It has been 4 months since he has gone

[krockwood]

It is so not getting any easier. Four months ago today we lost my nephew. I am sitting here crying for his loss. I feel that my family has been cheated out of a wonderful life that could have been.
I see his pictures and feel even worse at times that he is gone. I keep thinking about the could of, should of and would of happened. I know this is not healthy but I can not help it.
I know that grief is healthy but I really wish the pain would go away. I still question why he was taken from us.
I do not know how to comfort my brother and his wife.

James I know you are looking down on us and I want you to know you are missed terribly. I will always have you in my heart. Smile down on us when we are having a rough time with missing you.

Your aunt
Kirsten

[Estrella]

Kirsten,

I have to say...what a wonderful Auntie you are!! I really wish my sisters would come on here, and just read. I am so sorry for your pain, and the pain your entire family is going through. I am so sorry that James is not here with you all, smiling, laughing and playing peek-a-boo...but I do know he has alot of friends with him, and I am sure they all welcomed him with big hugs. Just as I welcome you with a (((HUG))) and lots of prayers. I am sorry that you are here, but hope you find some comfort and peace within this forum. We are all here for you. Take care....

Happy 4 months in Heaven precious Angel James!

[Marcus Momma]

I am sorry you are hurting for your nephew. I hope you will find comfort. My brother never got to see my son his nephew because he was put in jail 2 days before and was not let out to come to the funeral. He hates hisself for it because he will never get to lay eyes on him and he was there at everyone of my childrens births because we are so close. Your nephew is lucky enough to have an auntie like you who cares so much.

[KEA's Mom]

Kirsten,
There's really nothing you can do to comfort your brother and his wife. Sadness now lives in their everyday life BUT the fact that you care so much about their little guy will help to keep the memory of him alive and important for all of you. I'm sorry for your loss as I know you miss him terribly. You will again be together someday. Hold on to that.
Blessings,

[motherofthree]

You are such a wonderful aunt to care and love your sweet nephew. I agree with Kristen - letting them know how much you love him and miss him has got to be such a comfort for them...one of the best things my sister has done for me is to let me know that she misses Kavya, thinks about her, loves her - that she is important to our family (wish that all of my relatives would be so understanding). Helping keep his memory alive will help them immeasurably.

[CurtisIII's Mommy]

Aww Kirsten my heart aches for you..... my sister did not get to see Curtis either and she hurts just like you. The way she comforts me is by talking about my son and sharing some of the things that she wanted to do with him. She lets me talk about him whenever I want andthat helps alot because she is one of the few people who does not act as if my son doesnt exist. Just try to be there for them in whatever capacity that they need and I know they will appreciate it. Remember that James is looking over you guys!!!