Scott Hays
11-21-2006, 10:20 PM
I don't know if I necessarily need a shoulder right now... Well, a little bit. Most of you know that Lindsey's birthday is two days away. She's my little turkey this year. At 20, she probably wouldn't be amused to be called "my little turkey". At any rate, so today I had a session (I'm a NILMDTS photographer) and as soon as I got the call, it dawned on me that we lost Lindsey two days before Thanksgiving. Going to the hospital, thoughts of that day 20 years ago kept filling my mind. I got to the maternity ward, and almost couldn't walk in. My legs were almost jello. When I did go into the room, there was this precious little boy with his mother. I couldn't stop looking. It brought back so many memories. I did my job and left. I got home, and have been in a bit of a daze since then. Later on today, I had another NILMDTS mother come by to pick up her images. It broke my heart to see the tears flow from her eyes. I know how much the images we have of Lindsey mean to us, I just hope the the images I have provided will bring the same peace not only to the family who I presented images to, but to all the families that I find myself helping out.
I've been doing really well this year. 99% of that I attribute to this forum. The wonderful people I've met here, and the laughter I've received in those hard times. With Lindseys birthday so close, I find myself withdrawing a little, but nothing like a have in the past.
Thank you to all that have come to this forum. If you know it or not, your stories have certainly helped me, and I'm sure that if they've helped me after 20 years, they are helping those who have just lost their prescious little angels. Write about it, read about it, do whatever is in your heart. There's a lot of love going on around here. (Ok, don't let it out that I'm an old softy, it will ruin my reputation)
So in two days, we'll be opening Lindsey's birthday presents (yup she still gets them) and I'll smell the roses that I got for her today, and then I'll chow down on some turkey, and lay down and dream of her playing....and Maddux chasing her around....and.......... (you have to find and read Cheryls post)
I've been doing really well this year. 99% of that I attribute to this forum. The wonderful people I've met here, and the laughter I've received in those hard times. With Lindseys birthday so close, I find myself withdrawing a little, but nothing like a have in the past.
Thank you to all that have come to this forum. If you know it or not, your stories have certainly helped me, and I'm sure that if they've helped me after 20 years, they are helping those who have just lost their prescious little angels. Write about it, read about it, do whatever is in your heart. There's a lot of love going on around here. (Ok, don't let it out that I'm an old softy, it will ruin my reputation)
So in two days, we'll be opening Lindsey's birthday presents (yup she still gets them) and I'll smell the roses that I got for her today, and then I'll chow down on some turkey, and lay down and dream of her playing....and Maddux chasing her around....and.......... (you have to find and read Cheryls post)