Yet another new member!

[jordynhope]

:eek: Let me take this back a ways...before having Jordyn, my husband and I tried for about 14 months and ended up getting pregnant on our 5th round of Clomid. Well, I had Jordyn on January 11th and as of early-march I still hadn't had my period yet. My doctor told me he wouldn't hesitate on putting me back on Clomid again, just call when I'm ready. Well I took a pregnancy test mid-March and it was negative so I called to get started on Provera/Clomid. I took my 10 days of provera and never got my period, odd. I waited a full week and was going to call the doc Monday (April 6) to let him know I hadn't gotten it. But I thought I better take a pregnancy test before I call just to be sure I'm not prego. Well imagine my surprise Sunday morning when it was positive!
We told ourselves hold on, maybe its a false reading from the provera...well yesterday I was able to get in to the doctor and sure enough, it was for real! He did an ultrasound and I saw the little spec! So anyway I did a test for my HCG levels and I'm going back in for another on Friday so hopefully they can nail it down a little better since my last LMP was July 5, 2008! It was great news because we did it on our own this time! No drugs! The doc suspects that I was pregnant the first test I took but it was too early to detect at that point...right now we are thinking 4-6 weeks along??? Putting a due date at late Nov, early Dec. Yes gals, that'll be 2 babies in 2009 for me! CRAZY!
As you might be able to tell, I'm super excited but I'm also very nervous at the same time. And I also feel bad that I haven't mourned much for Jordyn in the last couple of days. All I can think about is the future...now thats probably a good thing but I still feel bad ya know??? I pray to her every night and thank her for this opportunity cause I like to believe that this is her way of telling us its ok, we were such great parents that we need another kid ASAP. I don't know...that's probably redic but I like to believe it anyways!
Thanks for listenin!
Crystal

PS: Brooke...if you read this, not a word to J & C! :)

[Abigailsmommy]

OMG Crystal, that is great news. It must be in the water or something. Send some baby dust my way. I am kinda sad because I have to wait a while I had a c-sec in December (my second one in fact) so I figured for my health and the babies if we are ever blessed enough to get pregnant again it would be safer to wait. I am so happy for you. Wonderful news.

HUGS
Jenni

[Mackenzie's Mommy]

Congrats! How exciting! Big sister Jordyn i'm sure is letting you know it's okay! Keep us posted on how everything comes along! Ohhh HOW EXCITING!

[jordynhope]

Thanks Ladies! Jenni, I also had a c-sec (classical) with Jordyn and I thought at my post-op in February he'd tell me to wait at least a couple months to let that heal. When I asked him how soon we can start trying again, his response was 'not in the elevator and not out in the parking lot'! I was really surprised that he told me we could try again right away...and I believe him as he's one of the best in the area and I was referred to him because of everything that happened with Jordyn. Anyways...baby dust, coming your way from me! I wish you all the best!
Crystal

[Darby]

It seems as though these pregnancy vibes come with bunches! Congrats to you. Looks like you and Jennifer will be delivering close with perfectly healthy babies. I will be praying.

[Valerie'sMomma]

Welcome to the club!! We are very close in due dates.

I had a similar situation with my angel Val. Hubby and I tried for 16 months and a round of Clomid in order to get prego. Then I had twins and lost one early on. The doc told me after we lost Val that if we didn't get pregnant by June he would start us on Clomid again. Well, this baby was an ovulation kit and on our own.

Keeping you in happy thoughts and hoping our pregnancies go well.

[mommyofalana]

Congratulations Crystal. I am so happy for you guys. I will be praying for you. You guys need to send some of that baby dust my way.

[jordynhope]

Baby dust to ALL you mommy's!!!

Christina, was your Val the other twin then or did you have that baby healthy and then Val? Just curious?!?! Well wishes are being sent your way from me too! I pray for all of us that everything goes great this time!

[Brooke]

Hi Crystal,

Congratulations!!!! You bet I'm reading this post!!! Wow, I'm so happy for you and Mark!!! I truely think that Jordyn is letting you know that she's o.k and wants to be a big sister ASAP!!! This is GREAT news. I will be praying that everything will progress fine with this pregnancy and you will have a happy healthy baby in another 8-9 months!!! Keep us posted.

Love,

Brooke

[Brooke]

So when will C & J get to hear the good news?

Brooke

[jordynhope]

If all is well in my next couple appointments, I think we are going to start telling everyone after our March of Dimes walk we are doing in honor of Jordyn in Red Wing on May 3.

[Brooke]

Hi Crystal,

Good, I will be saying prayers for you and the new baby to be. Tell Mark hi and that I say congratulations!!! How are you feeling?

Love,

Brooke

[Valerie'sMomma]

I got pregnant in December of 08 with twins- identical baby girls- one of them was Val...the other we lost within the first 6 weeks of pregnancy. I never got to meet that one. I bleed for the first 2 months of my pregnancy. When I had the amnio done at 20 weeks they found blood in Val's sac. That was how we knew they were identical. If they were fraternal- there would not have been any blood found in Val's sac and I might not have lost her.

Thanks for asking.

[MamaBethany]

Crystal, Wow, congratulations so soon! It's really amazing, and you know it's a miracle of new life within you. When I was pregnant the first time, I didn't have any friends pregnant at the same time, and this time I do, very special friends indeed. I'll be praying for all of us -- I think there are at least 5 due in November and December. XOXOXO .....

[KEA's Mom]

Crystal,
I am so happy for you. It's amazing to me and just wonderful that there are so many of you expecting. I'm envious that you will soon be feeling the flutter of them within all of you. Enjoy and God Bless.

[marybethsmomma]

Congratulations! I'm due shortly before you.

[angel_26]

the dr told me i had to wait 6 months just to make sure i healed inside. i had kylee natural but it seems like alot of u mommys are told u can do it earlier. im so happy for u congrats and i hope everything goes well. HUGS

[Graham's mom]

Congratulations Crystal! That's wonderful news and I wish you much joy as you anticipate the arrival of your child in November or December.

((HUGS))
Julie

[tracy4]

Congratulations! I hope for a safe and healthy pregnancy. Yea!!!! for you.

[Hope]

I am so happy to hear this news Crystal! Congratulations!! I too remember feeling bad about feeling so happy when I found out I was pregnant with Isaiah after losing Zoe. It is a strange mix of emotions isn't it? And, it really is okay to allow yourself to be excited about this new baby...Jordyn is now a big sister! That is amazing too that the pregnancy came along without the drugs! Wow! Congratulations again Crystal! No worries, you are not dishonoring Jordyn but being excited about this new baby...actually just the opposite I believe. And, Jordyn's life and death I believe will make you an even better parent to this new one. What a tremendous blessing to be carrying a new life inside once again!!

[rosedylansmommy]

Congratulations, how exciting!

[efswsjuly17]

Congrats coming your way! I will be praying for a healthy one for you.

Good luck

Brandy

[Austin's Momma]

Congratulations!! I'm sure you're feeling emotions in all directions but I think you have the right attitude...this is a blessing and I also believe that Jordyn wants this for your family. Best wishes! ~Sarah

[jordynhope]

UPDATE: Finally got to go back yesterday for my next appointment...I didn't sleep the whole night before I was sooo worried that there would be nothing to see. But there it was, a tiny beating heart. It was breathtaking...I'm not quite as far along as I had hoped, just 6 weeks and some change. The doctor gave me a due date of Dec. 16 but said he would not let me go past 38 weeks due to the nature of my incision. Next appointment is May 11....can I wait that long??? I suppose it will be here before I know it. Thanks for the prayers everyone, they must have worked!

[mommyofalana]

That is wonderful news. I am so happy everything went good.

[Abigailsmommy]

That is great news Crystal. I will keep praying for a wonderful outcome :)

[Austin's Momma]

I know you must really be falling in love after seeing that heartbeat! It's a beautiful thing and I'm so happy for your family! Take it one day at a time. (Easier said than done, I know) Best wishes ~Sarah

[Marcus Momma]

congrats

[linda]

Crystal, that is great news!!!!!! PS I don't think I've ever told you but Ms Jordyn is one precious little lady!

[JenniferBrown]

Congratulations Crystal!! It took us 5 yrs to get pregnant after our losses and let me tell you, once I got pregnant with our daughter it was like all I had to do was look at my hubby and I got pregnant with both of our sons! (I had issues with ovulation)
I'm so happy for you! Happy & Healthy 32 more weeks!!! Early December babies are great (My bday is Dec 2nd) hehe!

[Brooke]

Hi Crystal,

Just thinking of you today and wondering how your doing. Give us a update or PM me sometime soon!

Brooke

[jordynhope]

Hey Brooke, thanks for asking. We told everyone last weekend at our walk for the March of Dimes in honor of Jordyn. Lots of cheers...everyone was really excited. I had another appointment yesterday and of course I was scared to death going into it...I'm just so worried every time that they aren't going to find anything. But the little one was there again! :) We got some pretty cool pictures this time and we measured 9 weeks 4 days...shaving 6 days off that due date. So now we're at December 10 but he says I can't go past 38 weeks, that would be Thanksgiving day. So right around then hopefully??? If everything keeps going as well as it has been! I've been feeling GREAT except for the fact that I'm exhausted. It's just been completely opposite from how I felt with Jordyn so far. C & J know the news I take it from her Facebook page. :) I think Mark's mom was anxious to tell someone!
Today is 4 months since Jordyn's 'DAY'. (I decided to call it her 'day' and celebrate her on the 12th. She was born on the 11th with a half hour left in the day and grew wings a half hour into the 13th...the 12th is the awesome day we got to spend with her.) It's still so hard and I wish people wouldn't assume that everything is OK now with the new baby on the way. But nobody knows what to say/do. I just gotta keep telling myself that.
OK...another random thought...anybody from the Twin Cities, do you watch Kare 11? Sunday night there was a story about a young couple who are expecting their first child Nov 23. This woman has agreed to blog and have cameras around her during her entire pregnancy. UGH...THE IGNORANCE! As if it's a given that everything will be fine and she'll have a happy healthy baby to deliver on her due date?? How will she feel about that decision if something ever happens? I don't know why that hit me so hard but it did. I was soooo mad after watching that! Anyone else have feelings on that sort of thing? I am about to register for her blog and tell her how much of an idiot I think she is but there must be some positive to it?
Hope all you ladies had a fantastic Mother's day!
Crystal

[Brooke]

Crystal,

I'm so glad to hear from you and that everything is going so well. I know what you mean about people forgetting once you have the next child after a loss of a child. They don't get it and I still tell myself those same words. They will never totally get it unless they experience it themselves and we all know we don't wish this kind of loss on our worst enemy. Julie, however, is wonderful at remembering Emma. She gave me a angel key chain for mother's day that had a angel on one side and on the other side read: you have a angel watching over you. It was so special. I hope you have one of these friends or family members that will still talk about Jordyn years to come. Julie is about the only one besides my mom who still talks about her from time to time. It's really nice. So glad again to hear that this baby is progressing nicely for you. I didn't remember what the day was today for you, so maybe Jordyn was working through me to make sure your doing o.k:) Take care of yourself and keep us posted throughout your pregnancy with the new little one.

Brooke

[Abigailsmommy]

Hey Crystal, So glad everything is going well with your pregnancy.
HAPPY JORDYN DAY-I know your little star will be shining bright tonight :)

I do not get that program you are talking about but I know how you feel people that have not had an experience like ours just take for granted that everything will turn out fine. I know I did before this happened to me now I am a nervous wreck at the thought of even getting pregnant again even though I really would like to before the year is over.
I hope you had a good Mother's Day too


~LADYBUG HUGS~
Jenni

[Brooke]

Hi Crystal,

Found out on Face Book that you found out your having a little boy this fall. So exciting. How is everything going with your progressing pregnancy? We need a update. Just thinking of you, your family, and Jordyn. Now Jordyn's a big sis to her new little bro!!! How cute.

Love,

Brooke

[jordynhope]

Hey all...I don't come on here much cause I get too sad. You ladies that do come on, it's soooo great of all of you! Wish I was that tough!

[jordynhope]

Whoa...I wasn't done yet! :) I guess I really haven't been on in awhile, I don't even remember how the forums work!
OK, now on to my update...as Brooke mentioned, if all continues to go well, Jordyn is going to have a baby brother late November! I had very mixed emotions finding out that it was going to be a boy. But as I've had time to think, I'm glad it's this way. This will reinforce in my mind that this baby is not Jordyn...everything that happened with her is over now and we need to move on and take care of this little guy. As you all know though, that is sooooo hard to do!
Anyways, I'm almost 19 weeks now and the doctor has started to see me on a weekly basis. My appointments are on Monday mornings and it is such a great way to start my week. They do an ultrasound every time to insure this one is growing properly since big sister was only 1/3 the size she should have been. I've been getting bad headaches which have been a bit of a concern and my blood pressure is at the high end of 'normal' but we just go week to week and if he needs to make any changes, he will. Heparin shots have been discussed and the doctor is starting to mentally prep me for them I think...he talks about them at every appointment but so far we haven't started with that yet.
As far as the mental aspect of this pregnancy, it's still super hard. Last weekend marked our 6 month angelversary and I had a really tough time. I have talked to my doctor about this now and we think it would be beneficial for me to see a grief counselor so we are working on that. I haven't gone yet but I think I can get some good tools to help with the unexpected breakdowns that happen every now and then.
So anyways, long story short, things are going pretty good. Physically everything is going pretty great, mentally it's all a little tougher but we're making it. Daddy is soooo excited to have a boy he can hardly stand it. He didn't want to find out on our first pregnancy so we didn't, this time we agreed to find out and he's now a huge advocate for finding out. He talks to the little guy almost every night. (His constant hovering over my growing belly is on the verge of annoying but it's pretty funny too...I wouldn't want it any other way!)
Hope you all are doing as good as can be! Take care!

[Abigailsmommy]

Hey Crystal, That is great news. I am glad the pregnancy is going well and thanks for the update. I think about you often but I know it is hard for you to come on the forum. Hang in there and keep us updated when you can.

~big hugs~
Jenni

[Valerie'sMomma]

Crystal,
Congrats on the baby in Blue. We are very close in due dates and I am having a boy after losing my daughter. I am glad as well it turned out this way. This baby will experience first's similar to my angel but it will not be my angel Valerie. I know it is difficult to be happy while still missing your angel. Just keep your head up and breathe. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers that you deliver a happy healthy little boy. Take care.

[MamaBethany]

Hi Crystal, It's good to hear from you! Thanks for the update! There are several of us expecting boys in late Nov/early Dec, after having our angel girls.

I'm so glad that you are feeling comfortable with the care you are getting, and very thankful for your sweet hubby. My husband does that too, it's pretty funny.

It's good you're going to counseling -- it has helped us so much and we are still going from time to time. This new guy is so close to Jordyn Hope -- you have a great attitude about getting ready to cherish the new baby, and it's good to do the hard work (of working through grief) now before life gets more complicated. Your little guy will thank you for it.

I know what you mean about it being really hard to come to this forum because it's so sad -- totally understand wanting to stay positive while expecting a new little one. I'm doing that too, but in spite of the sadness, I find the support and understanding here is unmatched. :)