Kaydence Hope

[Lindzy Foster]

Today our daughter Kaydence Hope would have been 6 weeks old..every day when i wake up i think about how old she would be and how many days its been since she went to Heaven. Our angels story begins with a routine ultrasound at 20 weeks just to check on things and see how our baby was doing, and also to find out the sex of our baby. My fiancee and I were so excited watching our baby on the screen and finding out that it was a girl. I have 3 children from a previous marriage but this would be Darin's first child and he couldnt hardly wait for his daddys girl. With this being my 4th child i thought the woman was taking a very long time with the ultrasound and studying our little girl taking pictures. We finished and they told us to wait in the lounge while they had the doctor look at the pics and we would be able to leave in a few min. We sat down and after about 45 min. a nurse came and told us that our doctor was on the phone and wanted to speak to us. He told me that they saw something on the pictures that looked like a hole in our daughters heart a small VSD. He said that he made us an apt. with a fetal cardiologist to get a better look at it. The next week we met with the FC and found out that not only did our little girl have the VSD that she seemed to have some other severe heart defects mainly Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome. The last 20 weeks of my pregnancy were filled with numerous FC visits, visits with surgeons, visits with specialists, the visits i remember the most clearly were the ones where we got to have ultrasounds of Kaydence, we got a peak into her world. I researched on the internet and in books, anything i could get about Kaydence's defect. We met some doctors who were pessimistic about her outlook and suggested we terminate the pregnancy also telling us that with her heart problems that it was likely she had chromosomal abnormalities as well. But we smiled through it and said we would keep our baby and carry her to term or as long as it was possible. Most of the research said that the survival rate of infants with HLHS was alot higher now with an average of 90 percent surviving. We met with her surgeon and talked about what would happen when she was born and the plan for her surgery and recovery, he had never lost a baby with this defect. I went on bedrest the last few weeks but developed the early stages of toxemia and they decided to induce me the morning of Jan 19, 2007. Kaydence Hope Foster was born at 4:53 p.m. weighing 6 lbs. 5 oz and 18.8 inches long, she had a strong cry and a head full of dark hair. I got to hold her for a second just to kiss her precious face and then she was whisked away to the NICU. We were allowed to go down and see her at 6 after they got her stabilized, she had an IV giving her a drug called prostins that was keeping her heart working until she could have her first surgery. She was so beautiful, the dark hair, a special combination of Darin and I, my nose and lips, his chin, eyes, and ears. So perfect on the outside. They did a ECKO and found that the HLHS was alot worse than they had seen before, Along with the HLHS her great arteries were transposed as well and the VSD wasnt jus a small hole, the whole wall between the vertricles was gone and one of her valves had a small leak. So surgery was scheduled for when she was 5 days old. We spent the next days helping with her daily care as much as we could, she had a breathing tube so was sedated but moved her little arms and legs occasionally and held on to our fingers, we also got to see her open her precious eyes a few times. Darin got to hold her for 5 minutes just once, he was so proud and i got to give her a sponge bath and hold her once the night before her surgery. That morning we walked with them and Kaydence down to the OR, gave her kisses and then waited. All day the nurses came and gave us reports telling us it was going well, then about 4 that afternoon our surgeon came in to tell us they were not able to take Kaydence off the heart-lung bypass machine, they had finished the surgery but her heart would not beat on its own and they didnt know why. So up our little girl went back to the PICU now connected to life support. She had two more surgeries in the next 4 days to try and get her heart beating but she had a stroke and had bleeding on her brain so they had to take her off the support. and our angel Kaydence passed away on Jan 28, 2007. She and I share that day, it is her Heaven day and it is my birthday. One of the nurses had contacted NILMDTS and our photographer Kristen took beautiful pictures of our Kaydence, she told us over and over how gorgeous she was and perfect. We miss our little girl so much, we held her that day for 5 hours after she passed along with our close family. Kaydence Hope we love you so much, we miss you and think about you everyday and someday we will see you again and be able to hold you and touch your soft skin and hair....you were a special gift and we were blessed to have you even if only for 9 days. We love you!

[Jen Eagan]

I am so sorry. Thank you for sharing your story.

[Melinda Butler]

Lindzy~
I'm so sorry- Kaydence is a beautiful baby...

[erinm]

I am sorry for your loss. She is such a beautiful little girl.
thank you for sharing her with us.


erin

[S Jensen]

I am so sorry.

Sara

[Sarah O'Neal]

The picture in your avatar is beautiful ....I love it....

[Jackie Pettit]

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you.
Hugs,
Jackie

[B Storm]

Kaydence Hope, What a beautiful name. I am thinking about you and your family. How are your children doing? My step-son is 17, and daughter is 4. (They still have lots of questions). lol and hugs.

[Lindzy Foster]

Kaydence Hope, What a beautiful name. I am thinking about you and your family. How are your children doing? My step-son is 17, and daughter is 4. (They still have lots of questions). lol and hugs.

My other children seem to be ok, my 6 year old is a special needs child(he has ADHD and Aspergers Syndrome(high level autism)) so he talks with his therapist and also with the school couselor about everything. My daughter is 4 and I dont think she understands very well, she has questions and i try to answer but they never got to see Kaydence at all, while she was alive the hospital was too far from where they lived and when she passed my ex husband would not allow me to bring them even for a private viewing. My 4 year old, Rylei, she wanted a little sister so bad to help take care of and love, but we talk about Kaydence with her and she and i go out to Kaydences grave and take flowers. My 2 year old im not sure what he understands, when i was pregnant he would look in my belly button and say hi to his baby sister and when we showed them the obituary he told me it was my baby from my tummy. I dont know how spiritual everyone is here but Darin and I believe my 2 year old, Camyren, sees Kaydences spirit, he has said some strange things since she passed. We will be playing and then he will suddenly stop, look, and point to the other side of room and yell out "Baby Kaydence"! This has happened 4 times and it gives me some comfort to think that maybe her spirit is visiting us. I dont know what to think......But thank you to everyone for your kind words and support i appreciate it. We had some birth/bereavement announcements made by Tasha from Simply_Yours_Creations and hopefully they get here today im excited to see them in person!

[Tasha Nicholls]

Thanks for sharing your story, Lindzy.... I can't imagine how difficult it's been the past 6 weeks and with Darin away. I'm so glad you are here in the forum to both get support and strengthen and uplift others. It's nice to have a safe place to go where people don't judge you, wonder what is wrong with you, or just don't know what to say.

Kaydence is so beautiful... thank you for sharing her with us. I love the story about Camyren.... I personally believe there is more going on around us than we know and sometimes we get a glimpse through the eyes of a child.

Let me know when you get your cards.... I'm glad I could help you out in some small way.

[marylouise]

You're in my thoughts and prayers...
Hugs

[tinantravis]

Thanks so much for sharing your story with us....
Beautiful, just beautiful.
Take Care,
Tina

[Amber Schmidt]

Thank you for sharing with us. Praying for peace and comfort for your family. Its amazing what our children share with us... I am more than sure that your son "sees" her. I think its their gift.

[LoraRenshaw]

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story.
Blessings to all of you. Lora Renshaw

[Estrella]

Lindzy, I'm a little late posting to this thread but I just wanted you to know that your family is in my prayers. I also wanted to tell you that my son Elias who is almost 2 has also made me believe that he talks to his brother, Anthony. Elias doesn't talk much, but he'll sit and look up to the sky and laugh. He also loves to talk and play with Anthony's Teddy. This is the only stuffed animal that he will play with! I wish I could see what he sees...they do say that babies can see and talk to Angels.

Kaydence Hope is absolutely beautiful, Thank you for sharing her with us! And Congratulations, your wedding photos are beautiful!

[Lindzy Foster]

Happy 6 month angel birthday to my sweet baby girl Kaydence! mommy and daddy miss you and love you very much honey! XOXO Mommy

[Estrella]

Happy 6 month birthday Kaydence Hope! I hope you are having fun dancing on the clouds!:)

Lindzy, sending you many hugs today...my prayers are with you and your family!

[linda]

Sending hugs and kisses! Hope Ethan is holding your hand!

[Lyssa Sauer]

Happy 6 months baby girl. Stay close to your mommy and daddy and comfort them. Sending healing and prayers your way!

[Lyssa Sauer]

Happy 6 months in heaven today!

[Estrella]

Lindzy, I want you to know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers today, and well, everyday. Its been 6 months since your beautiful Kaydence Hope received her little wings. I pray that you are finding peace and doing well. Today must be a hard day and I want to send you a great big hug! Beautiful Kaydence, shine down bright on your loving family! Have a wonderful day dancing on the clouds!