Mallory's 4th Heavenly Birthday

[Kerry]

Well today it is cold and wind blowing so I will celebrate her birthday inside... We did celebrate her twin sister birthday on Saturday. Since it was a nice day out that day after the party my husband and I and the kids went to the cemetery after wards and dropped off a cupcake and princess tiara and star wand for her birthday. I was glad we honored her and she got to be part of Sarah's princess birthday party.
I was not sad this year but feel blessed that as my kids get older they are honored to know her and want to participate in decorating out there. Out of this tragic event that was all I wanted was not her to be forgotten but be remembered how much she was loved. Now I have that reinsurance she won't be forgotten.
I would of loved to do a balloon release but January is a tricky month where I live and by the time we got the kids out of the van we would of been frozen. We probably could of let them go from the van from the wind we had there was no need to get out today.
I feel for everyone all the mother's that have lost of baby recently to 20 years or more ago. We all through different stages with the grieving. After a few months when it was fresh I just got tired of crying I didn't even know why I was crying anymore. So I do try to make donations in her name, make good out of the situation and make people aware yes it does happen there is no guarantee in life with a pregnancy. It's not fair we were picked to deal with such sad events but from this experience I have become more aware and glad I have met all of you and always have someone to talk to. Thank you for walking with me and helping me gain my courage again to help others and find good in what has happened in my family. I pray for everyone in 2009 to find happiness and comfort in their family.
Again Thank you for being my friend and when I light my memorial candle today I will be thinking of all your precious angels that are playing with Mallory and how thankful she is not alone and have so many friends to play with. Thank you for listening to me today.

Kerry
Mother of Olivia,Sarah,Lane and Heavenly Angel Mallory

[KEA's Mom]

Kerry,
Your post was so beautiful and honors your daughter. I've been so sad today and your post helps me. Happy Heavenly Birthday to Mallory. I know our angels are having a wonderful time together celebrating her birthday.

[Christine Barrack]

Happy Heavenly 4th Birthday Mallory Irene! I love the decorations.

[motherofthree]

Happy 4th birthday Mallory!

[katelyn]

Happy Birthday Mallory!! Your mommy has been such a help and resource to me, and I am sure she doesn't even realize it!! Yes, Kerry, I have learned so much from what you have told me about the condition we both have. If it wasn't for you, I probably would not have hope that I can have more children. B/c of you, I have hope.

[JenniferBrown]

Aww Happy 4th Heavenly Birthday Mallory and to Sarah as well. Being 4 is great when you can be a princess. :)

[Christine Barrack]

Here is a Birthday Remembrance Page I just made for you. Happy Heavenly Birthday Dear Angels.
Love,
Christine

In case the image is to small to read this is what is says:


A Special Birthday



Please God, make them remember that
Today is a special, birthday.
Make them understand that
The memories don't go away.
Bless them, with ears to hear and hearts that care.
Enable them to listen while I share.
Shelter them that they may never know my pain.
Help them to help me know that my child's life was
not in vain.
Help them to remember, Lord that I wish
That my child was here
So we could still celebrate.
To understand that I still
Feel the nearness of my child.
To see beyond my smile and the
Words. "I'm okay."
Please God, just let one remember today
Is a special birthday!

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[Kerry]

How neat to see all the messages from everyone. Felt good people are still aware she was in our life and was expected. Thank you Christine for the beautiful poem and the princess picture. It made the day extra special!

[linda]

Mallory - did you catch my kisses I just sent you! Elijah, Mason and I went out in the bitter cold to send her our love!

Kerry - I hope your heart sings knowing I long for the day I meet your precious baby girl!

[Marcus Momma]

Happy 4th birthday!!! My daughter will be 5 on the 23rd of this month. Hoping That i will be adding another happy birthday to this month and not another sad one. I love that my daughter understands and wants to do things to remember marcus with it makes it so much easier to have a child that understands what happened the fact that he died and then wants to do things to remember them. She made sure we put the icing on his birthday cake and she got to blow the candles out for him. The only sucky thing is that she is scared at 4 years old that her lil brother nathan is going to die. She keeps talking to my belly saying please don't die i will change your diapers and feed you when u get here. She is really excited.

[MamaBethany]

Happy 4th Birthday Mallory! And sister Sarah! Thanks Kerry for sharing your story -- it's good for me to see how it might be for me 4 years down the road, and I liked how you described your feelings. God Bless....stay warm now

[Austin's Momma]

Happy heavenly birthday to your little princess, Mallory! It's so nice to hear that your family is doing well and your kids have not forgotten their sister. She'll be forever missed and forever loved!

[jmkolb]

Happy Birthday Mallory!! Im glad to hear your family is holding together so well and what a wonderful way to celebrate Mallory's life! I was going to go see Hannah today but the wind is bad on this side of the state too... Keep your spirits up and thank you for lifting mine a little bit- It's great to hear a story of hope when all seems so hopeless.
Mallory- I hope that Hannah will help you celebrate today up in heaven!!!

[Jennifer Ayers]

Happy 4th Heavenly Birthday Mallory! I think it's so neat that you do what you do to keep her alive in your family. It will be so important for you all but especially Sarah. And a Birthday Hug for Mom...