Grrr! i failed :(

[Lindzy Foster]

Well I didnt let anyone know but I failed my 1 hour glucose test and yesterday I went for my 3 hour test...........they called me this afternoon to tell me i failed that as well so i officially have gestational diabetes :( I have never had this condition with any of my previous pregnancies/babies and I am incredibly depressed and feel like i failed this baby somehow, i cried the entire afternoon....i had just gotten my anxiety under control and have been having some very enjoyable preg moments and now i am terrified about the complications that could arise from this......surprisingly i had been eating really well with this baby and very conscious of every thing i put in my body so that is why it comes as such a shock that this baby out of all of them i would have GD....the diagnosis does explain the excessive thirst and urination ive been having(lol more than your normal preg stuff)........I'm just incredibly worried as a lot of the foods will be a huge diet change for me and its not that i cant handle that its the fact that i have difficulty standing at the stove for even a simple meal for myself and the kids....overall im just worried that i will make or eat the wrong thing and harm the baby....my mom has pledged to come to the rescue and travel here each week(she lives an hour away) to help me prepare some meals that i can freeze for the week so im incredibly grateful for that and of course the hubby will help when hes home.....to complicate things more i finally got into the dentist after being in severe pain for weeks and i need all 4 wisdom teeth pulled along with some other dental work....the cleaning they did helped alot but my OB had to give me some pain meds to sleep as they are more worried about the effect me not being able to sleep and barely eat with the pain was doing to our lil princess....i thank God that i dont have the pain every day and need to take them constantly, i feel so guilty for needing them at all, i hate even taking a tylenol during pregnancy :( we talked with the oral surgeon and they wont touch me because of my past until after baby is born so ive scheduled my surgery already for the end of july and hoping it wont get any more painful in the meantime :)
Thanks to anybody that listens or responds, im just having a bad couple of weeks and needed to vent and get some support and any help/encouragement with the GD would be great!

[kelly bennett]

Lindzy I am sorry you are having to go thru this.... thank goodness your mom will be able to come and help you a bit.. that will help a lot!!! The change in your diet will only be for a little while. I will keep you in my thoughts.

[Marcus Momma]

I hope you get to feeling better. You are in my thoughts and prayers also. I have to get all of my top teeth pulled so I know what kind of pain you must be going through. Its horrible. I had alot of them pulled when I was pregnant with Marcus wish made it worse because you can;t take to many things pregnant. I really do hope you start feeling better.

[Lindzy Foster]

Thank you guys! its not so much the change in diet, that will actually be really good for me:), its the fear that im going to do/eat something wrong and harm the baby/pregnancy....just terrified of the unknown i guess and i def. dont know anything about diabetes but am quickly learning!

[Christine Barrack]

Lindzy,
Hang in there. GD can happen to anyone during a pregnancy. Your doc can give you info on the correct diet and monitor your progress. Following that, reducing your stress level and Faith are most important. I am so sorry you are going through all this.
Don't even get me started on dental problems. That is one tough pain to control. I really feel for you.
Hugs your way.

[JenniferBrown]

((((( Hugs Lindzy )))))
I agree, GD can happen to anyone! Just keep track of your sugar levels and you will be doing ok. I failed my 1 hours with all of my pregnancies but refused the 3 hours. So what I did was, I bought a glucose meter and checked my levels several times a day at home. My dr was pleased with my numbers and even though the doc was pleased I kept track of them the rest of my pregnancies. :) You can do this!

I'm so sorry about your teeth. I just had one pulled and it was so much relief. I hope your tooth issues don't get worse until you can have the surgery! More and more hugs!!

[linda]

Oh, Lindzy! That sucks!! Don't blame yourself ~ you have been such a trooper this far. In fact I was just getting ready to find your thread about baby and say "tag your it!" :)

Things will be just fine, Our hearts and our prayers are all focused on you and the Lord will hear us. I will pray for your meals to be just right and your body to digest what and how it needs to.

As for the dentist thing, just when you think it can't get worse it does. Hang in there and if needed take a Q~tip dipped in vanilla extract and rub it on the soar spot. Ok not the tastiest treat and you might have to ask your doc if it's ok but it's natural and not tylanol and it will help stop the throbbing pain.

All my thoughts, prayers and hope is directed for you now Lindzy. I hope you know that.

[JenniferBrown]

Oh Linda, that reminds me.... Sometimes if you put toothpaste straight on a sore tooth it will kill the pain! Shocked me when it worked when I had my bad tooth. lol

Lindzy, you are still in my thoughts and prayers.

[KEA's Mom]

Lindzy,
I have diabetes--and it had nothing to do with our losing Amanda. I'm sure the doctor will give you a glucose meter. That will be an important tool for you. It's very easy to test your sugar and it's just a little pin prick. You'll probably test when you wake up and 1-2 hours after you eat each meal. So you'll have immediate results as to how you're doing. Your doctor may refer you to an endocrinologist--all they do it help you manage the GD and they'll teach you about how certain foods effect your sugar. You'll be fine. And if you have a high reading here and there--don't freak out--like everything else--it's the average that matters. PM me anytime or if you'd like my phone number I can give you that as well.
Take a deep breath and take care of yourself:)

[Bill Tilton]

Lindzy,

I've been diabetic for almost 50 years (obviously not gestational!) So, I know a thing or two about diabetes treatment. When I started using a blood sugar meter, most doctors hadn't heard of such a thing. The test strips didn't come with calibration numbers back then, so I had to write and equation for each new package of strips!

Any time the body is under stress, the demands on sugar control are increased. While pregnancy should be a happy time, it does put additional stress on your system. If your body is losing some of its capability to produce or utilize insulin, this added stress is often enough to show up as gestational diabetes. After pregnancy, this often goes away, but there is some increased risk that diabetes will return at some time in the future.

The good news is that this is not a rare disease that doctors don't know anything about. The information is out there and you can control the condition. Occasional excursions into high sugar levels are unlikely to cause serious harm. But you want to do everything you can to maintain tight control. Your doctor and teaching assistants can show you how to do that.

If we were talking about non-gestational diabetes, I would tell you that limiting carbs in your diet AND being consistant from day-to-day would be a first step in getting good control. With gestational diabetes, you need to balance the nutritional needs of both you and the baby with the need for tight control.

In summary, Bad News — this is a heck of a lot of work! Good News — the support from your medical team, the American Diabetes Association and other educational sources is there for the asking. Work the system!

I'm certainly no substitute for your medical team, but I'd be happy to talk with you by phone if you'd like.

Best wishes,

Bill

[motherofthree]

I am so sorry you are having a rough time. I had gestational diabetes with my first pregnancy, which produced a beautiful healthy baby girl. (Interestingly, I didn't with my second girl, who now resides in heaven). We controled the GD with diet. I only had to go on a pill the last couple of weeks of the pregnancy. If you follow the diet, you shouldn't have any problems. It just takes a lot of self control and healthy eating. WHich is even more difficult sometimes with pregnancy!!! Man, all those carb cravings I had to try and ignore! Although some people get a more severe form and diet doesn't help, I am sure it will be just fine for you. We are all here for you and praying for you!

[zoomitoons]

Lindzy,
I was GD during my pregnancy with Olivia. I thought for sure I was going to fail at the diet and it would be the worst thing I would ever had to deal with. Boy was I wrong. The GD had nothing to do with her being born still (she had a knot in her cord) but I learned so much on the diet and actually lost weight because of it. After her birth I have tried to stay on the diet and it's been great for me. I feel much healthier, keep losing weight, have more energy etc.
Good luck with getting your sugars on track (it takes time) If you have any questions please feel free to ask. I also have some really good recipes that I tried and my family and I really liked them.
Amy

[Lindzy Foster]

Thank you everybody for all the info and support!!!! it means so much to me!! and i definately will appreciate any quick easy recipes that i can use for this change :) Darin and i are going out of town next week to Des Moines for our 4D u/s and i have another doc appt on next thurs and then am scheduled friday morning for a class and meeting with a dietician/nutr. It makes me feel so much better to hear from all of you and your experiences..including you Bill, gestational or not your thoughts and info are a big help...And thank you for the tips on the tooth pain i will def try them out! Ughh my one wisdom tooth came in on the side of my mouth(i have very small mouth) and sometimes cuts into it, that one drives me nuts!!! Im having problems with my gums as well, in fact they say i show huge signs of the beginning of gum disease which i find strange as ive been a fanatic my whole life about properly cleaning my teeth......

Linda,
Lol I knew you were gonna say that! ive anxiously waited the arrivals of all the other babies on here knowing mine was coming soon, i feel like ive been passed the olympic torch in a way :) My NILMDTS photog had a new baby girl in March as well......I'm just continuing to pray for our lil bundle and keep my thoughts as positive as possible and we very much appreciate everyones good thoughts and prayers on our little girls behalf! Ok im going to breathe and remember only about 10 weeks left.....we will be inducing probably a week early but havent picked out the day yet....oh and in case anyones wondered she does not have a name yet lol......we have some possibilities and are thinking we are letting the kids choose this time!

Again thanks to everybody!

[Tasha Nicholls]

Awww.... *HUGS* it'll be okay!

You've received some great advice. One more thing I'll add for the toothache, try cloves. I've actually never been into natural herbs and medicine and was always a bit sceptical until my last pregnancy when I had some severe pain that Tylenol wouldn't touch but herbal remedies helped tremendously. (If anyone here has varicose vein pain, witch hazel works wonders!) Of course, you'll always want to consult your doctor before applying any internal herbs or medicine.

Here's a fact sheet I just pulled up:
http://fht.shared.hosting.zen.co.uk/mainwebsite/resources/file/knowledge-%20witch%20hazel%20&%20clove%20jul03.pdf

[Kerry]

I am so sorry to hear about the GD with the pregnancy. Scary to have to keep a safe monitor. When I was pregnant with the twins my other friend at work was pregnant and had that. We ate with her what she was suppose to and made it fun event. I ate lots of celery with peanut butter and beef jerkey. For meals for take out she liked naked burrito's. Which is without the shell and probably the craziest thing I ate with her but she loved. It was from Subway. A meat ball sandwich but no bread on a Salad. Yes sounds gross but if you eat it fast enough the lettuce didn't get soggy. You will find things that work for you summer is coming so I believe they have some good fruit you can eat like strawberries I believe. Take some free classes from the hospital and your meter they will give you and sounds like you have the support group you need, and time will fly by with ease.Take Care

Kerry
Mother of Olivia,Sarah,Lane and Heavenly Angel Mallory

[Bill Tilton]

In my quest for low-carb foods, I came across something called Lavash Bread. It looks very much like the shell used in a wrap, but the carb content is pretty low. A whole sheet of this stuff is about 9x12 inches and has 7 grams of total carbs. But 3 grams of that is dietary fiber, so I don't believe that counts. If you need even less, a half shell still makes a pretty good wrap. We get ours at BJs, but I'm not sure who else might carry it.

Bill

[Margaret Hatcher]

Lindzy:
You have alot on your plate right now and I am so sorry for all that you are going through, I will keep you and your family in my prayers, please keep us posted, we care about you and what you are going through.

[linda]

Hey Lindzy,

How are things going? Just a few more weeks to go. I sure hope things are going well. I'm thinking of you and praying for you and your family.

[Lindzy Foster]

Hi Linda!
Things are going as planned, not as well as i would like them to be but not a lot i can do about it....they ended up putting me on some meds to help level out my blood sugars.....well the meds bottomed me out so bad that i was blacking out,shaking constantly, and once even woke up not knowing who i was, where i was, what day it was...it was very scary.......i've lost 6 lbs in the last month but they arent too worried about it as i had a little to spare lol......we stopped the meds and i go back on thursday for another checkup and then start twice weekly NST's the 2nd week in June....and will be getting another u/s then also to check size and fluid.....the peanut is doing well though, shes a mover and shaker and i can tell the space is getting tight on her lol, she is already dropped and in position as well which is normal all my babies seem to do that early :) I'm getting regular BH everyday as well so hopefully will be well dialated when true labor hits or we get induced......And emotionally??? well im not so good but holding in there, the closer we get to delivery the more my anxiety acts up and the more scared i am, i keep having flashes back to the day we lost Kaydence and i miss her more and more, every little thing makes me cry, poor hubby doesnt know what to do with me :) I really appreciate all the thoughts and prayers from everyone it helps a lot, although my family is extremely supportive most of hubbies family hasnt even acknowledged were having another baby, oh and to top the stress off we found out as of right now Darins getting deployed in Oct/Nov for Afghanistan and will be gone her first xmas :( ........okay thats enough venting lol im so glad i have you all here or i dont know what i would do!

[carissa13]

Lindzy~I'm glad to hear your little peanut is doing well! I think about you all the time, praying that all is well!

[KEA's Mom]

Lindzy,
I'm so happy to hear your baby is doing well. I'm sorry you're struggling with the gestational diabetes. Please keep us posted and take care of yourself:)

[linda]

Lindzy, hang in there ~ the overwelming feelings will only get worse as you get closer to your sweet babies birthday. I really had to concentrate during labor to not think about my loss. Try to do that, I don't remember if you read my thread about delivering Mason but I had sweet reminders that Ethan was there watching over us. That helped me not have the awful flash backs and fears.

As for Darin having to deploy ~ I know far to well the TDYs and deployments ~ I realize it will be hard on you ~ but know that it will go very fast. The base should have all sorts of programs available for you. You'll have to call the Airman and Family Readiness Office. Here at Buckley they have give parents a break it's one free night of babysitting on a Saturday usually. So you could meet up with some friends and go to dinner and a movie or something. Once a month we have a deployed spouses dinner *usually* at the chapel. So all the mom's can meet eachother and exchange numbers etc for a support group. Also there is a monthly support group at the AFR office where spouses can go and VENT about the struggles about being left behind. There's much more but you get the picture...Also have him check with his UDM to see if they have a call list where someone from his unit calls and checks in on you to see if there is anything you need. I'm our unit's UDM and we also have a call list. Our CC has us call once a week to check in on our deployed spouses. Ok, nough about that...

I'll be praying for you health during these last few weeks. The appointments and running around can get VERY TIRING to say the least.

[Lyssa Sauer]

Lindzy I was starting to worry about you. You havent posted here or on the myspace and I know you are busy but I worry but continue prayer for you. I know that the last month is even harder so take time rest up find a good book and try to relax. YEAH RIGHT HUH! I really should call and talk to you but am so afraid you may be taking a nap or trying to relax. I am holding strong that you and that baby will be just fine ! Oh and do we have any names at all picked out. It sucks that Darin will be leaving and so soon after baby but at least he will have sometime to spend with his daughter before he leaves. If ya need anything just even an ear please call me. I know that this last month seems to take forever and the stress and anxiety can be overwhelming Love ya hun take care !

[Lindzy Foster]

Linda,
Thank you! im trying to keep thinking positive thoughts but to be honest im absolutely terrified i cant wait to see this baby safe and sound in our arms...and thanks for the tips on deployment i will have to give the readiness office a call..

Lyssa,
I'm ok! still hanging in there and yes more anxious and nervous than ever, i do get online every now and then but just dont have the energy to post much just trying to rest when i get the chance and the kids are keeping me super busy we have so much planned for the summer.....haha next week were going camping! can you imagine, 35 wks preg and camping lol! i think im nuts but i wanted to do something special with them before baby comes and our big vacation got canceled with how expensive gas is for our guzzling SUV along with me having to stay close to home with the NST's and stuff...
The stress is really getting to me, the closer we get the more i worry about every little thing going wrong but not much i can do about that i just cant wait to see this little girl and give her some kisses! As for a name lol we dont have one for her yet..i feel horrible! the kids have one picked out for her but i just dont feel it and am not positive i want to go with it although i dont want to break their little hearts either...but we are totally lost! im panicking!
We took maternity photos yesterday i will post them on my MySpace when i get them, i was so excited to do them and we got some cute shots with the kids! ive never done them before but figured since this is probably my last shot that i would go for it....anyways love you much and thanks for all the prayers!

[Kathy Schneider]

Lindzy,
Glad you are doing okay. I think the time around your loss of Kaydence is the hardest, but so is waiting til the new baby is born. I will continue to think of you and pray for you and your family. As for a name, she'll get one before she leaves the hospital. Let God whisper it to you...we had Matthew picked out for our second child and were having second thoughts about the name. We ended up sticking with the name and at his baptism the priest said that God already knew his name even before he was born. I then found out that Matthew means "Gift from God" which was very appropriate after we lost Isabelle.

I know it's hard to post alot, but keep us up to date so we all don't get a worrying about you. Hugs and prayers to all of your family.