what was to come. I often want to ask if she really is gone, or if I will find her somewhere. I pray desperately for it to be the latter. I needed her so desperately in my life, Hope, I wanted to name her that. She was Hope to me, for happier, lighter days. The joyful sound of a baby's laugh, the grasp of her hands......I do love her so very much. If only I could have make her better.

Thank you all,
Thank you Kirk for the beautiful dvd, It is precious and we will cherish it.

Happy birthday to my precious child Cydney Paige Theresa.
loving you always,
Mom

[Brandy]

I wanted to say Karla you are in my thoughts and I also want to say a big Happy Birthday Cydney. big hugs to you.

[Sandy "Sam" Puc']

Happy Birthday Little Cydney.
You little light has touched so many peoples hearts.
I think of you and your Mommy often.
With love,
Sam

[Jessi Hill]

Karla- Just wanted to tell you I will certainly be thinking of you tommorrow. (Cydneys angel day) She will be with you as always in your heart!
I am sure her memorial that you have planned so long and hard for will be nothing short of stunning and beautiful.
Take care of yourself and know that we are all here for you when you need us!
HUGS!!!!

[Erica Stone]

Karla,

Please know that we are all here for you whenever you need us. I am sorry you are in so much pain now - I hope that your memorial service for Cydney brings you some peace. I'm sure she knows how much you love her and is so happy to have you as her mother. Who could love her more than you?

[Karla]

Thank you everyone for your warm thoughts, prayers and support. I am still in disbelief that my girl has not been with me for a year! I know that some of you will say to me that I need a counsellor, but I cannot believe that she is not here. I feel her with me, though I cannot hold her. I do not know if I am dealing with this well, I have come to dislike anyone telling me that God chose me because I am strong. I do not want to be strong and I will tell him that now. My heart is broken, I cannot seem to move forward, it hurts that new things happen and she is not here. A good friend of ours had a baby girl on November 12th!!! I am scared to go see them. I cannot bear to part with Cydney Paige's car seat, stroller, chair or anything else that belongs to her. Her clothes are so dear to me, that I want to now take them out and look at them all the time. I know that Cheryl, Jessi and others have been through this for more years than I have and there are others who I wish wouldn't but will follow me, but I feel myself spiralling downwards more now. I am terrified of facing the fact that one year has passed, how could it be that I have not had her for a year? I have done her memorial, the service was beautiful, and the contribution from the guests was tremendous. But now I have nothing to plan for her.

I am happy doing things for her, that is all about her. I love thsi forum because I can talk about her.

I will try to post her memorial keepsake that I did, I hope you guys can view it.

My most heartfelt thanks to Kirk for the dvd. It was so beautiful and everyone got to see our special girl

Thank you kirk!!

Karla

[Jessi Hill]

Karla,
No matter how long it has been it still hurts. Take your time with Cydneys belongings. I still have many things I have had for Tristan... but I have managed the strength to part with some. I will always keep the outfits he wore, any other items that he had contact with such as the bear that was in his car seat with him when he passed. Write me an email if you want to talk more... I am here for you. Take care and take things one day at a time... sometimes that is all you can do.
HUGS!!!

[Cheryl Haggard]

Karla,
You are not done "doing things" for Cydney...
You will ALWAYS be her mommy...Everything you do, you will do for her, even if you think that you are not...You will be a better wife to your husband, because of Cydney, a better mother to WIllie, because of Cydney. You will be more considerate and compasionate to other because of Cydney...You will love more because of Cydney...
This charity that you are talking about where you are...
Why don't you become a liasion for other families in your area?
Fight for their rights...for their baby's right? How much does it cost to sponser a family for medical treatment in the states? If this charity is not doing what you expect that it should be doing, consider starting your own...In the honor of Cydney...
I know that Cydney would not want you to feel angry and sad all of the time...I wish with all my heart that there was something I could do for you to ease the pain, even if it meant for me to carry it for you...But I can't.
Just know that I am always here for you...For anything.
You and Cydney are in my heart...
Cheryl