NoQuotaOnGrief
09-20-2009, 10:11 PM
Just wanted to let you all know that Aurora Nicole was stillborn on 9/10/09 @ 33w6d gestation. She suffered from Trisomy 13, holoprosencephaly, heart defect and some other stuff. Her little defective heart just gave out on her. My water broke @ 10:15PM and it felt like we were on the original Chisolm Trail to go the 18 miles to the hospital. I had to concentrate on NOT pushing her out... in the car!
I figured she was not alive when I went into labor so early. I barely got on a bed in the hospital when I screamed at the nurses to get off me (they were trying to strap monitors on me but we knew she was dead by then) because in one big ol' push, just like an Octomom skit, she was catapulted into this world. I didn't hold her immediately because they immediately started pushing on my low abdomen to get the placenta out. I delivered her with no meds, but it was the placenta that hurt!
We did hold her, took pics and NILMDTS did take pics the following day. We had our angel cremated and her urn fits inside a teddy bear.
We are heartbroken. If it wasn't bad enough to lose our first pregnancy to a cord accident more than 4 years ago, then suffer 4+ years misdiagnosis of infertility (no one checked my husband - easier to say I was "old"), now we have a rare fluke to add to ther reason why we have 2 angels and no living children.
Funny, I thought facing 40 last yr with 1 angel and no l/c was the worst thing that could happen. Silly me... now it's 41 and we're 0-2. :eek:
Spare me the prayers and the plattitudes. Just thought I'd let yall know. Guess I should be thankful that god didn't allow her to suffer any more than she did. We did not want her to have to struggle against pulmonary issues caused by the heart defect if she was born alive. She passed a peacefully as possible.
I figured she was not alive when I went into labor so early. I barely got on a bed in the hospital when I screamed at the nurses to get off me (they were trying to strap monitors on me but we knew she was dead by then) because in one big ol' push, just like an Octomom skit, she was catapulted into this world. I didn't hold her immediately because they immediately started pushing on my low abdomen to get the placenta out. I delivered her with no meds, but it was the placenta that hurt!
We did hold her, took pics and NILMDTS did take pics the following day. We had our angel cremated and her urn fits inside a teddy bear.
We are heartbroken. If it wasn't bad enough to lose our first pregnancy to a cord accident more than 4 years ago, then suffer 4+ years misdiagnosis of infertility (no one checked my husband - easier to say I was "old"), now we have a rare fluke to add to ther reason why we have 2 angels and no living children.
Funny, I thought facing 40 last yr with 1 angel and no l/c was the worst thing that could happen. Silly me... now it's 41 and we're 0-2. :eek:
Spare me the prayers and the plattitudes. Just thought I'd let yall know. Guess I should be thankful that god didn't allow her to suffer any more than she did. We did not want her to have to struggle against pulmonary issues caused by the heart defect if she was born alive. She passed a peacefully as possible.