TTC through Artificial Insemination

[Serenity's mommy]

Hello all, well I am going ahead with the AI this upcoming week and to be honest I'm nervous. Not about having a child but about getting pregnant. What in God's name would I do if I lost the child? I wonder where a good mental institution is in Minnesota?:o Anyhow, I have been slowly going off my Paxil that I started after I lost Serenity and now I cry over everything. Last night it was because of putting my dog down 4 years ago. I guess that a part of me feels like I had to "put Serenity down" too and that I had no choice in the matter. I just want everything to be okay and that I can start some "safe" antidepressants. If there is such a thing. I am asking that if anyone has a spare moment to please pray for my spirit, pray that I can find some meds that won't hurt the baby, pray that I get pregnanat and also that I can relax when I do. I have found that this site is such a life line and I appreciate you and all your love and support. Thanks, Genelle

[Heather Lombardo]

Genelle,

You're in my thoughts! I hope things go very well for you..

[Deb Stoner]

To Genelle and other moms considering pregnancy,
Please be aware that in Dec of 05 the makers of Paxil, GlaxoSmithKline, sent out "Dear Doctor" warning letters to physicians re: the drug Paxil. The FDA now considers paxil a class 'D' drug that should be avoided by pregnant woman in their first trimester. Unfortunately, there are still doctors out there that are not relaying that information to their patients and preganant moms who are taking the drug and are unaware that they are carrying a baby. Please be cautious in your research before taking antidepressants in the first trimester. You can visit this site for more information:
www.paxilbirthdefect.com
I know we all want the best possible health for babies and ourselves.

[marylouise]

Genelle,
Your in my prayers.
Hugs,
Mary Louise

[Serenity's mommy]

Hello all, well, I'm off Paxil and had my first IUI on Friday. I can't test until the 28th and that may still be a bit too early but as you all know it is hard to wait! I'll keep everyone posted!

[Heather Lombardo]

good luck Genelle!

[Serenity's mommy]

It was negative this month and I guess that also describes my mood...

[Heather Lombardo]

Genelle,

I'm sorry it didn't happen this time. Maybe it's for the best right now, it gives your body one more month to rid itself of all the medications that could complicate another pregnancy. Like they said, it usually doesn't happen the first time. Give yourself time, it will happen!

[marylouise]

Genelle,
So sorry.
Hugs

[Sarah O'Neal]

I am so sorry....

[Jordan]

I am so sorry....we have gone down the road of fertility also. I know how it feels for the tests to come back negative. I feel for you. I wish I could give you a hug to comfort you.

[Serenity's mommy]

How long after a trigger shot SHOULD I have an IUI? My doctor said that 12 hours after is fine. Is he wrong? These IUI's are expensive and I want to know everything I can!

[Jordan]

My doctor had everything planned out to almost the hour. I remember that he said that the shot should have been given between 12-14 hours before. Rmember we did insemation 1 1/2 years ago. Things might have changed since then. Good Luck
I see that you are from Little Falls. What clinic are you going to? I started out with Abbott Northwestern - Mpls.

[Lindzy Foster]

after reading this discussion im very disturbed about something that Deb mentioned...i did not take any antidepressants during my pregnancy but did take Lexapro within the year before i got pregnant with my angel Kaydence...I went to the link Deb provided and the info about how Paxil may have caused congenital heart defects specifically VSD's and Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome...our Kaydence Had both of those conditions and some other severe heart defects on top of that....I am worried that my antidepressant may have caused my baby girl to die....

[Serenity's mommy]

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Whenever I read about someone else who lost a child I start to cry. I really do feel your pain. I was on Paxil until I found out about the pregnancy at about 5 weeks. I did some very in-depth soul searching and research and still contuine to do so. Have you researched the med that you were on and have you talked to a Pharmacist about how long the medication stays in your body after you stop taking it? Normally it is less then a month. I understand your search for reason why it happened and I think most of the time it is a fluke. I decided to go on Welbutren because I just can't handle it when I'm not on meds. Maybe once upon a time I could handle it but not anymore. Losing my daughter has changed me to the very core of my being and caused a great sadness that I know will never go away. I HAVE TO think that nothing I did caused this to happen, I couldn't bear it if I caused it to happen. I hope that you can get in that mindframe too, for some unknown reason this is a test that I feel God has given us. For some reason He thinks that you and I and everyone here is strong enough to handle it, and do whatever we can to help each other get through it together. When I first got involved in this site a woman wrote to me and I will never forget what she said, it went something like this.... "Dear precious lady, I know you feel as if you are alone in an ocean of dispair. You feel as if you are in waves of grief and pain and that you are constantly being pulled under. There will come days when the waves seem to settle and you can take a breath, look around and you can see others that are also in that ocean with you, the waves may be stronger for them or they may be getting a break. The days will come when you are being pulled under and you know that you will not survive this but then the waves will settle again and you will see those of us that are in that ocean with you. You are not alone." It still makes me cry. Just know, my dear precious lady, you are not in the ocean alone!






after reading this discussion im very disturbed about something that Deb mentioned...i did not take any antidepressants during my pregnancy but did take Lexapro within the year before i got pregnant with my angel Kaydence...I went to the link Deb provided and the info about how Paxil may have caused congenital heart defects specifically VSD's and Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome...our Kaydence Had both of those conditions and some other severe heart defects on top of that....I am worried that my antidepressant may have caused my baby girl to die....

[Lindzy Foster]

Thank you Genelle for your kind words, it has helped me alot to read all the information and stories on this site and to look at all the pictures of all the beautiful babies who are in heaven with our Kaydence....i know that you are right i am searching for a reason some kind of logic as to why Kaydence died i miss her so much and just dont understand i keep thinking that im going to wake up and it would all be a bad dream.....i am so sorry that your test came back negative and wish you and your family the best of luck in conceiving another child