Antepartum depression

[motherofthree]

Has anyone experience antepartum depression? I feel like I'm slipping here. Not sure of this is part of my grief, or due to hormones and normal, or if I'm starting to go beyond normal pregnancy emotions into an actual depression. Nothing feels "right". I don't know if that makes sense, but I can't really explain it...I just don't quite feel like myself.

I have a therapy appointment this week, but I don't feel like going there, either. She always helps, but I'm having insurance issues and I feel bad just going to see her.

Any thoughts or advice or experience you can share? Any of my fellow pregnant mommies experiencing something similar?

[Krista]

Beth,

I"m sorry to hear you are struggling, and don't feel like yourself. I don't know much about antepartum depression but I think some of this may be due to your grief. Since Aedan's death, I haven't felt like myself. I can see the old Krista, but I don't feel or act like her...not sure who I am, I feel lost. My life is compartmentalized, before Aedan and after Aedan...and it feels surreal.

You shouldn't feel bad going to your therapy appointment. You need to have someone you can share with, someone who can listen to you and help you feel better. You are worth it, and Kavya and your little bump want mommy to take care of herself.

I wish I had words of wisdom for you but instead I am sending you love and big hugs. Take care of yourself.

(((HUGS)))

[Marcus Momma]

I am always scared I will slip there any day. I more than likely am ignoring the wierd feelings because i wish so bad i could take xanax right now because it gets so hard but I know I can't. And try to find another way to deal with it like going to my hubbys 4 wheeler races. It does help because i get to scream for him. I will be praying for you.

[Lisa Kammel]

Yes I experienced it with my first and Third pregnancy. I had high risk pregnancies and history of previous depressions that didn't help. Insurance mess also complicates things along with still in mourning over Kavya. No mater what happens remember always to reach out for someone. Feel free to call me if it ever gets so bad that you don't know what to do. Right now I am off work because of my back injury. I lost a friend to depression because she hid it so well and din't know how to reach out. She left a husband and two kids ( 7 & 2). Once again please feel free to call me if you need to talk. I've been there and found my way out of it.

[Vicki]

Beth . . .

I am so glad that yo brought this subject up . . .

My niece is suffereing with this right now too. She is in her last month and is miserable . . . has been miserable all the way thru her pregnancy . . . she had post-partum after her first one and had just got it under control when she got pregnant again. now had ante-partum . . .
At first we just thought she was hormonal and snotty to everyone but she is actually so sad and blue, it's hard to watch and we all want to help but when we try we get our heads bit off . . .
You are such a good mom Beth and I know that you acknowledging that you don't feel right is the best first step to feeling better . . . I hope that your therapist can offer you some advice too and if she does will you please let me know what she does suggest? . . . I'm going to google it and see what other thoughts are out there on this subject . . .

Vicki

[Molly O'Bryon-Welpott]

Ahh. I hope you feel better. Please go to the doctor, I know insurance issues are real. I have gone through clinical depression and I know how expensive it can be if you don't have the cadilac package, BUT I know from the past that the times I rationalized not going to the appt. is because I was lower than low and really wanted to just hide out and not be around anyone, just getting there is a huge step. Do you have an accountability friend that will make sure you get to your appointment no matter what? Know that you are surrounded with prayers from people on the forum and you can get through it, just not over night:) So share on your journey back up... God Bless You/

[motherofthree]

Thanks, everyone. Well, I have a call into my doc. In the meantime, I'm trying to get out of the house into the sunshine a bit more. I'm going to go ahead to my therapy appointment.

I am not at a "danger" point, it's just that everything feels off...and I want to feel happy, especially right now. Instead I just have this general sense of "blah" about just about everything. I'm definitely going to talk to my docs, though. I just don't want to be put on anything that could endanger my little one.

[Brooke]

Beth,
This is something I've never heard of before. I suffered from post-pardum depression with my second son, but thankfully got over it with the help of medication for a year following his birth. I went back on medication after loosing Emma but only for month as then I got pregnant with Caden and thankfully did not experience any depression during or after his pregnancy. I had to google Antepartum since I know nothing about it. I found this website that I think you might find very useful,organizedwisdom.com/Antepartum_Depression. Check it out and I hope it gives you some answers. Good luck to you and I wish you the best with the rest of your pregnancy!!!

Love,

Brooke- Mommy to Carter-6, Ethan-3, Caden-1, &