Karla
11-12-2007, 07:41 AM
today is my precious little flower's heaven day, I can remember it all, and mostly today I remember the night before when she amazingly opened her little eyes, bright little eyes that caressed our faces with love, what magic, what a feeling that no words could ever give true meaning to, as her dad, her brother and I stood by her side at that moment we missed the message completely, at the moment in our excitement and desire to only see everything as a positive sign of her journey to good health, we mistook it for a sigh of healing to strength, we were wrong, and for a long time that moment has been locked away in my heart, every now and then emerging as a question in my mind as to why couldn't I seize the moment then and know that it was my little one saying to us "it's time for me to go, I love you all" as the days and years go by thamoment would grow inside like a bubble, words will always fail me as I try to tell the world that even as i missed the message then, now whenever that moment chooses to surface it takes my breath away, it warms my soul. it floods my body with a feeling, an aura, a halo, with everything that is completely pure and beautiful, with everyhting that makes me feel blessed and and loved,special and chosen, even in my pain and grief, even as i struggle in tears i will wait in hope and faith for God's reason...................
My dear little flower, Cydney Paige, I can write pages of words that would tumble from my mind, confusing and at most times making no sense, but mostly saying repeatedly "I love you always"
Mummy
My dear little flower, Cydney Paige, I can write pages of words that would tumble from my mind, confusing and at most times making no sense, but mostly saying repeatedly "I love you always"
Mummy