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[Marlena]

Grace would have celebrated her 7 month birthday with Elle this past Sunday. This trigger has hit hard. My heart is in pieces right now. Grace has been consuming my thoughts and I am overwhelmed with grief. I wish so many things. I wish I could have heard her cry, watch her breathe, look into her eyes. I wish I wouldv'e held her longer, made different arrangements for her memorial service, done her announcements different, saved her care bear.....
marlena

[Kathy Schneider]

Marlena,

I am so sorry you are having a rough time right now. Even 6 years out, I have wishes and lots of regrets. I wish I could take away some of your pain. Would you like to meet for coffee or something? I will keep you in my prayers. Call me if you want to meet up. I'm always willing.

[Marcus Momma]

I am sorry you are having a hard time right now also. I am going through it myself can't seem to figure out why I am still moving from day to day. Good luck. I will be praying for you.

[Cheryl Haggard]

All I can offer are (((HUGS)))
The first few years are very hard, emotional, painful...Lots of 'I wish I did this, I wish I did that...' All normal... Make a list of your regrets, then make a list of what you did. I think that would help you see that you did do alot. You are only human, and can't do everything...
I will be thinking about you...and Grace...

[JenniferBrown]

Big hugs from me. Cheryl has great advice. :) Again Big Hugs!

[Margaret Hatcher]

Marlena:
Big hugs and lots of prayers coming your way!

[KEA's Mom]

Marlena,
I think what you're going through is very normal--at least that's what I tell myself as I'm having many regrets myself. I don't know what Amanda's little hiney looks like--I'm not sure if I can't remember or I didn't look at it. I didn't kiss her feet. I held her and gently stroked her cheeks for hours.
I'll be praying for you and for Grace.

[motherofthree]

I am sending hugs and prayers for peace your way.

I also have thoughts of regrets. Someone once told me that despite the fact that we lost our children, we still parent them the best we can. I guess in several ways, it is the same - we do the very best we can at the time. There are always regrets, but everything you did, you did with complete love. Although our minds will always find ways to try and overlook what we did for what we didn't, try to find some peace in knowing that where Grace is, she has complete knowledge of your love for her, and that you did the best you could. She knows your heart now, even though you feel you may not have been able to show her.

I am so sorry you are hurting.

[Tim Frechette]

Grace feels no pain and knows the love you have for her. Someday you will be reuinited but until then you were blessed with a beautiful gift from God. She was here to teach and inspire.

Your hurt and scares will turn to gold. God has a plan for us and it may not be what we want. From your pain you have shared with others they too have shared some of your pain. We are in this together.

Feeling cheated, angry, and sad are all natural but they will help you help others in many ways. You are strong and with the knowledge and experience you possess, you have the power to help others. Helping others as you do will help heal you.

God Bless
Tim

[Stacy Holley]

I am so sorry. Milestones (birthdays, Christmas, first steps, etc) are always so very hard. Wondering each day what our precious angels would been doing if they were still here with us. I have so many "I wishes" and "should haves" and regrets. And after 16 months, I still very much feel them. I wish I had some words of wisdom for you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

[Marlena]

Thank you for all the kind words and prayers. Today was a little bit better, I sat down and worked on Graces Album.