Screaming and sobbing

[Serenity's mommy]

Hello, I had a really bad night! I was watching a movie with my parents called "Talking to Heaven" it was a good movie unitl this woman was starting to die and someone asked her if she had a little girl about 5 years old. She said yes but she had lost her during birth. Well, I made it through that but then this old man was dying and all the people he loved from Heaven were there to help bring him to the light. That was fine until this Golden Retriever came running around the corner (in slow motion) and jumped on the side of the bed. Well, that is when I completely lost it and started to cry. I had put my first dog asleep 3 years ago at the age of 16. At that point it had been the hardest thing I had ever had to do in my life. Well, I started to cry then sob, breathing so hard and fast that I almost got sick after about 10 minutes of that I had a good deal of anger well up inside me and I started to scream " I WANT THEM BACK! I WANT THEM BACK! I WANT MY DAUGHTER BACK! I WANT MY DAUGHTER BACK!" my dad was rocking me back and forth and my mom was rubbing my back but had to leave to control her crying. My dad was choking back tears and the screaming lasted until I got a sore throat and just cried. I started to calm down and went to bed. Today I have been really shaky and tired. I think last night was the worst since I had Serenity. I hope there are not that many nights like that, it was awful.....

[Brandy]

I just had to tell you I am so so sorry. I cant and will not say I know what you are going through. Im not going to say all the things Im sure you have heard. All Im going to say is we are here for you and you are very strong even if you feel you are not. My prayers and well wishes are with you.

[Tasha Nicholls]

I'm so sorry... it's just awful that you have to go through this. I can't even begin to comprehend the agony of losing your precious Serenity. I wish that I had some words of wisdom that would help ease your pain a little. Just know that we are here for you... this is always a safe place to share your feelings.

I hope that you were able to sleep better last night... you are definitely in my thoughts and prayers.

~Tasha

[Jessi Hill]

I am so sorry you had such a horrible night. I am glad your parents were there for you, as it can be very difficult to be alone during these times. Please know as said before we are always here for you and will support you anyway we can... this is the hardest thing anyone goes through... and yet every situation is different. You will have good days and you will have bad days, I just hope with time the good begin to lessen the bad. Serentity has a wonderful mommy who loves her very much... she knows that, and she loves you too. Feel free to PM me or email if you want to talk more.
Take care of yourself.
Jessi

[Amber Schmidt]

Prayers and hugs sent to you!

[Kathi Buss]

Thanks so much for sharing, I know it must have been hard for you to do so. I will be praying for you. God Bless.

[Brooke]

Hi Serenity's Mommy,

I am so sorry to hear that you are not doing well. I can't imagine what you are experiencing because everyone's situations are so different. I feel for you completely and wish I could give you some grand words of advise but none really come to mind. Just know that we are all here for you to listen and lend a shoulder to cry on. It will get better, I promise you that. Hang in there!!

Brooke (Emma's Mommy)