Lost another baby

[tinantravis]

I had posted earlier on "Optimistic but scared" thread that our family was expecting another baby July 19th, 2007. Well, we're not anymore. The day after Christmas, I started bleeding. It was a light bleed and I didn't have any any cramping, so I was told to "lay low" and let my body fight through it. Well, I did just that, but I was still bleeding so I went in on Thursday and found out that our precious baby that we wanted so bad was "fetal demise." I passed the baby Saturday, December 30th...

Is is possible that you want something too much?
I really thought I was doing well coping with the loss of Isaiah, but now, those same feelings that sucked me into a deep depression are back. I feel so defeated, so empty.
2006 sucked for our family.

Looking forward to a new year...really, could it get any worse?

[Jessi Hill]

Tina,
I am so sorry for your loss... it doesn't get easier just because you have been there before. I pray 2007 will hold better things for you and your family.
(((((HUGS)))))))

[B Storm]

Tina,

My thoughts are with you today. I am very sorry for your loss.:(

Love and Prayers,
B.Storm
mom to Lilly-3
Angel baby Samuel-August 24, 2006

[Kirk Kief]

Tina,
Words don't even begin to portray my thoughts for you and your family. I pray that 2007 is a comfort for you. Keep talking with usm here. It won't fix anything, but, at least you know you'll have our full and unyielding support.
God Blees you!

[Tasha Nicholls]

Tina,

I am so, so sorry for your loss. I wish there was something I could say or do to help ease your aching heart. Just know that I am praying for you and your family and that you are in my thoughts.

*HUGS*

[Tammy]

Oh Tina I'm so sorry to learn this news. Sometimes you sit and wonder how much you can take. As Kirk said~ know we are here for when you need us to be.
Love & Prayers
Tammy

[Art]

Connie and I are beyond words in our sadness for your loss. We pray that your family finds peace in this time of profound sadness.

[Sandy "Sam" Puc']

Thinking of you......
Hugs,
Sam

[Brooke]

Tina,

Once again, I'm at a loss as to what to say to you. I know whatever I say won't bring your baby back, but just know that I am here for you now and always. If you need me to come give you another hug, just say the words. Your such a strong person and with time you will be back to where you were. I'm glad you found comfort in posting and seeking support here with all of us. Hang in there :(

Love ya,

Brooke

[Rayna']

I am so sorry....:( I can't not imagine the pain you are going through right now. I will be praying for you!

[Kamie]

Tina,

I wanted to check in on you today and see how you are doing?
I can't understand what Gods plan is, I've tried as I'm sure you have.

I will continue to pary for you.

Kamie

[Catherine Colgan]

I'm so very sorry. I wish there was more I could say to ease your pain. I hope that you find some peace somewhere. Just know that you are not alone and many of us are thinking of you and sending healing thoughts your way.

{{{hugs}}}

[Karla]

Tina,

My heart hurts for you and your family. I pray that you will find strength to fight the depression. Sometimes I find that there is no way escaping it, but this site and the warmth of the members help me to keep my head up.

Please know that we are all here for you.

Karla

[Kelly Story]

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. 2006 was a very tough year for my family, also. I lost two of my precious grandparents. Here's to a better 2007.
Smiles,

[B Storm]

:confused: Hello Everyone,

I went to the doctor again today. I went for an ultrasound. The doctor cannot detect a heartbeat. I have been spotting. EEK! Last week, we thought were five weeks along with our pregnancy. So we did a a six week ultrasound today. Still nothing! Their are indications that the fetus is growing via the ultrasound. I go to the doctor again next week for another ultrasound to see if their is a heart beat. If their is not, and the blood work does not add up. I will probably have a D&C. Please pray for my husband and I we are pretty discouraged. We are preparing for the worst and hoping for the best. It is going to be a long week for us. I definately feel like a wounded soldier. Trials! Trials! They only make us stronger, but sometimes reality just bites. I have been sleeping so good of recent. I am now back to Late night hours. Any how, Thanks for letting me share.

B.Storm
Mommy to Lilly-3 y/o
Mommy to Angel Baby Sammy-August 24, 2006

[Rayna']

Praying Praying Praying Praying Praying

[tinantravis]

Brooke-
I just wanted to let you know that I am here for you...I just went through this and completely understand the rollercoaster of feelings and emotions --I'll pray for good news.
Sending all my love~~

[Brooke]

Brooke,

I'm so sorry that you are put in this confusing & fustrating situation. I'll pray that God lifts you both up right now and hears your prayers for a healthy happy pregnancy/baby. Have they been keeping an eye on your HCG levels by taking blood regular? I know that it what they did with me when I was spotting with my second son. Maybe they are already doing this for you. Just a suggestion. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Love,
Brooke

Mommy to Carter-4, Ethan-20 months, & Angel Emma

[Charlene Lopez]

My heart aches for you Tina, you shouldn't have to go through this again.

[Tara Roberts]

Tina,
Nothing anyone says will make your heartache any easier. I can only hope that one day you'll find peace and happiness, please know your in my thoughts and prayers tonight.

[Cheryl Haggard]

My thoughts and prayers to both of you...
C

[tinantravis]

Unforunately Travis and I were told the results about the baby we miscarried. The test results confirm that our baby was a boy and had chromosomal defects: Trisomy 13 and Trisomy 14. They've encouraged us to seek genetic counseling and genetic testing. Though Isaiah's condition, triploidy, wasn't genetic, trisomy is...This has completely devasted us. We once had hope, but I feel like it's now lost. I feel emotionless, numb, and not to mention, pissed off at the world. Of course, my mom and husband didn't react like "I wanted them to," but in the same breath I'm not sure how I wanted them to react. I had such high hopes that it wasn't chromosomal again. How could this happen twice? Do we chance it for our selfish needs to have another child? How will I ever convince myself or Travis to have another when there's such a big risk? None of this makes sense...neither of us have any family history of chromosomal abnormailites. URRGGHHH!!

[Rayna']

I am so sorry!

[Tasha Nicholls]

Wow, Tina... I'm so sorry. I hope the geneticists will have better news. :-(

[Sandy "Sam" Puc']

Thinking of you....
Sam

[Cheryl Haggard]

Tina,
Wanted to let you know that I will be thinking of you this next week, for the due date of your precious Emmanuel.
((HUGS))
Cheryl

[linda]

Thinking of you and praying for you this week. Sending hugs to your angels!

[tinantravis]

Thanks for the emails, calls, and posts this week, you guys! NILMDTS has completely changed who I am as a person and a mother. Although Emmanuel's due date came upon our family so fast this week, we have found peace knowing that he and Isaiah have found one another and look down upon our family. I can't wait to see them again!

I know it has been awhile since I have posted or even visited, but life has just grabbed ahold of us (you all know how it is). Other than life being crazy, I have been completely consumed by a new pregnancy (yes, we are pregnant!). I know I should have posted earlier, but the truth is, I was scared. Scared of jinxing myself and scared of hurting all the families who have just lost or are having problems conceiving themselves. I was once there and now how hard it is to hear that someone else is expecting. So, I'm sorry for those who are hurting. Please know that your time will come and peace will find you as it has our family.

We are 15 weeks pregnant and I am due January 13th. Our family did not seek genetic counseling because it wasn't necessary. Both of our previous losses were "flukes" and completely unexplainable. Doctors and genticists were in complete support of us trying again and we did, and here we are. We are seeing a high risk doctor (even though I am not technically high risk, but someone with really bad luck) and have an ultrasound every four weeks. I have a Level II ultrasound on August 15th. Everything looks great so far--very active, strong heartbeat. I did decide to post our news because I need your prayers and support over the next 5+ months. Please pray for our family.

Thanks for everything!
Tina

[Jordan]

Tina....thanks for sharing about your news about the pregnancy. I understand all to well where you are coming from on being scared of jinxing yourself or scared of hurting others with the news. You will have a lot of support from us here. I am happy to hear you are seeing a high risk doctor. I wish you and your family all the best and maybe 2008 will be better then 2006 for both of us!=) Keep in touch.
Sending prayers and support,
Kim

[Heather Lombardo]

Tina,

We seriously need to change the title of this thread! Every time I see it since you told me your big news, my heart stops!!!!!

I've been thinking about you & Emmanuel & of course Isaiah this week.

I'm so happy for you and ALL the families I've worked with that are now expecting again! You all will be in my prayers....

[Rita D. Conners]

You and your family are in my prayers. I am so sorry for your loss. May you find strength, knowing that you are loved, even though we haven't met you. Also, you have two angels looking over you now. Draw from their love.
Sincerely,

[Lyssa Sauer]

Congradulations on the baby! My prayers are with you. I hope that maybe coming here and hearing of other pregnancy that are going well will ease your fears . I also pray for each and everyone of you who is expecting again that you have a safe pregnancy with a bundle of joy to bring home. Praying for all of you.

[Julie Williams]

What wonderful news Tina. I will pray for you and your family that all will be well.