My heart hurts...

[Tammy]

Having a tough day today. Tomorrow (Thursday Oct. 13) will be 8 weeks since we lost our baby Chase. I keep thinking how we are going to handle the holidays comming up. Halloween is just around the corner, I have a little puppy costume I would have had Chase wear. I know he would have looked adorable. I miss him so much.....
I can't concentrate on getting anything done I need to.... I'm hurting so deeply. I just want my baby back.... I just want him here with me, with us.....

[CassieB]

Tammy, my heart goes out to you today. I remember how empty the weeks to follow felt like after I lost my first daughter, Sierra, to SIDS. There were days that I felt like I could function and follow a schedule, then other days I had nothing to give and could only breathe the day away. I want to encourage you that if all you accomplish in a day is to open your eyes and look at the clock, then so be it. If it brings you comfort, then the time is not wasted. I will say doing what you did today and reaching out the way you did is much more productive for your healing. There is a world of people out there that understand and are here to comfort and encourage. Seek them with all your heart-it is where you will find the pin-prick light of hope at the end of a very long dark tunnel. -Cassie

[Kirk Kief]

Tammy,
I will keep you, and your family, in my prayers. I can't offer you any advice, as I don't think you are looking for that, but, I can, and will, offer you my prayers for healing.

[Cheryl Haggard]

Tammy, Remember what we talked about today? With the Teddy Bears??? Go get one, and put Chase's halloween outfit on him. And take that bear and give him a big squeeze...:)

[aharalson]

My thoughts and prayers are with you, the photos of your baby are beautiful and I wish there was something I could say to make it all better, but I know that there isn't. I will be here to listen if you need someone.

[Tammy]

I would just like to say thanks to all for the words of comfort, support and prayers. It's so reassuring to know that there are people like all of you who are there who can truly understand, and who care. Family and friends are always there, and I know that. However I also know they too are dealing with their own feelings of grief and loss, that up until now, they have not experienced themselves. I feel it hurts them more seeing my pain and anguish, knowing there is nothing that can be said or done to make things any easier.
Although I would much rather have my baby here with me ( I would rather have all our babies here) it was not my choice, or any of ours for that matter. That is why I am here at this God sent site. I honestly don't know what I would have done yesterday, or where I would be today had I not learned about NILMDTS.
Today (October 13) marks 8 weeks since our little angel Chase was called to Heaven. It's my prayer today that all our precious babies are happily playing peek-a-boo together in Heaven, and it is my prayer today those of us left behind will find strength to get through another day.
Thank you again, for helping me get through yesterday. So far today I'm doing pretty good, God only knows what tomorrow will bring.... God Bless All
Tammy