Is It A Girl????

[Marcus Momma]

I can't believe it that tomorrow I will find out if that baby is a girl or not. I still feel it is. I am so excited but still scared that they might tell me something is wrong at the ultrasound. As soon as I find out and get pics of the lil bit I will post them on here. I can't wait I feel like I am going crazy. And I took a tour of the hospital that I will be delivering at this time. Its an hour a way from where i live but after looking at it i know its the right choice. So much bigger and better than the last. The new hospital the baby does not go to the nursery(unless something is wrong) until after i have the csection and leave recovery. The baby stays in ob and who oever is in there with me holds the baby til I go to recovery then baby comes in recovery with me. I am excited about that the other hospital u had to wait til u got back to your room to see your baby. And I think that is too much lost time from bonding between then. I am more excited than scared now after seeing this hospital. I feel things will ge fine there. I guess I will know tomorrow if its a girl or not!! I can't wait!!

~Shawnna~ Mama of Aly, Josh, & Angel Marcus & 1 in the oven!!

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[marylouise]

Shawnna, thanks so much for the update. Glad to hear you're happy with the new hospital. Looking forward to hearing if it's pink or blue. Keeping you & your little one in my prayers.
Hugs

[Andi]

My thoughts, hopes, and prayers will be with you tomorrow. My 12-week Level II U/S is on Tuesday. We are going to a spa this weekend (for our anniversary) to try and relax, but I know that you know that is not possible. Just try to keep breathing. :-)

Take care!! I also think I'm carrying a girl this time! Keep us updated! We're with you!

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[Marcus Momma]

Thank you! I am worn out cause i just found out i have to start going to physical therapy for my back. Being pregnant has made it worse to where it hurts when i sit or walk. Hopefully that will get better and i will be good to go.


~Shawnna~ Mama of Aly, Josh, & Angel Marcus & 1 in the oven!!

[Hailey's Mommy]

I am very excited for you!!! Cant wait to hear your news :)

[MadiAidMak]

I cant wai tto hear what you are having,so exciting.I had my 4-D ultrasoud the other day,AMAZING!!! As soon as I figure out how to get the pictures onto the computer I will post them. Good Luck Shawna,I will be thinking of you tomorrow!!

[MrsSpencer]

I'll pray for you and your baby tonight. I hope everything turns out great!

[Jessica VV]

I'll be watching for an updated post tomorrow!!

[Jayme]

I can't wait to hear the result! I am so glad that you found a hospital that you are happy with. I don't think I could handle not seeing my baby until I was in my room. I agree, too much lost bonding time! I am glad to hear that you are feeling excited. I hope that the PT helps with your back.
I will be looking forward to hear more about your little one!
(Like Andi, I also think mine's a girl. It will be interesting to see how many of us are right!)

Blessings!
Jayme

[Marcus Momma]

I am leaving in 30 mins to go to the doc I am so excited. I hope you all get what you want to. I will let everyone know when I get back.

[JenniferBrown]

I came on here JUST to find out for sure that it's a girl! LOL I can't wait to hear!!

[Candice]

the suspense is killing me what are you having?

[Marcus Momma]

Well I was wrong. Its a lil boy. I am so scared though I had to keep from crying when they told me. I am not disapointed just really worried. I love carrying a boy its just really scary. Everything looks good though. I have to go back in 3 weeks to do another ultrasound cause his big butt won't turn over so we never got to see his face. They want to let me see his face. He has super long legs though they are measuring almost 20 weeks and his upper body. the head is just the right size. My hubby though is 6'2 the more kids i have the taller they get. 19 1/2 the 1st 20 1/2 the 2nd and then 21 for marcus. This baby has no room to stretch his legs out real far he keeps them tucked up behind them and kept getting mad and kicking me in the bladder making me wanna pee everywhere. Keeps his fists cleched like marcus did and up by his head over his ears. he floated on his belly and would not turn over. he just kept kicking me. As soon as they told me the heartbeat before they told me it was a boy I knew it was a boy heartrate was 139 exactly like marcus. I told my hubby its a boy from the hearrate and sure enough it was. I am scared to go through my boy stuff now because it was all bought for marcus everything. he is face down on the ultrasound. If you look hard you will see his arm and fists over his ears.

[Jessica VV]

Ok--I am at work and something just told me to come and check to see and there it is. I am glad to hear everything looks good. It sounds like he is being a stubborn lil' boy!!

Congrats! I will keep sending good thoughts from WI to help you get through all of the emotions.

[evaski]

Shawna,

I know you must be feeling all sorts of mixed emotions since carrying a boy will bring back all the memories of little Marcus. Still I am glad to hear that your new little one is well and everything looks good. Do you think going through all of the things you bought for Marcus with your husband would be helpful to you? I know you mentioned in another post that you have started therapy. Maybe going through his things would be sort of like a therapy session. I know my experience isn't the same but when my mom passed away going through her things and keeping some and donating some to a local womens shelter felt good. It felt good to be able to use her belongings (basically clothes) to help others. So maybe you can go through things and save a few to put in a memory box just for Marcus and the rest keep for your new baby. I am sure Marcus would not mind sharing with his baby brother. Gentle Hugs to you as you make the step to go through things in preparation for the arrival of your new little one.

[JenniferBrown]

Oh Shawnna,

I'm so glad to hear that everything is going ok! I was telling my Mom how I was waiting to hear your update... she laughed at me. lol
I'm sure it'll take you some time to go through the boy stuff from Marcus.... but just think (being positive here), you won't have to rebuy a ton of stuff!!!

[efswsjuly17]

Glad to hear you and the little one are doing good. Congrats on a little boy. You are in my thoughts and prayers as you continue your pregnancy. May God keep you safe and get you through this.

Brandy

Mommy to 3 Earthly angels and my angel

[Jayme]

Shawnna,

I am so glad that everything looks good. Your mixed emotions and fear are certainly understandable. That's why I want to know the gender of this one so that I can work through those emotions and not be dealing with them when the baby is born. Thank God for the blessing of technology. You have time to go through your boy stuff so do it when you feel ready. I'm sure that will be a mixed emotion experience as well.
I will keep your little long legged son in my prayers! I am glad that you get to see him again in 3 weeks! Hopefully he will cooperate and show is face.
At one of our ultrasounds with Justin, the tech really wanted to print a 3-d image of his face for us but he too had his fists clenched and right in front of his face like a boxer and refused to move them! Hopefully your little boy will cooperate! :)

[Marcus Momma]

ya'll are too good! ya'll have been there for me through my loss and my new pregnancy and I know you will be there cheering me on on the computer when i go to have this baby and I appreciate it so much. I know God has a reason for giving me a boy.

[MrsSpencer]

I just wanted to say congrats to you on a healthy baby. My bff told me it was hard when she found out her's was a boy (she lost hers to prematurity, but like Marcus, they blew out his lungs, she just found out a few days ago so it's too late for her to have sued anyone.) I've followed you a lot, because you remind me sooo much of her, she went on to have not one but two boys, so I hope everything is perfect for you. I told her when she found out it was a boy "Christian wanted you to still have a little boy to love on, even though he knows it's hard."

[Marcus Momma]

i never thought of it that way. Thank you that makes a difference to me. Maybe marcus still wanted me to have a lil boy to love on to because i didn't get to with him. I want to get a maternity session done what is a good time to do them and is there any photographers around me anywhere that does maternity photos of course i will pay I just want someone who will be caring not like going to sears or walmart to get them done.

[MrsSpencer]

I would say..if you were doing a baby shower..around that time..seems like a good starting point?

you're welcome :)

[Jennifer Cook]

I like to do maternity sessions around 7 months. The belly bump is plenty big, yet the extra swelling hasn't kicked in as much as it will later on. It's easier to move around and you still feel beautiful without all the extra puffyness. That's just what I suggest as far as timing for a maternity session. I leave it to the moms-to-be to make the final decision on the matter though. I hope this helps.

[motherofthree]

Shawnna, I haven't been on in a couple of days so missed your post! Congrats on your healthy baby boy. I keep wondering if it will be more difficult if I have another girl. I'm not sure...it might feel a little scarier. I'm so excitedfor you, and your US image is just beautiful.

I'm glad you've chosen a different hospital. The distance isn't so bad since you'll have a planned c-section. I think you'll feel better going into everything knowing that you are away from where you had your terrible hospital and doc experience. I think it will give you some peace of mind. I've only delivered in hospitals where they don't take the baby to the nursery unless you request it to get some sleep. I never did send Priya to the nursery...I like having her right there where I could keep an eye on her. I guess with Kavya it didn't really matter, but I love having everything right there in the room.

I'm so happy for you! And name ideas?

[Marcus Momma]

I am thinkin about the name Nathan Layne. I feel bad because I fell numb I should be so excited but as the day drags on I feel more numb I want to be excited but somthing keeps telling me If u get to attached he is gonna be takin away too. I couldnt take losing another son. I want to be so happy but right now i have no feelings. I love this baby yes but I hope my love for this baby out ranks the fear I have so I can feel the way I wanna feel. Its so scary right now.

[Jayme]

Shawnna,
That is a beautiful name. I think your feelings are totally acceptable. I am sure that it will take time but I know that you do love this baby. That won't change while the fear eventually will regardless of what happens. So love wins out.
There is a song based on the Corinthians verse that says that faith hope and love remain but the greatest is love. It talks about longing for Heaven where there is no more faith and no more hope (since these are no longer neccessary when they've both been fulfilled) but only love remains. It touches on how hope and faith (which go right along with fear since there is an essence of the unknown) are really hard. But love will not end when we reach heaven- it continues through eternity.
Sorry, your post just brought that song to my mind and I have always found it comforting. I pray that your little boy will continue to grow healthy and strong and that none of your fears are realized. I know that when that little boy rests in your arms for the first time, he will be so surrounded in love. What a lucky little guy he is. If only all children could be loved as much as ours are.

[Valerie'sMomma]

Shawna,

A big, beautiful baby boy...I think Marcus planned it that way. He knew you were strong enough to endure this. That this new blessing will brighten your days and keep you awake at night. All "new" mommies worry about their babies- whether they have experienced a loss or not. You are going to treasure this little boy and he will bring the joy and happiness to your life. And I am sure Marcus and his little brother have some big plans to keep you busy!!!

It will take time to get used to this idea, but you will and you will cry...tears of joy always. Take care.

[Tasha Nicholls]

Congratulations, Shawnna! I understand why it would be a bit nerve-wracking having another boy, but I'm sure that your sweet Marcus has great big plans for his little brother.

I know that some of the other moms have wanted to get normal maternity or family photo sessions taken with NILMDTS photographers - just in case they have any difficulties with their emotions... it's nice not to have to explain if you are having a hard time or break down and cry a little. I'm sure it's bittersweet to celebrate the impending arrival of a new baby while still remembering and holding your angel baby so dear to your heart. Perhaps you could take a stuffed animal or piece of jewelry or something on your photo shoot to represent Marcus.

I think most photographers recommend that you wait til you're about 30 weeks or so for a maternity session... but I could be wrong. Why don't you research the photographers in your area, find one whose style you like, and see what they recommend? :)

Best wishes to you for the remainder of this pregnancy.... you are in my thoughts and prayers.

*HUGS*

[Andi]

Shawnna!

Congratulations! I think numbness is totally normal. Sometimes I feel so happy about the baby and sometimes I forget that being pregnant means there is a baby inside me! :-) As we all know, pregnancy doesn't necessarily lead to a baby and that echos inside me too. However, something tells me that no matter how hard you try not to get "attached," the more futile your efforts. I can't feel the baby move yet, but my growing belly tells me that "she" is in there. It's too late. I'm attached...can't help it. As I said before...I would be totally overwhelmingly don't-know-if-I-could-go-on devastated to experience another "loss," but I'm already there. As much as I try to deny it, it's happening, it's natural... I'm already invested and IN LOVE. :-)

My therapist said that our historical experiences influence our feelings and behaviors. Until you replace those experiences with new ones, you will continue to feel the same way you felt the last time you had that experience. OK, that was a little convoluted so I hope it makes sense. Once you have a happy, "normal", healthy, fun U/S visits where they tell you everything is perfect and growing right on schedule...in fact, they have never seen such a perfect child (:-)..OK, maybe that's my fantasy :-), but you get the point.

Once good things happen, you will have good feelings again. Until then, keep breathing...it's good for the baby too. :-)

I will attempt to be severely distracted til my scan on Tuesday.

Sending thoughts, prayers, good thoughts, happy wishes, and hugs to you and that sweet, precious, long-legged baby boy.

Take care.

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[MrsSpencer]

I love that name shawnna, it's my husband's first name..so I'm a little biased.

It's perfect as it means "A gift of God" :)

[motherofthree]

I love that name, Shawnna. I think it is perfect. And the meaning is wonderful, too. We're here for you. Hugs,

[Hailey's Mommy]

I love the name and I am so happy everything is going ok for you and your little one. :)

[MadiAidMak]

CONGRATULATIONS!!! All will be well, of course we will be cheering you on!!!

[chloe leann's mommy]

hi hi i havent been on in a while its hard right now im very scared to get pregnant myself but i saw u found out what you are having im so happy 4 you i think marcus sent him 2 you and everything will b ok i'll pray 4 you and def cheer for you from oklahoma!!!!! hope everything is well keep us posted

[Marcus Momma]

I was going to let everyone know that I think there was a reason he didn't show his face for the ultrasound. I don't think I could have handled seeing his face right then especially if he looked like marcus. But I am ready now and have another ultrasound Oct. 2nd to hopefully see his face. The ultrasound tec is really sweet and has come up with a reason to do some extra ones so my insurance will cover it still. I really can't wait to see his sweet face this time and hopefully some feet. he hid everything but being a boy and his back.

[MrsSpencer]

That's one smart little boy you have in there..Marcus must have given him a good talking to ;)

[Marcus Momma]

Well went back for another ultrasound today. He is very hyper wouldn't quit moving and kicking. They said he looks really good. He weighs 1lb already. I got to see his face he is so cute he has a oval face instead of a round face like my other kids. He kept sucking his thumb and opening and closing his hands and kept opening his mouth. I loved being able to see him again. This is the only puc they gave me I wish they gave me the face pic from the front with his hands up beside his face.

[Vicki]

Shawna . . .

WOW. . . he is totally trying to suck his thumb!!! You can see his little fist and arm perfectly!!! This is so cool!!!!
Did you ask them if they had any other images that they saved??? They might and they might give them to you!!

I'm so happy for you and it's great to hear that he is growing and getting strong!!

Vicki

[evaski]

Shawna thanks for sharing the pic! He is so cute! :) Glad to hear that everything is going well.

[MrsSpencer]

Yay..glad to hear alls well!

[Jayme]

I am glad that you got to see his face this time! And glad to hear things are going so well.

[Lacey Canaday]

thanks for sharing the pic,,,,i can't wait to see his face. cutie Nathan Lane

[motherofthree]

Really, really cool, Shawnna. Thanks so much for showing us his picture. Sounds like a awesome ultrasound.

Beth

[Marcus Momma]

Thank you everyone. I think I will ask when I go back if they can see if they have any face pics of him for me I know they will give them to me.