Tristan Scott

[TaraAbbott]

Today my son, Tristan, would have been 8 weeks old today. My son was born very premature at 23weeks on Thursday June 14. He was 1lb 2.7oz and 11 3/4 inches long. Right after I had him they took him away to stabalize him. I got to see him a few hours later but only for a few minutes before he was transferred to another hospital with a NICU. I was actually released the same day from the hospital so I could go be with him. When I first saw him in the NICU I was a little scared because he was hooked up to so many things. He was doing well so I decided to go home and get a good night of sleep. The next morning I hurried and got back there right away in the morning so I could see my little Tristan. When I arrived I was greeted by the doctor in his room. This is when my world came crashing down. The doctor told me that my son had no chance of surviving because he was too small and his organs just weren't developed. He also had bleeding in his brain. I was heartbroken. They didn't think my son would make it through the night but he did. I know he was fighting so his daddy could see him. His dad was away at training for the Army. So he couldn't get there until Saturday. We decided Saturday afternoon to take our son off of the ventilator so we could hold him while he was still alive. This was the hardest decision I have ever had to make. I still think about if I made the right decision. All I know is that my son is not suffering anymore. I was very happy to have Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep come and take pictures of my son. I will always cherish these. I miss Tristan very much everyday and I know that someday I will get to hold him again. I love you very much Tristan!!

[Rayna']

Thank you for sharing your son Tristan's story. I am sorry for your loss!

[Brooke]

Hi Tara,

Welcome to NILMDTS. I'm sorry for the reason that you have joined us here, but pray that you will find peace and comfort. Thank you for sharing your son with us.

Love,
Brooke-Mommy to Carter, Ethan, &

[Estrella]

I am so sorry for your loss...I am sad you are here, but welcome you. This is a great place to come when you are having a bad moment. We are always here to listen and cry with you. Praying for you, thinking of you, hurting with you.

(((HUGS)))--Estrella--

[jaiew]

welcome to nilmdts im sorry it isnt under better circumstances(sp). i too had to deceide when it was time to let Carey receive his wings. it has been only 3 1/2 months since Carey passed and for a long time i wondered if it was the right thing to do. what you have to remember is you made the right decision for your child. only parents truely know when it is time to let thier childern go. your little one held on long enough to see daddy and to see you again. with Carey i know it was the best decision i couldnt watch him get sicker and sicker. ya he was made comforable but he was in pain and when i doubt my decision, i think that he is free, a healthy baby boy and he no longer has a broken body. knowing when to let them go, and then letting them go, that is what makes us great parents because we do it for them and not us. i know it is hard but you did the right thing for your child.

[Lindzy Foster]

i am sorry for your loss...but glad you were able to receive services from NILMDTS....you are in my thougts and prayers....
Lindzy

[TaraAbbott]

It has been two months since I lost my angel Tristan. It seems to get harder everyday. I am so heartbroken and I feel like it is never going to end. Everyone around me just thinks I need to get over it and move on with life. I wish they would just understand what I am going through and know that I will never get over Tristan. I am the kind of person who doesn't cry in front of anyone and I not real big on talking about my emotions. But right now I just wish someone would listen and let me cry my eyes out! Tristan was a very big part of my life and he always will be and I want people to talk about him and not act like it is a forbidden subject. When I start to talk about him people just sit there or try to change the subject. It is just so hard I wish the people around me could understand what I am going through. I love you Tristan! Mommy misses you so much

[Kerry]

Sorry today was hard for you.. Your getting your emotions out and that is the best thing to do. I know when it was fresh just the music that was played at the funeral could make me cry in the car now I can get a tear or two but i listen to words and they make so much since to me know. The songs fit my family. You never get over it you might move on and celebrate or remember different things but you cant forget a memory that deep and expect to forget about it.Some people dont like to deal with sadness mostly because they dont know what to say to you . If people didnt know what to say to me they would hug me and at least I knew they cared enough to listen . It was ok if they didnt say a statement at least they heard me.
Hugs to you and hope you a brighter weekend.
Kerry
Mother of Olivia,Sarah,Lane and Heavenly Angel Mallory

[Estrella]

We are here, listening, caring and wanting to hear everything you want to say. We may not see your tears, but we can imagine them, and cry tears of our own, for you and Tristan. Praying for you!

Happy 2 months in Heaven, Tristan...Stay by your mommy's side, she needs to feel those angel kisses! Let her hold you in her dreams!

[Lyssa Sauer]

Welcome to our unique family. I am so sorry to hear of yet another angel in heaven. I to know what it feel like to make that decision. I pray every night that I never have to make that decision for anyone ever again. Thank you for sharing Tristan with us. I hope you find some peace here. Lyssa

[TaraAbbott]

Tristan I miss you so much. I think about you all the time and dream about what you would be like now that you are four months old. Today was a tough day I went to the NICU and saw the nurse that was there most of the time with you. I love you so much Tristan!

[Estrella]

Tara, sending hugs...take care!

[Andrea A]

Tara, I'm sorry! I know that you will always be missing your lil' baby boy, Tristan. The longing never goes away. It's been over a year now since I held my baby girl, and everyday I wish I could go back to that day and make time stand still. I'm wishing you peace as you go about your days!