Forum: I need a shoulder

I wasnt able to sleep well last night & stayed out in the living room with the TV. When it came time for my boyfriends other 3 children to get ready for school the youngest asked to see a picture of Drayke on my phone. I happily obliged then she asked "when is Drayke coming home from the hospital?...

Its been almost 19 months now since we lost Jayden. Nineteen months. I was starting to settle into my new normal. I went through the year of "firsts" without him. I passed the two year mark when we conceived him. I didn't want to be pregnant again at the same time of year. So we waited until now...

So I was watching Tyler's house of pain, when the tail end reminded me of something that i havent thought about in such a very long time, nearly 6 months! Calvin and his wife thought they were gona lose there baby. she went in to be rechecked she was fine. They had a cd of the baby's heart beat!...

So, for us this is over 8 months of hoping to become pregnant (we started trying in December) only to get negative after negative. ::::sigh:::: Anyways, I have quit trying as much as I had been, mostly because it is really starting to take a toll on my heart (I'm sure many of you know exactly how...

I lost Joshua at 25 weeks my hubby was gone on a business trip and I was alone at the house when I went into pre-term labor. The closest family was an hour and half away. Well this coming Friday makes me 25 weeks with our rainbow baby and I'm kinda freaking out. The doctor did a fFn test last week...

Hi everyone, I have some happy news, I have a new niece! She was born on Monday morning (8/2). Thats the good news. But... I am so happy to have such a beautiful little girl in my life, but I've got such a mix of emotions about it. Ashton's 4 month angelversary is in a few days and we...

As most know, we had our rainbow twins June 11th and I couldn't be happier than having them at home with me. I know they are such a blessing and I love them more than words can say...Just like I do their older sisters. I just feel so overwhelmed with emotions though!! I miss "MyKenzie" like crazy!...

The past few days I have been downright depressed. I an barely look at Mayas pictures because all I do is cry...and that is so unlike me. I LOVE looking at her. I'm still having nightmares quite often about being pregnant with Maya or sometimes even a new baby and knowing they are dead. There...

It was exactly 2 weeks ago at this time (2 AM) that I watched Madison go to heaven. I've been up crying for the past hour. I usually don't have a hard time sleeping, unlike a lot of other mothers on here, I think because when I'm asleep I forget that she is gone. It's the waking up part I hate. ...

Let me start by saying that my daughter (Sadie) is now 2 months old and I love her so dearly. She means the world to me and I'm so happy and over the moon in love with her. She is my first child since losing my son Isaac back in April '09.....she's my rainbow baby :D Since having her, I feel...

I just read a story on the internet about a French woman who was arrested when it was discovered that she killed 8 of her healthy newborn babies because she didn't want to have any more children and she refused to use contraception. WHAT!!!! I had to let go of and bury 2 very much wanted and very...

So saturday we went to the city for dans brothers 40th b-day party as well it was my 30th, so i thought was the reason. when we got there dans cousins baby shower was being held as well, her and i were due at the same time. I felt like i had been kicked in the chest and couldnt breathe. i did...

I really hate these waves of sadness that are just crashing over me. Can you believe that a stupid McDonald's commercial talking about finding Hope in a Happy Meal and I burst into honest to God tears where I am just sobbing into my hands with my lap full of laundry? I am so teary, so emotional...

My three year old daughter recently has become very aware of babies. She notices them wherever we are, and pretends to mommy her baby dolls. All very normal for little girls. Yesterday, she informed me that she is not a baby any more, and that we need to get a new one. "TWO" she says! I wanted...

For the last 2 years my dad has been battling cancer.In dec we lost our angel caiden in february i had gotten a call saying your dad wants you up here.The cancer has spread.I spent 2 weeks with him.Beginning of july.the cancer has gotten worse..spread to his liver..Hes been telling his wife hes...

Happy 20th month, angelversary sweet sweet Angel Marie! Mommy loves you to pieces! Please give Jessie and Peyton tons of kisses and hugs for me.. p.s please tell them we are getting closer to getting our answers! I can only imagine how big you are now and how much you would be doing as a big girl...

I was at the grocery store shopping with my mom when this cute guy ran right over my bad ankle that has a cast on it over...He was of course full of "im sorry's". It didnt hurt but suprised me... We talked for a few minutes and he asked for my number. I gave it to him.. We began to text a little...

Would you believe Cole would have been 6 months on Friday. FRIDAY.... 6 months.... already! It was 5 mths today since we lost him and I just broke down. Had a bad day at work and didn't even realize I was crying. WTF! GAHHHH... why does time go so fast sometimes??? Angie

Ahhh, now im really tired of this b.s! My mom and I had just went shopping for general things a few minutes ago.... We stopped by the toy isle( the general isle for 1-3 yrs old)..My bro's new g.f has a daughter who is almost 18 months old.... She picked out a dora backpack that sings.. Inside, my...

Today has been one of those "off" days and real sad day for me... I guess its partly from being awake since 630 am.... My mind was racing last night.. I kept dreaming about Angel's, Jessie's and Peyton's births... Thats all i remember....I was going shopping with my mom,(grocery and swim suite...