Thank you to Cynthia Pace

[Donna Muhammad]

My husband and I would like to thank Cynthia Pace our NILMDTS Volunteer Photographer for our beautiful DVD and CD images of our beautiful Rashad Shahid Muhammad. We received them on Saturday January 24, 2009. We lost our precious angel on November 30, 2008. The first time I watched the DVD was heart wrenching but each time it gets better. Can you please tell me the name to the artist and song that was on the DVD? Although I was unable to be pictured with my angel, the images of my husband and mother-in-law are priceless. Thank you and GOD Bless the NILMDTS Family.

Donna and Shahid Muhammad

[efswsjuly17]

I am so glad you were able to get pictures of your precious angel. I am sure the pictures and DVD are priceless memories you will have forever. Maybe when the time is right you can share your story and pictures with this family. We all would love to meet your angel.

[Donna Muhammad]

I hope I can one day. It took me 45 minutes just to post my thank you.

[Tammy]

Hi Donna~
Below is a link to our music page. You may find what you are looking for there, and I hope this helps.
http://www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org/music
I am truly sorry to learn of the loss of your precious Rashad, please know my heart is with you and your family as you begin your healing journey. We are here to offer support and encouragement; even advise should you need it. As Brandy said, we would love to meet your Rashad someday, when you are ready. We know how difficult this time is, please know we are here for you.

[Donna Muhammad]

Thank you, I found the song and artist used.

[motherofthree]

Donna,

I am so sorry to hear about Rashad. We are here for you if and when you need to talk. I would also love to see pictures of your son if you want to share him with us. I love seeing pictures of everyone's angels (though I wish they weren't angels). I'm sorry you are facing this loss, and this pain. There are many of us here who are here for you - it's a wonderful group of very supportive and loving people. I couldn't have made it through my loss like I did without this forum and these generous loving people.

I'm hope you are able to take so much comfort from your images and your slideshow. My pictures have been priceless to my husband, daughter, and I.

Beth

[Donna Muhammad]

Thank you so much for taking the time to write to me. It's been hard these last couple of days. Seeing the images makes everthing so real. I have been feeling like I'm in this bad dream and can't wake up. I have a good support system in my friends and family but you really understand what I'm going thru having experienced the same type of loss. I went back to work at the on Jan. 5th so I am busy all the time. I get really sad at night if I'm not bone tired and fall right to sleep? My husband and I are thinking of trying again in March. I want to but I'm scared at the same time. We already have a nine year daughter. Her name is Yaasmeen Alonna. She desperately wants another sibling. She was very sad about losing Rashad. She got the opportunity to hold him. She understands he's in heaven with Grandma (my mother) and she's taking very good care of him.

[motherofthree]

I'm so glad Yaasmeen got to hold her baby brother. My daughter also got to hold her little sister, and I'm so happy to have those pictures of the two of them together. I try to remind her that she's already a big sister, and talk to her about how it's just different being a big sister to a baby that lives in heaven. Just as we have to learn to "parent" our heavenly babies differently - by remembering and honoring them.

Right now it's helping you to keep busy...I wasn't working at the time, but I remember doing anything and everything to try to stay occupied - to keep my mind blank and my hands busy. But try to remember to take time for yourself, too. You need that time to feel sad and mourn your precious son, to let yourself heal. Be kind to yourself, gentle with yourself. Don't push yourself too hard.

It is scary to try again, and my current pregnancy has been full of joy as well as fear. It is exciting and terrifying, and completely rewarding. Just make sure you wait until you are both ready; and remember that having another doesn't erase Rashad and how much you loved him. It doesn't erase the pain or significance of your loss, or the love for and importance of your son!

Beth