Tomorrow was suppose to be my due date

[Rayna']

I had my last miscarriage in Sept 2006 & I was "due" tomorrow. It hit me like a ton of bricks last night. I could barely get out of bed this morning to go to work. It just felt like something heavy was on my chest & I couldn't get up. When I finally got up, I just put on my clothes & glasses & left-no makeup, no contacts. I've already used a week worth of vacation days since January so I don't want to miss work.

Just say alittle prayer for me just to get through today & tomorrow.

[marylouise]

Rayna, Your in my thoughts and prayers. Sending you hugs.

[Karla]

Rayna,

Hoping that you get through the day...........my thoughts and prayers will be with you.

I am so sorry that you have to go through the what ifs.....

Hugs
Karla

[Rayna']

thank you
the "what ifs" & "what should had been" has been pretty hard today.

[Brooke]

Hi Rayna,

I hear you. I went through that too when my due date approached in January. It is completely normal to think that way. Is there anything you can do to make that day special for you and your angel? For me we had a little birthday party for my daughter. It helped spending that day/evening with family if you have the opportunity. I also treated myself to a facial and pedicure. Do something for you. You've been through a lot in the past year. Good luck and I'll say a little prayer tonight for you.

Love,

Brooke
Mommy to Carter, Ethan, & Angel Emma

[Rayna']

thanks Brooke. well...I do have a haircut/highlights scheduled for tomorrow evening. I thought that might help me feel better atleast for a little bit. I've got to make myself get up in the morning & go to work.

I have been through alot this past year...I wish certain people would remember that when I am down & can't get up.

[Brooke]

Hi Rayna,

Your welcome. Anytime I can help. Enjoy your haircut/highlights. I know I always feel better about myself after I've updated my hair style. Good luck tomorrow.

Brooke

[Lindzy Foster]

Rayna,
Sending you ((hugs)) and thinking of you...
Lindzy

[Katelyn Colleen]

Rayna~

My thoughts and prayers are with you. I am so sorry for your loss. I am finding that I do better working through the pain of these days. If I occupy my mind momentarily to avoid it, the sadness still finds me later. I wish you strength and moments of peace during these days.

God bless,
Molly Mathison
Mother to John (2) and Katelyn (angel)

[Rayna']

thank you lindzy..i really need it right now

[S Jensen]

I'm so sorry. Too many people forget that there are two dates involved with the loss of a child. The date of the loss, and the birth date that either was, or was supposed to be.

Now, to be honest, there is no way my poor fuzzy brain could remember the due date of any of my friend's babies, lost or not. Heck, I can barely remember my best friend's birthday and I've known her almost 30 years. Still, people closest to you should understand and should try to make it known to you that they are thinking of you and feel for you.

Sara

[Rayna']

god this hurts so bad. how am i going to get through tomorrow?

[Rayna']

i am doing alittle bit better. Had my breaking point last night i think. I had Coleman stay home from school today to be with me. I always want him on these hard days. He is the reason I am here.

[lori anderson]

Rayna',
I know this is late, but i am thinking of you. I hope you are feeling a bit better today. You hold your son tight, and take comfort in him. Do whatever it takes to take care of you.
Lori

[Rayna']

thank you. I am doing alot better. Having alot of support from everyone really does help!

[Cheryl Haggard]

(((BIG HUGS))) from me...
Thinking of you.
Cheryl

[anr0014]

I know what you mean... tomorrow was supposed to be my due date (4/5) and my heart feels like a ton of bricks is weighing it down... again, just another reminder of what should have been...

[Rayna']

I am so so sorry! I hope you make it through the day tomorrow ok. Will be thinking & praying for you!

[anr0014]

Actually, just after I posted this, I went downstairs and saw we had a package by the front door. Someone I work with sent me a plaque that said "Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep" at the top and a baby carved into the plaque. They also sent a necklace/charm with Saint Jacob on it.

I definitly know that my little Jake is up there watching out for me...

[Rayna']

that was very sweet for them to send those to you!