Ashton Lee-always in my heart

[BettyGoddard]

It will be 15 years on December 6 that my son Ashton was born still. There were several warning signs but non were taken seriously. I had a small town doctor who was very old fashioned and thought because i was only 19 i did not know what i was talking about. I had pre-eclampsia, hypertension and toxemia. I almost died too. I went on to have 3 more children after him but always think about what he would be doing now. Driving, girls, friends, high school, all things i do not have with him. I only wish we had this organization back than. i do have pictures of him but they are not even close to the ones you all have. What a great gift to have. I never heard him cry and that will always bother me. He was and is my son. Even though he never took a breath he did exist, he was here. Most friends and family have long forgotten about him and expect me to also but that will never happen. He was my son.

[MrsSpencer]

I'm so sorry about your son, that is what he is, your son. No you'll never forget him, and no one I don't think would want you to. My best friend lost her son ten years ago..and your words echo hers. She was 16 and no one listened to her either, I'm so sorry you went through that. He had such a pretty name.

[BettyGoddard]

I don't talk about him much because of the reaction i get from people. One person said " well it has been 14 years. You have had plenty of time to get over it and move on. Nice huh?

[BettyGoddard]

I forgot to say that he was full term 42 weeks! 6 pounds 8 ounces 18 inches long

[Tanya]

If you have pictures we would love to see him. :) ...and no, one doesn't just 'move' on from losing a child. (((hugs)))

[MrsSpencer]

It doesn't matter if it's 25 years ago..they are always your children..some people I swear!

[Marcus Momma]

I would say its only been 14 years.. So Sorry!!

[Christine Barrack]

Betty,
Welcome. I am so glad you found us. Thank you so much for sharing Ashton with us. I often think of my angel, Victoria, and all the things she would be doing now. Even after 13 years. She is a part of me and always will be. There is also a part of me that died when she did, I will never be the same and I will Never forget her. It is easy for others to move on and forward and it isn't fair. They can't understand and I hope they never experience the loss of a child. But I can forgive them and let them know my angel will always be my child and I will miss them until we are reunited one day. Cheryl posted a very good reply on this, I am a survivor-at this link http://www.nowisleep.com/showthread.php?t=6253
I will be keeping you in my prayers.
Blessins,
Christine

[motherofthree]

I am so sorry you lost your sweet Ashton. 15 years or 50 years...he is just as much your son now as he was when he was born. I would also love to see the pictures you have of Ashton.

So much has changed in the past 15 years...I wish that you had the understanding and compassion that many of us now receive.

[KEA's Mom]

Your post is beautiful. I'm so sorry that you've lost your son. We won't forget him.
Blessings,