Another one of "those" days...

[Tammy]

I recieved a phone call this morning about an appointment I was to attend tomorrow (Oct. 18) with my baby Chase. I had to explain Chase was not here, that he was stillborn. There was a moment of awkward silence, neither I or the person on the other end of the phone knew exactly what to say. Then she expressed her sympathy... and told me she had been through the same thing, and it's never easy. We didn't get into much detail, I think we both felt the uneasiness of the conversation.
I still need to attend the appointment, I will have my younger son Jacob with me and yet, I know I SHOULD be bringing Chase with me as well.... I hope I don't have to deal with too many more situations like this because I can't and don't handle them well...

[Cheryl Haggard]

Tammy-You know that you can call me. Just one foot in front of the other...Maybe you and Jacob should go look for those 'bears.;) '--Big Hugs--Cheryl

[Tammy]

Thank you Cheryl, and yes... I know I can call you, have your number on SPEED DIAL on my phone! :) Just need to get through today, won't be easy but know everything will be alright. *deep breath*

[aharalson]

I remember the first time I was with Cheryl and someone asked how the baby was, it was my birthday and I had managed to convince Cheryl to come to dinner with me. When we went to drop off all of our girls at the gym someone just came right out and asked "how is the baby". I remember just standing there and not knowing what to say or do, as friend I just watched as my dear friend was hurting If I could have done anything to fix it I would have but I knew that I couldn't. But want I really wanted to tell you is that as the time passed and as we would run into people and someone would ask "oh how is the baby" it seemed to get easier each time. The last time someone asked I actually saw Cheryl light up a little when she talked about Maddux, she seemed to handle it with a sense of peace. While I know it will never be ok and it will never be the same, as time passes some days will get easier. I don't know if this helps at all, but I hope in some way it does. Tomorrow is another day, it will be ok just keep telling yourself that.