Today is my due date

[Serenity's mommy]

and I have no baby to bring home. Instead I have a broken, grieving heart. This has been a really rotten week and I am just soooo tired of everything! I wish I could have slept through this day. I would give anything to not be in this position! At work when people look at me and my eyes are all red and my face is red they don't realize that I STILL HAVE A @#*^# DUE DATE with nothing to show for it! I'm sad and angry!!!!!! I look at some of the parents of kids at school and I think "Why? I'm a good person. I don't do drugs. I don't drink. I would take care of, bathe and love my child. What makes them worthy?" UGH! What a horrible day!

[Wendy Hotaling]

Genelle,

Try not to be sad and angry... I know it must be hard for you, but try to honor the spirit of your baby, and dont worry about what others think.

Hugs,

[Sarah O'Neal]

I am so sorry. I will be thinking of you......

[Charlene Lopez]

My heart aches for you Genelle. I know nothing can replace the emptiness you feel today. Your right, it's not fair, but please take solace in knowing you are in many hearts today.

Hugs and Prayers,

[Michelle Kilander]

My heart and prayers go out to you darlin.

[S Jensen]

I am so sorry. People can be very inconsiderate and think they are helping by trying to force you to cheer up or they can be just plain rude and cruel. My mom lost my baby brother when she was 8 months pregnant, about 30 years ago. She still misses him and I don't think there is anything wrong with the fact. It isn't about worth obviously, we have a friend that adopted two children from a woman who keeps having babies every 10 or 11 months and doesn't want any more of them so she's been giving them up since she kept #3. She obviously isn't worthy of having more children and yet she does. Some of the people that would be the best parents in the world, aren't. It isn't fair and it isn't something we can understand.

Take your time, grieve the way you need to, don't let people pressure you to pretend you are ok when you aren't. It is hard to look forward right now, but it WILL get easier eventually.

Sara

[Brooke]

Genelle,

I'm sorry to read that you are having a hard day on today, your due date. It is normal to feel the way your feeling right now. Have you given much though about trying to do something special for your daughter's special day? Maybe this would help you with some of the emotions, or maybe it wouldn't. It is just a thought. Or maybe just treat yourself to something nice. That is what I did for myself a couple of weeks ago when my due date approached. We also held like a mini birthday party for our daughter, just immediate family was present, but helped me in my greiving and healing process. Maybe this isn't for you, just an idea. Just remember that it takes time to greive and heal and with time it will start to get easier to deal with. Please know that I am thinking of you and sweet little Serenity today. Happy Birthday little Serenity.

Love,

Brooke

Mommy to Carter, Ethan, and Angel Emma

[Charlene Lopez]

Great Idea Brooke,

Genelle, we make cupcakes to celebrate Daniels life on his special day. We each put one candle in our cupcake and make a wish before we blow it out.

[Tara Roberts]

Genelle,
I am so sorry for you loss and will be thinking of you today. Serenity will always be with you and knows how much you love her. Keep your head up and cry as much as you need to.
Peace,
Tara

[Amber Schmidt]

My heart hurts for you. I know there is nothing we can say to make you feel any better but know that we are praying for and loving you and Serenity from far away.

[Janeice]

Genelle,
Cry sweetheart, cry. Thats what ultimatly helps me get through the day. Your body makes a natural morphine when you cry, it sure helps level off the emotions for the rest of the day. I lost Renny at 5 months too. I still go through days, significant or not that I don't want to crawl out of bed. Your story is one of the first I read when i got onto nilmdts. My heart cries with you. Days are tough and night is tougher. I am here for you anytime. I miss my baby soo much. Other than depression, do you notice physical symptoms? I know I have symptoms of being pregnant, but no baby there. Renny's due date was January 20th. Pamper yourself at this time. keep us posted on how your doing.
Janeice

[Tammy]

Thinking of you and your beautiful little girl today~ I know there is nothing I can do or say to take the pain, frustration, emptyness and sadness from you on this day that was supposed to be filled with joy and happiness~ I wish there was.
Please just know you're in my prayers~ take the day as it comes. Serenity knows her mommy loves her and will forever.
((Hugs))
Tammy

[Jordan]

I understand your feeling of sadness on your due date. I was there on Dec. 17th, 2006. I also know the feeling of why I can't have a baby and why do others so easily and can't afford one, others have babies that they don't care for or the baby is an inconvenience. I don't know....I wish I could magically change that but God has another plan - I hate people telling me that even though it is true. I hope you can find comfort that you are not alone. We are here for you. I hope your emptiness will be filled with blessing someday.

[Dave Cisco]

Wishing it didn't hurt so much...

[Tasha Nicholls]

I too am so sorry... I can't even imagine how difficult it's been for you. I wish I had some great words of wisdom, but hope you'll accept some **HUGS** instead.

Take Care!

[Heather Lombardo]

Genelle,

I'm sorry, I wish you did not have to go through this. You and sweet little Serenity are on my mind and in our prayers. And your darling parents too!

Take care!

[Kamie]

Genelle,
I'm so sorry…

[Julie Williams]

I have no words...just thoughts and prayers. I pray for your peace...and the aching to subside just for a moment. Mostly, I pray for Serenity to gently touch your heart and let you know she loves you and is still with you.

[Erica Stone]

Matthew's due date was on of the hardest times for me as well. Tom and I decided to take a vacation during that time (I figured if I didn't deserve a vacay after all that we went through, I never would!) and although it was helpful to be "away" it didn't make it any easier. If you are up to it, try to do something nice for Serenity and for yourself.