Helping hands lead to a healing heart

[Tammy]

Although nothing will ever replace the loss of my baby, I'm finding each day that I am actively involved with NILMDTS, whether it be posting here on the forum, researching potential photographers to contact, constructing letters, whatever it is I am doing at the time, I feel I am healing. There are still those days when I don't know which end is up, but they are becoming far and few between.

Chase would have been six months old coming up on the 25th of this month. (February) There are days where I sit and think about him and all the changes he would be going through at this point in his life. Such things like rolling over, attempting to get up on his hands and knees, experiencing his first taste of bananas and baby cereal and what his reaction would have been like. I have to smile a little at this, because the first time I fed Rorey and Jacob bananas and cereal... I ended up wearing it. (both attempts) I would have been prepared this time, full face mask and all.

I would like to become more involved with NILMDTS, maybe some sort of coodinator for my state or something. The more I can be involved, the more I feel I can heal and cope.

[Erica Stone]

Matthew would have been about the same, Tammy, and I understand what you mean. Since he was our first (and the first in both our families) I watch from a distance (another state) my nephew who was born in September. He's doing all the thaings that Matthew should have been doing, but for whatever reason I'm OK most of the time when I get the play by play.

I agree that NILMDTS has been a lifesaver for me. I am honored to be a recipient of its' services and I hope I can help someone else in the midst of their pain as I have been helped.

[Tammy]

Our nephew Beau (Bo) was born nine days before Chase. You can about imagine the roller-coaster of emotions our family was going through at the time. Although I love all five nieces and six nephews very dearly, little Beau holds a special little place in my heart.