Mike Buckley
02-01-2007, 10:13 PM
I want to thank Scott Hays for inspiring me to write about my son. Christopher passed away 6 mos ago after an 11 mo. battle with a horrible disease. He was 11 mos. old and fought like a tiger. The doctors thought he wouldn't last 3 mos but he smiled for his Mommy & Daddy every day during his ordeal. I guess I am not the "typical" man when it comes to grieving. I cry like a baby when his memories overwhelm me. All the what ifs? I feel so guilty for not getting him Miami sooner!! He was on the waiting list for a small bowel transplant at Pittsburg Childrens Hospital. The best in the world for his type of transplant. Their average wait for organs was 10 mos. I found out much too late that Miami's average wait was only 2 mos!! How could I have missed this? I did so much research!! But, these are not made public yet my oldest son's pediatric GI was the one who told me!! I guess what I am trying to say is that lack of knowledge on my part is tearing me up inside. I know I didn't cause my son's death but I can't come to terms with this yet. I really believe that corresponding with those understand my loss is going to help me. I have to try. Thanks for letting me vent.
Sincerely yours, Mike Buckley
Sincerely yours, Mike Buckley