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George
01-18-2008, 12:43 PM
A friend asked me to help her understand what her husband is going through. This was my reply.

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How Men Grieve

From the time we are born, men are told not to cry. I remember being terrified of getting a vaccination when I was a toddler because a previous one was excruciating. The doctor tried to shame me into submission by saying I should be wearing a dress. This was a medical professional to a scared 3-year-old boy.

In school, other guys razzed us if we cried or expressed compassion. Even if it was a sports injury, someone would mock us and question our gender if we didn’t manage to hold back the tears.

We’re told that women don’t respect weak men. We interpret that to mean women don’t respect men who cry, and we know women don’t love men they don’t respect. Trash talk, sarcasm, anger, suppression, and aggression are acceptable. Drinking alcohol is cool.

This cultural conditioning handicaps us when it comes to expressing our emotions. Since we don’t have the words, skills, or experience to express them, we fall back to the outlets we were allowed—jokes, sarcasm, anger, and suppression. Alcohol is emotional novacaine and talking to the guys about a problem after a few drinks is acceptable.

Talking to a woman, especially our wives, about our emotions is unacceptable. Not only is it unfamiliar territory, we’re afraid they will they will lose respect for us.

If we dare venture into sharing our emotions with our wives, it often feels like we’re trying to drink from a fire hose. We’re bombarded with questions we don’t know how to answer. We have to deal with emotions we’ve suppressed all our lives. We lack the vocabulary skills to choose words for nuances, which is an area where women excel.

Women don’t know how inept we are discussing emotional issues and become confused, insulted, and angry when we don’t know the answers, can’t express our feelings, or use the wrong words. Then we become angry and shut down because that’s what we’re good at. The lesson is reinforced: emotions are bad. A drink while we vent to the guys that women just don’t understand helps us cope, at least temporarily.

Thrust us into a horrific situation like the loss of a child and our greatest fear is realized: we failed to protect our family. We failed as fathers, husbands, and men. In our eyes, we’ve become the worst thing a man can be: a failure. A loser. We loathe ourselves.

Men’s minds are like TV sets, we can only tune to one channel at a time. Sometimes we use work or activities to temporarily block the pain. We may detest having to work, but we suppress the pain and drag ourselves to our jobs anyway because we can’t pay the bills or buy groceries with a death certificate.

We willingly and selflessly sacrifice ourselves on the job alter to ensure our family’s survival and so our wife can stay home and grieve. We herculean effort, we plod to work while dying a little each day. And the death is literal since stress in one of the major reasons why husbands die around 10 years younger than their wives.

While we’re heroically and silently dying, our wives want to know why we’re not grieving. “Don’t you love your child?” she asks. And we die a little again.

Even if we are confident the woman we love would still respect us if we shared our pain, the dam may break and humpty dumpty may never be put back together again. We can’t take that chance since our family’s survival depends on our ability to suppress pain.

Society accepts women crying. They can grieve and becomes a basket cases. If she’s fortunate, she doesn’t have to deal with work related stress while grieving for her child. Her support network is vastly superior to that of her husband’s, even if it is inadequate when dealing with a child’s death.

Women want to share emotions and be validated. That’s how they cope and bond. Women don’t want their problem to be solved; they want empathy and understanding, and they crave it from the men they love.

I don’t know if it’s genetics, conditioning, or both, but men are problem solvers. If someone they love hurts, they want to fix it. Our advice on fixing things reflects what we’ve been taught all our lives—confront it or ignore it.

It’s amazing the two sexes ever get together in the first place. Women are emotional creatures that long to share, be validated, and be understood. Men are conditioned to suppress emotions to survive. Women want to talk about the death of her child. A man can’t if he’s to ensure the survival of this family. Women consider men as distant and aloof. Men feel their heroic sacrifice is unnoticed and unappreciated.

But our marriages can survive if we realize that as individuals, we are only parts of a whole. Men and women compliment each other. One is not right and the other wrong; we’re just different. Each strength is appropriate at the right time and place. And each strength is a weakness at the wrong time and place.

An ancient myth says that the gods were jealous of humans so Zeus used thunderbolts to split us in two. Ever since, we’ve wandered the earth looking for our other half. When we finally find each other, reintegration is often painful. However, we’re much stronger together than we ever were apart.

George

Kirk Kief
01-18-2008, 01:02 PM
Personally,
I cry and I'm not afraid to wear pink.
This was a most interesting piece that you shared with us George. Thank you!

Aurora
01-18-2008, 01:23 PM
Ohh George so insightful and well written as usual! Sorry I keep missing you I've been all together MIA lately =)

linda
01-18-2008, 07:31 PM
So true ~ I loved it!!

heatherlassell
10-11-2008, 12:21 PM
That was very well written George.

heatherlassell
10-11-2008, 12:22 PM
Oh and I wanted to add.....it really helps me to THINK just a a little harder before saying anything to my sons. I am working very hard to ensure they will be not afraid to speak about their feelings and I never mock them for tears or emotions.

momma to 2+ an angel
10-11-2008, 12:29 PM
Thank you for this, George

It really hit the nail on the head for me - I have been pulling myhair out wondering why Bob seems so "okay" while I am dying inside... I have been thinking things like I wonder if he even wanted our son, and if we should ever even think about trying again because he just doesn't care. I suppose he too is trying to deal with this on his own so not to "trouble" me but I am sitting here wondering why we even got together in the first place. Thank you for this, I truly mean that.

Jenn

HAINAngel2000
10-11-2008, 12:32 PM
George your post is simple awesome!!! I would love to use an article like this in our newsletter! Wow that was amazing and will help me to understand my husband not only more, but more of what he went through when we lost our daughter. Thank you

tstracener
10-14-2008, 10:42 AM
Thank you for writing this George. It helps me to understand what my husband is going through. I feel horrible that he works, while I sit at home to grieve for my Samuel. It is so unfair to him. He only got four days off for Samuel and I know that he hurts everyday. He is looking for a new job, so that we can have time to go to counseling, his job is all consuming (on-call 24 hours). Please pray that God shows us the right job.

Thanks again,
Tracy

Marcus Momma
10-14-2008, 09:40 PM
I am glad you wrote this too. Now I can understand a lil bit better where my husband is coming from and going through himself. When my son died that was the 2nd only time I had seen him cry and the first time he let it all out so bad in 5 years. So I know how bad he had to have been hurting to cry more than once over the loss of our son. He started crying before I did actually. I was in shock that he let it out and it broke my heart because I knew how he had to have felt to let it out like he did.

soledad
10-15-2008, 12:04 AM
WOW! Thank you George. Sometimes it's just hard to understand my husband, no emotions no crying, I just worder sometimes when is the bomb going to explote. He sure cried when Landon was taken away from us and when he gave the news to his mom, but after that all I heard was " All I want is to put this behind and move forward with our lives"/... and Im still trying to understand what happend to that baby that never came home. Why is that my basinet is an empty one, why is that insted of having a dobble stroller I only have a single one. Why is that Im looking for answers and he is just moving forward....??? just to think about it make my angry and mad at him. Is this normal? ??

Madge
10-15-2008, 09:19 AM
Very excellent. Thank you for sharing this.

Jet_119
02-16-2010, 09:20 PM
Thank you so much for sharing this.

George
02-21-2010, 08:08 PM
Why is that Im looking for answers and he is just moving forward....??? just to think about it make my angry and mad at him. Is this normal? ??

I don't think it is so much that he is moving forward as men think it is best to suppress emotions. Yes, being angry at a spouse is normal, but not necessarily the best thing for a relationship. Please keep in mind that he is grieving, it is just may be different from your way of grieving.

Brandijr
03-25-2010, 10:31 AM
Thank you George. I have been wondering why my husband does not cry with me when I cry. Why he doesnt like to talk about Emilee. Why, when I want him to cry with me, he gets frustrated. Thank you so much for this post. It really does help!!!!