Faith and Hope's Story

[FaithandHope]

We had our son on May 30th 2008. He is and was precious and wonderful and completely perfect. When he was 5 months old we found out that we were pregnant again! We were nervous but so EXCITED. When I was 9 weeks pregnant we went in for an ultra sound and the doctor got quiet. He was showing me the little "peanut" as he called it and all of the sudden became silent. My mind started racing. I said "is there no heartbeat?" He quickly replied "well... its not that there is no heart beat... there are two!" Words cannot express my joy. We found out a few weeks later when my doctor referred us to a perinatologist that our twins were monoamniotic. They were sharring one amniotic sac. The doctors told us all of the risks... cord entanglement, twin to twin transfussion... all of it, but I focused on my pregnancy..not the risks of it. The doctors kept close tabs on me. I had an ultrasound every single week. We found out they were girls at 16 weeks and that we should be ready for hospitalization for monitoring by twenty weeks. I was soooo excited to have identical twin girls. Since we had so little time to prepare.. I bought everything pink I came across. At 19 weeks I went in to the hospital with severe back pain. They sent me home with tylenol. The night before my next ultra sound I prayed that the girls would move. They had not been as active lately.. and my heart knew something was wrong. My mind did not want to believe it though. The next morning my worst fears came true. The ultra sound tech was silent the entire time. I held my breath. They were not moving like usual. There were no heart beats. Everything that happened following that ultra sound is a blurr of tears and numbness. They induced me the next day. I prayed for the strenght of God for the delivery. My grandma always told me that "the Lord will never give you more than you can handle" but this time... I was sure that he had. Our twins were born the next morning... in my sleep. The Lord had truly done it FOR ME. I knew from the very beginning that these little girls were a gift from God. We choose to name them Faith and Hope. These words and their meaning will forever be special to us. I will never forget them and I find great comfort in knowing that the Lord will hold them until I do.

[Marcus Momma]

I am so sorry. I am glad you found us here and we are all here for you anytime you wanna let it all out. i will praying for you to find some peace even though I know it is hard. Hugs.

[carissa13]

Hi Lyndsey ~ I am so sorry for the loss of your twin daughters, I am in tears after reading your story, my heart breaks for you! Faith and Hope are wonderful names and I will pray that is exactly what they will bring you! You are in my thoughts and prayers ~ Carissa

[Shelly]

Dear Lyndsey,
I'm sorry for the loss of Faith and Hope. I, too, lost monoamniotic twin girls who we named Madeline and Monique. I was 23 weeks. We knew all the risks, but it was still an incomprehensible shock! It's been almost 10 years....I cannot believe I could possibly miss so much two little people who I never even knew.
Take good care of yourself. It's a terribly difficult time.
Shelly

[amburke2]

Lyndsey,
I'm so sorry for your losses. I liked the part of your story where you said you focused on your pregnancy, not the risks of it. It sounds like you enjoyed all the time you had with your little girls.

[Kerry]

Lyndsey,
Sorry for the loss of of your little babies Faith and Hope. I had twin girls also but I have a surviving twin. I delivered at 34 weeks and I will never forget that ultrasound when we saw no beating heartbeat. My daughter Sarah is 3 and thriving I always thought she would be a little behind with being premature but she caught up by age 2.My twins were in two seperate sacks but her sister Mallory died from a blood clot in her cord. It had actually happened a month previous and the last time it was too long or too much. I am thankful for Sarah but was painful to bury her sister when your suppose to be happy for the other. I hope you find the strength and support with all of us. I hope to hear more from you and never be afraid to be yourself and vent or cry or be or tell us your good moments. We are all listening! Take Care of yourself and take all the time you need to grieve.

Kerry
Mother of Olivia,Sarah,Lane and Heavenly Angel Mallory

[Carrie LaFollette]

Lyndsey,

I am happy to see that you made it to the forum! Faith and Hope are beautiful and I too know that God is holding onto them. Please don't hesitate to call me if you need anything.

[Lacey Canaday]

I am sorry for your loss of your angles Faith and Hope. You are in my prayers.

[Lindzy Foster]

Im so sorry for the loss of your precious baby girls, our daughters middle name was Hope......