What will 2007 bring~

[Tammy]

The holidays have passed, a sigh of relief and a chance to catch my breath again. We are in the process of taking down the Christmas decorations; tucking them away for another year.

As we engage on the last day of 2006, I wonder what 2007 will bring. Of course, there is no way of knowing unless you have the gift of predicting the future; which I don't have that ability... and wouldn't want to. I look at the coming year with hope, enthusiasm and I have to admit; with a little apprehension.

It seems my life has a tendancy to fall apart on the odd numbered years. In 2003, I lost my mother and step mother both to cancer (yes, in the same year. Four months and one day apart to be exact. I still have yet to deal with this grief and loss.) Then in 2005, our baby. Other not so pleasant things have happened in previous years before, I've just lost track.

I keep thinking since "7" is supposed to be a "lucky" number~ this will break the what seems to be mis-fortune cycle. Time will tell.

I just wanted to let everyone in our NILMDTS family know; you are in my thoughts and a part of my heart. (I have a big heart... there is room for everyone~;) )

You may not know this, but each one of you have helped me so much over the past year. Although I may have not mentioned it to you personally. By reading the stories you have shared, taking the advice you have given... in some way you have helped me, and I just wanted to say thank you.

It is my hope 2007 will bring wonderful and great things for all of us. I wish with all my heart I could say we won't hear of any losses, I can say it, but know that's unrealistic. Those of us who have been through this~ must be ready to comfort those families who find their way to us. Remember where they are (now) is where we have been.

Many blessings to all for the upcoming year~ whatever may come our way.

Sincerely,

Tammy Becker
NILMDTS Parent & Family Coordinator

[angelbabies]

Hi Tammy, I know what you mean. For some reason, mis-fortune comes knocking at my doorstep, and has every year for the past 4 years. In 2003, I was in a severe car accident, the dr.s didn't know how I survived it, but I did. After my car accident, I lost my job, and became a single mom to my 2 yr old son. The next year, the man I thought I was in love it and was going to spend the rest of my life with, put me in the hospital after trying to kill me. At this time, I moved to be closer to my family, in hopes that the change would be good for me. I found a great job, and met the man I now call my husband, who treats me like a princess!! I got pregnant with our baby in June, 2005....we lost our baby in Oct, 2005. We got pregnant again in January, 2006. On October 3, 2006, I gave birth to our beautiful baby boy, Landon Avery. He died on October 21, 2006 (only 18 days old) after having open-heart surgery. The surgery was successfull, but his heart didn't want to come off the heart-and-lung machine. He had 2 episodes of cardiac arrest before they were able to get him on life-support. He suffered massive brain damage due to a lack of oxygen during his arrests, and died. Now we are left to wonder what 2007 has in store for us, and I just found out 3 days ago that I am pregnant....again. I can't help but worry that something terrible is going to happen, as it seems to just get worse EVERY year!! I really hope that you are right, and that 2007 is a "lucky" year, for everyone!! Good luck, and God bless!

[Tara Roberts]

Congratulations!!! Please try to have positive thoughts, I just got a book on the "Basic Law of the Attraction", (my counselor has adivsed me to read into this). Basically we can attract things that happen to us, in our attitudes, expectations etc...I don't know what I believe but it can't hurt to try, right? I will pray for the well being of you and your budding family. I will be thinking positively and sending you good vibes :D Hang in there and be a proud mama!

[marylouise]

Trish,
Congratulations and I will keep you in my prayers.
Hugs,
Mary Louise

[angelbabies]

Thanks, it really means a lot to us that we have the support of people who are travelling down the same road as us. It is so hard to try and explain your worries and fears to someone who has no idea what you are going through. I pray that 2007 brings joy and happiness to all of your lives, take care of yourselves, and each other! (((HUGS)))


IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY
AND MEMORIES A LANE
WE WOULD WALK RIGHT UP TO HEAVEN
AND BRING YOU HOME AGAIN

[Tammy]

IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY
AND MEMORIES A LANE
WE WOULD WALK RIGHT UP TO HEAVEN
AND BRING YOU HOME AGAIN

I love that saying~ beautiful.
Congratulations on the wonderful news! Definately hold positive thoughts, and know I have you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

You are all wonderfully AMAZING people, and I feel so honored to be apart of this with you.

[angelbabies]

Thank you Tammy, I actually bought the egg from Bradford Exchange that has the saying on it, with a stairway in the middle, and a cross at the top of the stairs, it's very pretty. It was the poem that was put in the paper after my grand-dad passed away, which I didn't know until after Landon passed, and it had become 'his' saying. The first time I read it, I couldn't help but think how true it is, it puts how we feel so nicely!