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[mommy2jaidyn]

Hello all. I have just been introduced to this site. I am very greatful I did. I have been a member to another site since I lost my daughter. I have found that it has been easier to talk to people on-line.

Now comes the dreaded task of telling my story. Actually to tell you the truth it has become easier to tell as the time has passed.

My husband and I were expecting our second child on August 23,2003. We found out she was a girl for sure August 1 and since we already have a son (Nathan,4) she would complete our family. August 4th I started having cramps which I thought were contractions, since I was in my 37th week I wasn't worried. After a while I started getting this feeling something wasn't right, she hadn't been moving much since about 2 am and it was now 5. I called my mother and woke up husband, they both said babies don't move very much when your in labor. But something just wasn't right, we took Nate to my moms and went to the hospital. I got a room right away and the started hooking the monitors up. The nurse was couldn't find the heartbeat. She tried to say she low so its hard to find. I knew better. After 4 nurses and my Dr. couldn't find her heartbeat and there was no movement on the u/s we were told she had passed. The following day, Aug. 5 at 1 am I delivered my beautiful baby girl. She was 5 lbs 14 ozs, 19.5 inches long. Absolutely perfect. We were able to hold her and love her for a little while. The next day she was baptized and we burried her Aug.8. She was burried in a beautiful white casket with a picture of her and her daddy, and a little pink dinosaur her big brother had won her from a game. She was beautiful and looked so peaceful like she was sleeping. I miss her so much and I never really knew her.

My Nathan is now 7 and we have a beautiful addition, our son Bradyn, 19 months.

I only wish I had known about NILMDTS then. I have looked through the site and the pictures and videos are so perfect. I love the detail they capture, the feet, hands, ears. It's the little things like that that count the most. I am so glad I found the site when I did. I plan to create baskets to take to local hospitals for bereaved families. I plan to include information for NILMDTS, I would love to give the parents the opportunity to capture there precious baby in a special way.

I am done babbling.

Lots of Love
Jen

[Cheryl Haggard]

Jen,
I am glad to see you on the site. Thank you for opening your heart and sharing your story with so many others. It is very healing to share, and talk about our babies. Just like we meet eachother, I'm sure that little Jaidyn is meeting all of our babies in Heaven. That is a very comforting thought. Please feel free to share any information or advice that you might have with us here. I hope that this post finds you with a happy heart...
Blessings,
Cheryl

[Jen Eagan]

Welcome, Jen! Thanks for sharing your story. I know what you mean about wishing it was available. My daughter Hannah would have turned 8 this summer and nothing remotely close to this was available for us either. That probably became a blessing in itself for me though, because it was all the "not good" photos of Hannah that we had that made me become a photographer when my other children were born, and now that I've been working for 2 1/2 years I was able to feel truly ready when someone (Kirk Kief, I think!) told me about NILMDTS and suggested I join. It's been therapeutic (sp?) to share Hannah with people who might understand- and at the same time turn my grief into something precious for someone else. Nothing comparable to it.

:)

Anyway- did they ever determine what caused Jaidyn's death?

Jen Eagan

[mommy2jaidyn]

They said that it was a placental abruption. When my placenta tore from uterus it cut off her oxygen supply. Because it was a tear in the back of my placenta was considered a concealed leak. This is supposedly why they never caught it. I guess what is most upsetting is they said it usually occurs when you have severe traume to your belly or are a drug addict, since I am niether I am still baffled. There are no answers as to why or how.

[klosey]

My heart goes to you and your family. I understand as to not having any answers as to why or how. Thank you for sharing your story.