My angel baby Matthew

[MDJmommy]

My son, Matthew James Love died June 18,2007. I say "died" instead of "passed away" because to me, passed away means it was expected. Matthew was just 5 months old when he died of SIDS. Matthew was a twin and also had a big brother named Joey, who is three. Matt and Dylan were 9 weeks early. Matt was 3 lbs 5 oz and 16.5" long, Dylan was 3 lbs 10 oz and 17" long. Matt soon surpassed Dylan in weight and stayed that way. He was our chunky baby. Talking about it is helpful and I will go on with my story sometime, but I can't right now.

[Estrella]

Thank you for sharing your angel Matthew with us. I am so sorry for your loss. You're right it does help to talk...we are here for you at all times. Thinking of you, praying for you, hurting with you...

HUGS, Estrella

[Cheryl Haggard]

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, now and always.
We are all here for you...when you are ready to continue Matthews story...
Cheryl

[MDJmommy]

This is probablt going to jump around a lot, but you will get the idea.....
My husband, Marty was the one who found Matt, I was at work. I work for the emergency communications center (answering 911 calls) in frederick county maryland. Marty is a firefighter for frederick county. We live in washington county which is right next to frederick. You will understand why this is important to my story in a bit. I was working the day shift that day. 6 am-6 pm. Marty woke up because he hear Joey (3) yelling to get out of his room (we have a gate across his doorway because his room is right at the top of the stairs). Marty told him to hold on and went downstairs to fix the twins morning bottles. Dylan usually wakes up happy and quiet. Matt usually let us know when he was hungry (which was often). We heard both Matt and Dylan around midnight, they didn't want to go to sleep so we wrapped them up as we often did for comfort. I woke up around 4:30 am and was going to go in and check on them but didn't want to wake them up, so I left for work. Marty tells me, he went down and fixed their bottles, he came back upstairs and saw Dylan wide awake ready for the day and Matt laying beside him...he was gone and Marty knew it. He called 911 and they told him to lay him down on the floor, Marty did but again, he knew it was too late. The emergency crew got lost, they went to the wrong house. Anyway, the police and ems units were still there...they called and told washington county communications to call my work and speak to my supervisor so they could find someone to drive me home. What do they do?? they call, I answer (we use number ids) they ask FOR ME, then tell me we have just dispatched a respiratory arrest to your address, you need to get home. I sat very still for just a second and said is everyone ok?? We had just taken Dylan to the hospital the week before because he had stopped breathing. They said just get home. I threw as much of my stuff together as I could reach, left my computers signed on and my headset plugged in and frantically looked for my supervisor who was not sitting at his position, I didn't see him so I just yelled as I was running out the door that a respiratory arrest had been dispatched to my house. I ran out into the parking lot to my truck and called Marty. He said do not get in your truck, do not drive home, I asked "who is it" and he said Matt. I remember a female state trooper in the parking lot kind of looking at me like, what is wrong with her?? Not listening to my husband, I got in my truck and peeled out of the parking lot and headed toward the highway. Marty had said he would call me right back. I was almost to the highway and I received a phone call from some emergency person on the scene from Marty's cell phone. I kept begging him for information and he just said we will be here for a while...I knew right then. I have to finish later because I am at work and my shift relief is here

[Lyssa Sauer]

Just wanted to say Welcome, wish you didnt have to join our group but are glad you found us. We are here for venting, listening, and sometimes a laugh or two, but we will be here to support you and your family. Prayers are with you Lyssa

[carissa13]

My heart goes out to you and your family. Thank you for sharing Matts story with us. We are all hear to listen when you need to talk.

[Lindzy Foster]

Thank you for sharing your precious Matthew with us, i am so sorry for your loss...thinking of you and your family

[George]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[millerdes]

Oh mommy! So sad to hear your story :(
Lots of hugs and love to you!

[Tasha Nicholls]

I am so sorry... I can't imagine how hard this has been for you. I'm sending thoughts/prayers/hugs your way!

[LoraRenshaw]

I am so sorry for the loss of you little Mathew. My heart goes out to you and I pray you find support and love here.
God Bless.

[Estrella]

Today is the 1 year anniversary of the day Matthew received his wings...please pray for the Love family!

Shine bright on your family, Matthew! Sending loves to heaven for you!

[Christine Barrack]

Amy,
I wanted to say welcome to the group. Sometimes hard to say as I wish there wasn't a reason to have met this way. I have been reading your story between the tears. I am so very sorry for everything you have been through and the death of Matthew. Happy 1st Heavenly Birthday Matthew. Hoping your paths will cross, sometime, somewhere... Until then, let love, peace, healing and Faith fill your lives!

Matthew is also the name of my first born son. The name was picked for its meaning- Gift of God- prior to his birth (my first pregnancy after my angel). I know that sharing your story can be difficult. Thank you for allowing us to hear it. Everyone is here for you at any time. Sending love and prayers your way.

[Marcus Momma]

Well I am sorry it took me so lon to see this. I am so sorry for your loss. Ur baby is beautiful.