Lindzy Foster
05-28-2007, 05:37 PM
:( Today marks 4 months since our sweet girl got her wings, ever since waking up this morning i feel like i am riding the waves of emotion.i miss her so much, i miss her looking at me with those beautiful eyes, i miss rubbing her hair, i miss her holding on to my finger, i miss kissing her feet and her nose...i miss her smell and the little noises she made when she was sleeping.....i want my baby girl back!!! i want to raise her, i want to be able to hold and hug and kiss her,i want her to make me that first mothers day card, i want to hear her say she loves me, i want to see that first smile, i want to be able to make everything better, i want to see her and daddy playing together, to see them snuggling together, i want to see all four of my children play together, i want to see her older brothers and sister watch out and protect her like they do each other....i want to give her kisses on her belly and hear her giggle, i want so many things!! All day ive been replaying our last day with her and everything she went thru, how i wish i could have spared her all of that, i will never forget the feeling of love i felt the last time she opened her eyes and looked at us, the pain today is horrible its as bad as the day we lost her, Darin had to go back to work in Omaha, and he was in such pain knowing he was leaving me so upset and crying but had no choice, he is my rock right now and my family and close friends, i just wanted to write this i needed to express how i am feeling today, we have been to Kaydence's site many times this weekend and this morning i just laid on the ground in front of her and bawled, im sure people driving by thought i was crazy but i couldnt help it, we had to do mundane things like grocery shopping today also and i had to wear my sunglasses in the store to cover my bloodshot, puffy eyes, and because the light hurt them so bad, and people looked at me there too...but i dont care, the pain is so sharp and fresh today, probably the worst it has been since she passed. I just want you to know Kaydence mommy misses you and loves you more than words can say, we talk about you constantly with your family and everyone who loves you, i would do anything to bring you back but thats not possible so until i can hold you in heaven mommy sends you kisses and hugs to up above....
here is a poem a friend gave me........love you Kaydence Hope!!!
The Love You Bring...
I looked toward the clouds today
and for a moment saw your face.
I know that you have gone,
to such a peaceful place
Did you show yourself to me today
to tell me you're all right?
Or was it just a daydream
playing tricks upon my sight
Then I thought of when you left,
still too young to say a word
Yet the look you gave us said it all
in our hearts, your good-bye was heard.
You have changed our lives forever.
Your short time here not in vain.
And hope you know we tried it all,
to keep you safe from pain.
We will always feel the void inside,
because you are not here.
But each new thought you send our way,
let's us know you're always near.
So until our journey nears it's end
and we hear the Angels sing.
We'll face each new day as it comes
and live off the Love you bring.
~James Sullivan~
here is a poem a friend gave me........love you Kaydence Hope!!!
The Love You Bring...
I looked toward the clouds today
and for a moment saw your face.
I know that you have gone,
to such a peaceful place
Did you show yourself to me today
to tell me you're all right?
Or was it just a daydream
playing tricks upon my sight
Then I thought of when you left,
still too young to say a word
Yet the look you gave us said it all
in our hearts, your good-bye was heard.
You have changed our lives forever.
Your short time here not in vain.
And hope you know we tried it all,
to keep you safe from pain.
We will always feel the void inside,
because you are not here.
But each new thought you send our way,
let's us know you're always near.
So until our journey nears it's end
and we hear the Angels sing.
We'll face each new day as it comes
and live off the Love you bring.
~James Sullivan~